Forever

S I X

I've been rolling and tossing myself on this bed for hours now, and still I can't help myself to sleep. I feel like I'm in need of something, but I can't tell what exactly it is.

I find myself walking out the front door, and fall breeze immediately hits me. I walk closer to the lake and sit on the bench provided.

I watch as the water forms into small waves. I remember when I and Nash are still together, we often go to the beach. The memories flashbacks which makes my tears stream down my face.

I'm in the middle of wiping my tears away from my face when someone offers me a handkerchief and says, "Here," The voice sounds so familiar, I look up at him and It's Cameron. I wasn't expecting that though.

"No thanks." I force my lips to tug into a smile, to show him that I'm completely fine, even though I'm not.

He holds up my chin and wipe away my tears that are still streaming down. That was so nice of him.

He sits next to me on the bench and I ask him,"Can I hug you?" He answers me with just a nod, I hug him so tight and let out my anger, sadness, and disappointments.

I pull away from him because I don't want to make his sweater wet with my tears.

After pulling away from him, our eyes locked and he bring his hands up again. The pad of his thumb captures the tear before it rolls down my cheeks, What is he doing? He leans closer and his hands still on my face, my mind is racing. He crash his lips against mine, catching me totally off guard. My conscious and hormones are fighting but my conscious loses as I let his toungue enter my mouth.

I was totally off guard, I have no idea what I'm doing, He's mouth tastes like just what I had imagined. His warm toungue runs along mine, my entire body feels like it has been kindled, I have never felt like this before.

He pulls back a little and plants a small kiss on my lips, "Amy." He breaths and brings his mouth back to mine, slipping his toungue once more.

My mind isn't completely functioning, my sensations takes over every tiny parts of my body and mind. Cam pulls me closer than before, our chests are touching, never breaking the kiss. His strong arm and hand is gripping my waist, closing every space between us and the other one is cupping my flushed cheek. I'm unsure of what to do with my hands, I put them around his neck. His skin is so hot and our chests moving up and down due of rapid breathing.

Nash slides in my mind which makes me realize that I'm doing something wrong, I and Nash didn't fully broke up, "Stop." I say between the kiss.

Cameron pulls his warm lips against mine, I look into his eyes, they are much more darker, yet softer and his lips are darker pink and swollen due of kissing me.

"I have a boyfriend" I remind him, I really want kissing him but I can't. He probably didn't know about that.

He stands up and I guess his making his way to the cottage, he left me. Alone. I never expected that he would act that way after all.

I grab my phone, and find myself dialing Nash's contact at three in the morning. Shit.

Nash answers on the fifth ring, "Hey." I said.

"I'm so so sor-" Nash tries to explain himself, but I cut him off, "shh, It's fine." I assure him. I feel numb at the moment, I don't even know why I called him.

"Just let me explain, please?" He begs through the other end of the line. "Mhm." I simply response.

He explains everything what happened that miserable night. He's in the middle of explaining when my tears start to roll down my cheeks, I should've listen to him, I'm a complete idiot for not listening to him earlier. He texted his explanation but I took it for granted.