Harry Styles BSM

3. You passed away while he's on tour (part two)

Still Harry's POV

Its been hours since they bury her coffin on that six feet hole and Im still sitting here beside her grave. During the ceremony i didnt dare to speak. I just hung my head low fearing that I'll break down infront of my family. Im trying to look tough to be strong for them for my family and of course for Y/n.

"Hello my precious kitten. I hope you're okay, peaceful, happy and safe." I kept on staring at her grave but then I feel a cold but soft blow of wind touches my skin.

"Why Y/N? Why did you left me? What happened? Why didnt I realized somethings happening to you back then? Why didnt you tell me? I thought theres no secrets between us? You could've just told me that somethings bothering you, I wouldn't care if its in the middle of the night, I wouldn't care if I was tired just to help you ease the pain away, just to tell you that I'll be here whatever happens. I wouldn't care at all. Why? Why didnt you think about me? When you're holding the rope? Why didn't you think about the people who love you. Did you think about what will they feel? Its not the same when you're gone Y/n. Its not the same. Did you see how broken mom, gemma and robin? Did you see how sad the lads look? Did you see how torn I was? Y/n I didn't tell you this before but, remember I used to cut? You're the reason why I stopped. You're the reason why I became like this. You're my other half, you're the reason why Im living. I was about to tie my neck on the rope that time when gemma barged into my room saying that mom is on a labor and a few hours after you came Y/n. And when I first saw you, I was afraid to touch you, I was afraid that if I touched you you'll break, because you look so fragile. Then mom handed you to me, when I first carried you, something changed. Its like theres a whole new world ahead of me. As you grow up I promised myself that I will keep you safe and sound, that I will keep those mean people away from you and that I will protect you, I wont let those bad things happened to me to happen to you(what???) That i will always stay by your side to guard you and to love you. But I guess I broke that promise. I didn't succeed, I didnt stay by your side. Im sorry for that Y/n but remember that You Y/n are the reason why im alive right now and I will live for the better, I will never forget you Y/n. I love you so much." As i said those words I think I felt someone hugged me from behind, and when I looked I saw there my Baby sister hugging me.

"Kitten?" I turned around and hugged her once more tightly

"Harry, will you stay alive. For me? Please protect mom, gemma, robin and the boys? For me?" She whispered

"Of course Kitten" i told her not letting go

"Will you please, be happy? Don't even think about me. You wont notice that I'm gone." She said again her voice soft like an angel like she is.

"I-ill try baby" i told her, she let go of the hug and faced me

"Hazzy, I'm serious. Dont blame yourself that I did this, this is clearly my choice. Im very sorry that I made all of you sad, but I just cant do it anymore. Im really sorry I didnt called you that night, and I dont want to make you sad. I love you Harry.. all of you. Promise that you'll talk to me when you have the time? I'll always listen. And I promise you that I'll be your guardian Angel. I'll be with you every step of the way" my precious baby girl told me those things as if shes saying her final words to me.

"I love you kitten. So much"

"I love you to Harry. I got to go"

"No, please dont leave me"

"Im sorry Harry its already time, remember this.. I will always be with you. You can't get rid of me that easy.. i love you"

Those were her final words before she disappeared. The final words before she left me. Forever. But she will not remain only as a memory bacause she's always here with me. In my heart.