Harry Styles BSM

91. Always by your side

~Autism~

HELLO PEOPLE! Yes I'm back, for now. So, yeah. I don't even know what to say in this author's note, 'cause you know, I haven't written for quite a while ever since the school started, and I know most of my readers have started their summer breaks and I just started school..... sad.

ANYWAYS, this oneshot or imagine, or bsm or whatever you call it is requested by @lollieb545 , Liv, my love shout out to ya! And I apologize for posting this too late, I know I've apologized weeks ago but I'm still sorry... I love ya gurl!

SO, I haven't written something like this before if I can remember... so I apologize if this looks shitty to ya and if its crap, since I'm a bit rusty in writing, it feels like I'm starting all over again, but I swear I did my best hahaha...

NOW CHOP! CHOP!

ENJOY XX

Age 4

Harry's P.O.V

Life wasn't as good as we wish it would before, our home was falling apart, our family clashes, we left the care of mom's mother, we were on our own. Just because mom got pregnant again for the third time, she drove us away telling mom to never come back and forget about her family, our grandmother was against my mother's remarriage in the first place, then my mom got pregnant which triggered our grandmother's hatred droving us away. We were fine, as long as the family is complete; Rob, our stepfather, mom, gem, mark, me and our soon to be sibling in my mom's womb. Life was hard that time, luckily we've got our own little house, the money Rob earns was almost a little too difficult for us to budget especially that we're having another sibling in the family, we had almost given up, I had almost given up; but then, God graced us with a beautiful little sister, our little bundle of joy and hope.

I remember seeing her for the first time, something became a lit inside of me, something flickered that made me see the life we're currently living in a better view, a much better picture than it was before everything started falling apart. And all the little pieces that fell had instantly went back and made everything whole again. Just like when we became a mess, we instantly got better and the little holes inside our hearts made by everything we've been through has been filled with hope and happiness because of her; she was the light that showed us the way out of the tunnel of darkness we were in, our little angel.

We we're living a life in pure happiness and bliss, flash forward, we got up, we became stable financially, I found one direction, Gemma finished her university life, we were happy. But life isn't as picture perfect as we wish it would; and that every happiness in the world would always be followed by its contrast.

Simply put, life is not always all rainbows and unicorns, other times there would be rain, darkness, thunder shaking up our peaceful living.

A few years later, Rob, our stepfather has lost his battle against cancer; it was tragic. The thought of losing another father whom loved us like we are his own, he was one of the best man I've ever met and I am lucky that he became a part of our lives. It was hard living without him. It was the hardest for our mom. And even for our little sister. But we gotta keep moving forward, sadly, mom wasn't with us, she got stuck, still mourning her other half's loss; she was diagnosed with depression, we asked someone to help her and thankfully, she slowly got better. We became fine.

But a few years later, another problem resurfaced, our little angel was diagnosed with 'autism spectrum disorder' or what they call ASD or simply autism. Of course it was a shock for us, for everyone else especially our mom, but what else can we do? We can only accept her and continue loving her the way we did before she was diagnosed with it. It's not a virus, it's not something that would make us stop loving her, she's our little bundle of joy, the sole purpose why I'm still here, she's the reason why I haven't given up yet, and this time, I won't give up on her.

But sadly, mom did, and so did everyone else. They let her go without even thinking twice. They let her go as if they'd realize that they're holding something dirty, threw it onto the ground and left. Just like that. They left her as if she was nothing but a piece of garbage they didn't want to get close to. As if she's not a family, as if she's someone who isn't a part of us, as if she wasn't the one who mended us together when we were breaking. They all left.

I asked my mom why, and she just stared at me, her cold gaze meeting mine, and said "I don't want something defective" and left. She uttered those words as if it wasn't about her child, as if she's just talking about something that she bought from the store. And she left.

I stayed there frozen, still processing the words she said, understanding why she had made the decision of leaving her daughter easily. I was left with pain, it felt like my heart had crumbled and broken down into tiny little fragments and left scattered on the floor. I was mad, I was beyond furious of myself because I can't even stand up for my little sister, I was left broken because my mom did that easily as if it was nothing. I was scared because I didn't want my little sister to grow up incomplete. I was beyond scared.

But the boys are with me. And I know that they will never leave me.

Hello again! Hope you liked it Livvyyy, and I hope the others did too, so I decided to divide this part in two, I'll post the continuation next time... I'll be honest, I can't finish this chapter today sorry again. I know it seems like I started lacking in dedication in this writing thingy, but I've just been quite busy and such, I know none of you might read this hahaha but who cares. I can't even explain myself.

Sooooooo yeah, if you want me to write you something or request just hit me up and message me. I'LL POST THE CONTINUATION NEXT TIME OKAY? UNTIL THEN, I APOLOGIZE.

-grae