Forever

T H I R T E E N

Yesterday was the best day of my life, and It was also the day I gave someone I can never take back. I hope I won't regret it, because when I was in that moment, I feel great, and blissful. I can't stop reminiscing what happened yesterday, I've never felt like that, mainly because it's my first time.

Cameron barge in my bedroom, I'll miss him everynight, because tonight is when my parents are coming home from their trip.

I'll introduce Cameron to my family, but I don't think they'll allow me to stay alone in a room with a boy until I graduated college. Basically, I abused their absence, partly because I sleep with a guy, and partly because I had sex while they are away.

"Let's go?" Cameron asks, breaking my thoughts. Cam's going to drop me off of school, because my car is wrecked and there's no way someone can fix it, so basically I need to save up money for a car. Though, my parents' cars are in the garage but not the keys, they probably brought it with them.

Commuting is a struggle, luckily Cameron is here but I know that anytime soon he'll go back to LA for modeling, leaving me here.

"Yeah, give me a minute." I tell him, I take a look of my appearance once again. Hell, I look like Sadness from Inside out with this white turtle neck sweater dress, stockings and uggs. I don't like wearing turtle neck sweater but I don't have any choice with all this hickeys around my neck area, and shoulder.

I plug in my curling iron, and curl my hair. To prevent myself from looking like the clone of Sadness. She has straight hair, so I'll curl my hair.

After doing my hair, I did my everyday makeup routine; A coat of BB cream, a sweep of bronzer, blush and highlighter, A few coats of mascara, A line of black eyeliner on my lids, a line of white eyeliner on my waterline, a few sweeps of tinted brow gel, a line of lipliner along the edges of my lips, and a few coats of mauve lipstick. Instead of using my contact lenses, I decided to just wear for my specs.

I walk down the staircase with my school bag hanging on my shoulder, and my phone in my hand messaging the group chat, saying, "See y'all! #GoodVibesWednesday!"

And with that message they all replied with, 'finally!' 'I missed you!' 'Sorry for not visiting you at the hospital!' 'Why are you absent yesterday anyway?' Before, I can even reply Cameron remarks at my appearance.

"Why the fuck you are so dressed up? Who are you trying to impress?" Cameron snaps.

"So dressed up?" I said "Hell, I look like Sadness from Inside out. Though she's cute." I don't want any arguement, I've had enough last night with Andrea. I prepare myself a bowl of cerial for breakfast.

"Fucking get rid all of your make up. It will make fucking everyone hit you up." He stomps his feet out of the kitchen. I try to lean against the stool I'm sitting on, carefully. Trying to get him on my sight, and he's just sitting on the couch in the family room, with his phone in his hand. Everytime, used to it.

By the act that he's showing I can tell that he's jealous. This is basically how I look everyday, except for the days I am in the hospital, and yesterday.

I'm not getting my appearance worse, I just don't want people seeing my obnoxious dark circles, and faint dark spots. I'm definitely not trying to get every guy's attention, because even myself don't like if someone's attention is on me other than my friends.