Harry Styles BSM

70. Broken Home (Louis)

“You’ve gotta let it go, you’re losing all your hope
Nothing left to hold. Locked out in the cold
Your painted memories been washed out all the seas
I’m stuck in between a nightmare and lost dream.”

It’s dark, and it’s cold, and I’m scared. Then, I saw the moon, it’s so big and it’s so bright. It seems to chase the darkness away, it’s the only company I’ve had these past few nights. It’s been days since I left home, do I regret it? I don’t know. It’s better here, no screaming, no fighting only peace. But sometimes though, the outside place can’t give the comforts of home, what am I saying, there’s no comfort at my home, there’s no home.

*flash back*

“Please don’t go” pleaded by the 13 year old me

“I can’t baby, the fans need me, besides we’ll always facetime or skype each other, yeah?” my brother said letting go of the hug as I let few tears slip through my eyes

“Come on sis, don’t cry, I don’t want to leave you sad” he said as he crouched down so were eye to eye

“I’ll just miss you” I said, not looking into him, I don’t want him to see me like this, it’ll just break his heart

“You’ll never know that I’m gone, it’s just a few months y/n” he said

“Will you make it on my birthday?”

“I’m afraid not babe, but promise I’ll call you deal?” he said as I nodded
“Were about to board the plane babe, take care of yourself okay? I love you” he said before standing up and walking towards those glass doors. My heart is beating faster I don’t know why but it seems faster more than the plane that will take him away from me, I know this isn’t a goodbye, but it feels like it.

*time skip*

It’s been a few weeks since my brother left again for tour, it’s been a few weeks since they started fighting again. Harsh words were thrown to each other, fragile things, like glass, plates and everything that can be broken were always heard being shattered, the once simple argument turned into a screaming match from both of the human beings who completed this family, and I can’t take it anymore. I don’t know what I’m doing, I grabbed my bag and stuff some things in it, clothes, money and other things including my brother’s and I’s picture. It’s easy to sneak out, I’ll use my window and since they’re busy yelling at each other’s faces, they won’t know. I’ve been waiting, praying for this to end, why can’t they just work things out, and somehow though, in the midst of believing that things will be better soon, I just can’t anymore, it feels like hoping won’t change a thing, that they won’t fix this. I don’t believe anymore, I’m tired of hoping.

This is it, it’s now or never. My nightmare will now end. I’m finally leaving home, I’m going to be free, I’m going to find peace. No one will notice that I’m gone, even my brother, he won’t know, it’s been weeks since he left and I still haven’t received a call or even a text from him.

I didn’t know if this decision of going away is right. I just want to escape the pain, what had happened to the once perfect family I had? What had happened to my brother’s promise? I guess promises fade, sometimes though people don’t understand the promises they make. Somehow I think going away is a right choice because no one can hurt you when you’re alone, right? But I miss them, my parents specially my brother, I miss the old times. Should I remember the memories of my past? Or should it be forgotten and treat it like a trash?
I kept on walking till I noticed that the sky is once again going darker and darker by the minute, luckily I found a bench just beside the streetlight, and well it’s a good place to sleep tonight. I carried my bag towards the bench and lied down and made myself comfy, I used my bag as my pillow and my jacket as the blanket, after a couple of thoughts ruing through my head, I found myself slowly drifting off to sleep.

Though a couple minutes later, I suddenly jolted awake without knowing the reason why. A screeching sound was heard near me, and as I turn my head to check what it was, a blinding light flashed to my eyes then everything went black. Is this really goodbye?

This is it 😭 I finally finished it *wipes tears away* I hope ya'll liked this. I worked really hard on these series. It's really hard to manage my time really, Junior year as of now is hell. Teachers are making us work even its vacation thingy though we still have classes haha. Anyways I'm a rebel so I'm up at dawn and on wattpad. Soo do comment and vote for me please. And thank you for holding on. Char