Forever

T H R E E

"Amanda! Amanda! Are you okay?" My mom yells from the other side of the bathroom door.

I've been here since the miserable moment, I can't even function. All I want is to be alone, not to be interrupted by anyone or anything. I'm so broken, I don't think I can even fix myself. I've had enough, all these knots is too much to be handled by someone alone.

"I'm fine." I try to manage to speak, It sounds broken just like how I feel right now.

"Amy we can talk about this. Just get out of your bathroom." My mom begs.

No matter how much I want to comply my mom, I can't. I'm too weak to function, I'm too broken to function and I'm too mad to function.

"Fine." I tell my mom. My parents has no clue about what happened last night, they just got worried when I enter our front door and they saw me crestfallen.

By the time I get out of the tub my knees are wobbly, my head is pounding like hell, my hair is almost dry and my body looks disgusting due of the amount of water my body has taken.

I stand in front of the massive mirror in my bathroom and ask myself "am I not enough? Am I boring? Am I not keeping him occupied? What am I lacking of? Why does he have to look for someone else when he got me all the time?" All these unanswered questions keeps running in my mind, it hurts me emotionally. Can I even escape from this pain?

I grab a leggings from my dresser and an oversized sweater, It's fall and It's getting cold here in New York. I'm not feeling any stylish right now and I don't feel broken either now, I feel numb.

I lay down on my bed and wrapped the duvet around my body, I have no plans today, all I need is to sleep and get away from reality.

..

I wake up and the sun is setting, It's nearly evening. I look across my room and I saw Andrea sitting on the couch she looks so worried, and I have no idea why.

"Hey." She manage to smile. "Hey." I croaked. My voice sounds broken still, how long will it take to get my voice back?

She walks closer to me and sit on the edge of my bed. She looks at me for good couple seconds and turn her looks back to her fingers that are doing some kind of actions.

She looks at me back and says "Look, I'm sorry for all that happened last night." She apologizes which I don't get because she didn't do anything but where were her that time?

"Shh. You don't have to apologize. You didn't do anything, It isn't your fault that it happened." I tell her.

"Maybe if I and Cobi didn't leave the room, The slut will not be with Nash," She tells. I look at her with confusion, did she send the girl to be with Nash? "and No, I didn't send the girl to Nash, That would be the dumbest Andrea, If I ever did that." She answers my thoughts and chuckles afterwards.

"If that's the case, then you don't have anything to apologize for. You're all good." I tell her.

She crawl towards me and give me a hug, a hug so tight that I can barely breathe.

After a couple of seconds, she lets go and look straight into my eyes. "That bitch should know who she's bumping. I want to kill that bitch, but No, I'm just going to hurt her emotionally and physically, really, really bad." She smirks, I don't doubt for a second that she would do just that.