Forever

E L E V E N

Today is the day; The day that the concrete in my arms will be removed and Nate is with me through all of this, because all of my friends are occupied at the moment and I don't want them to ditch their classes just because of me.

Cam was supposed to be here with me, but he didn't showed up nor replied to all of my countless messages from that night he left the hospital and it's been three weeks. I'm apprehensive towards him, I know this won't help me from moving on. Or is there even away from moving on from him? I'm locked in him, but surely not in his heart. Just somewhere else.

"You ready?" Nate asks which makes me break my thoughts. I nod.

Nate open his car door for me, and my butt touches the cold leather seat of the car. Nate makes his way on his side of the car and starts to drive towards my home.

In the middle of the drive, Nate asks me, "So, you and Cam, together?" I wish, hope, want.

"No." I fake smile at him, to hide all of the pangs.

"He's lucky," he glance at me for a second and turn his focus onto the road afterwards. "That someone appealing like you likes him." He added. I just react with a shrug.

The radio suddenly starts to boom with a music, a lovely music I will never get tired of listening to. "You like The Fray?" He smirks.

"Mhm." I reply as I close my eyes and allow the music to drown me with its lovely sound.

This song reminds me of Nash, he hates this song so much because he thinks it's crude. Though, I love how he reacts to this song whenever I start to play it through my phone, audio, etc.. I miss him, I need to give him a call real soon.

I lean my head against the cold window pane of the car and rub my hands against each other, trying to warm myself.

"You cold?" He asks, and I just nod. He turns up the heater, which helps me from keeping myself from being frozen.

"Thank you." I smile.

He pulls into the driveway of my family's home. The road is covered by the snow, which stops me from getting out of the car by myself. I do have shoes on, but I never want to step my feet of the cold snow.

Nate put me in his arms, carrying me like a bride. Afterwards, he puts me down onto the cold leather couch of my home. He exits the house and soon walks back with my hospital bag in his hand. He have done so much just for me, and it makes me uncomfortable.

I pat the couch next to me, gesturing him to sit with me.

He smiles at me, his dimple is showing. I have to admit, he's so attractive, but being friends with him is the only thing I could give to him because I'm inlove with someone who doesn't even care about me. I'm like an insane woman who's desperate for someone's love, when there is someone who I sure know will allow me to own his heart and drown me with his love. Unfortunately, it isn't that easy to shift my feelings to a person to another.

Nate is such a great person and I sure as hell that he's going to meet someone who truly deserves him. I don't deserve him, I will never deserve him. I'm a huge messed and I never want him to be in it.

The sound of my phone ringing, signaling someone's calling me makes me to shrug my thoughts off. I grab my phone from the coffee table and Andrea's name starts to flash from it's screen.