Adopted By One Direction [Completed]

Ch. 23

Lili:

I take a deep breath, looking at Ashton.  My eyes are filled with worry and he sees it.  He knows that this is hard for me.

"Just try.  Even if you stutter it's something."

I nod but look away.  My eyes travel to the boys who are playing football.  They look happy and laugh as Louis tackles Niall.  But someone's missing.

Harry.

He decided to sit in the tour bus and do who knows what.  But we all know it has something to do with what happened at the dinner a week ago.  Even the boys from the other bamd because Tiger can't keep her mouth shut.

Although we all knew someone was going to get angry at one point or another.  There was obvious tension that had been there for so long.  Even before Tiger and I.  I just never thought Harry would be the one to snap first.

Ashton snaps his fingers in front of my face a couple times.  His eyes are filled with worry when I look back and I realized I had been staring at the boys for too long.  We both knew I was over thinking.

"W-what if I can't s-speak without stuttering?" I ask, scared of what will happen.  I knew the plan would make it somewhat better, but if I stutter it might not be enough.  That's my biggest fear.

Ashton sighs and rest his face on his fist.  His legs are crossed and his bracelets fall down his arm a little bit.  It reminds me of why I talk to him and not the others.

Then again, I feel horrible.  I shut out everyone else because I thought they didn't understand.  In reality I'm the one who doesn't understand them.

"Try again." Ashton instructs.  His light eyes bore into mine and I nod. 

"L-iam, Louis, Niall, Zayn, H-h-harry." I stop and look down after I finally manage to spit out Harry's name.  It just doesn't roll off my toung as well as the others.  I messed up a little on Liam's name but I know I'll get it eventually.

"Again."

"Liam, L-Louis-"

"Again."  Ashton lifts his head to look at me better.  He leans closer and I sigh.

"Liam, Louis, N-iall, Z-zayn-"

"Again."

I let out a cry of frustration amd throw my hands up.  My chest starts to feel heavy and I know I'll never get it.  If I can't say their names right how the hell will I get though a speech?