Misfit Angels

13

It was hard to leave Kellin. Even though tonight had been completely ridiculous and I took everything out on him, it didn't faze him as much I thought it would. He still did everything he could to get me to talk and work things out with him, and we did. I was even able to talk to him somewhat about some rather serious things, but then it got uncomfortable, so I kissed him so I wouldn't have to talk anymore. I didn't like talking about my problems because I knew people didn't care. They were my problems, not theirs, so why would they care in the first place?

I mostly feel bad that I ruined the night for him. Kellin and I have a complicated relationship, but I think it's because the lack of communication due to us being scared for remotely no reason. Because I don't blame him for not stopping Jaime and his douchebag friend from hurting me, I probably would have done the same thing. I didn't blame him for anything because he has done nothing wrong. He's just as scared as I am. We're both trying to figure out what the hell it is we are doing and I think I'm the one making things more difficult.

When I got home, of course my dad wasn't home. He was probably working late or something, but I didn't really think about it that much, because I didn't care. Of course I love my dad, and always will, but the relationship has been dulled down significantly and there isn't much left. The only thing left Is the fact that he's my dad and I'm his son, and that's really it. We don't really talk and when we do it's mostly about what my plans after training will be, if I will take the job they give me, or if I'll take my chances and try to find my own job- which most people don't do because it's nearly impossible. For me, it wouldn't matter if I took the bullshit job that SRC gives me of not because either way I could have my dad give me a job, not that I'd want that either. To be honest, I have no idea what I want to do with my life by next year. Right now, all that's on my mind is Kellin, like all the time- Not that that's a bad thing. I think I would rather have my pretty boyfriend on my mind than all the other crap that I usually have.

I decided my best bet was just to go to bed and sleep on everything. It was just easier that way.
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The next morning I did feel better. I felt refreshed and I really wanted to go see Kellin now that my head was clearer. I sent him a quick text asking him if I could come over. He didn't answer so I just assumed he was still asleep. I decided I would take a quick shower and if he hadn't answered when I got out, I would just call him and hope that would wake him up. I just really wanted to see him.

Yawning and stretching, I made my way to the restroom before turning on the shower and letting the hot water warm the entire restroom. When I knew I wouldn't freeze as I changed, I began taking my clothes off in front of the mirror, because lets be real, who doesn't get naked in front of their reflection when they take a shower? Lastly, taking my shirt off and throwing it to the side, I smiled at my reflection before walking towards my shower. Right before I stepped into the water, I realized something. I rushed back to the mirror in complete awe at what I was witnessing. On the left side of my chest was a circle-like shape with lots of other little shapes and curves inside. It was hard to explain it because I had never seen it before. My eyes widened when I realized what it was. It was my birthmark that I shared with my soulmate.

"Oh my god." I voiced out loud when I realized that the only other person who could hold this mark as well was Kellin. I kissed him last night and now my mark has appeared.

Kellin is my soulmate

I told myself over and over. While in the shower all I could think about was how I have my soulmate already and I'm only Seventeen. As much as a shock this was, I wasn't that surprised. I mean, I had been with lost of other guys and none of them were like Kellin. I never felt the way I did with Kellin, with any of those other guys. Whenever I knew I was going to see Kellin, I would get so happy, because he made me happy. But with those other guys, it was just this numbness. I didn't feel a thing at all with them. It was just a distraction that I would use to make me believe that there really wasn't anything missing. 

When I had finished with my shower, I quickly got changed. And even though Kellin hadn't answered my text, I deiced not to call him and instead just show up at his house. Maybe I could surprise him and maybe he wont be as freaked out about seeing his mark if I'm there with him.

As I stepped out the door, I practically got soaked. "Of course." I mumble to myself. Of course it would be pouring right now. Usually I wouldn't mind some rain, because I actually love rain but not when I had to drive in it.