Hold On Forever (Asking Alexandria) ON HOLD.

Chapter 12

*** CASSIE'S POV ***

I woke up early the next morning, it was still pitched black outside and it was so cold I didn't want to move, I'd almost forgotten that we were sleeping in a car in the middle of no where. From what I could see the snow had stopped, or at least calmed down. I was still cuddled up with Ben, who was snoring softly beside me, the only sound I could actually hear. Shortly after I could feel him shuffling slightly beside me, and his breathing wasn't so deep. I looked up and noticed he was awake, watching me. 

'Can't sleep?' Ben whispered, I half smiled and then nodded gently. After a few seconds I pulled my self up and then sat beside him, he looked up at me and did the same, 'I'm assuming it's early'

I nodded again, looking out of the window, I could barely see a thing it was so dark. There were no street lights or anything, and the moon and stars didn't seem to excist here either, 'do you think we'd be able to drive back yet?'

'Probably, hopefully' Ben sighed, sitting back a bit, 'what a fun night out this was' he laughed sarcastically.

'I know, you've really got a great taste in parties' I smirked, before climbing into the front passengers seat. 

The drive back was quite eventful for it being early in the morning. It was still dark when we got back and after going through phases of being uncontrollably hyper and then wanting to melt into the car, I managed to fall fast asleep in my bed, fully clothed and with the lights on, to the sound of an ambulance siren ringing through the streets.

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It was a friday night and Cassie had spent a week with Ben in London, but now she had to get the train home. It was late, and they'd spent the day lazing around, walking to Starbucks and then going home again. Neither of them wanted to do much today as they'd spent the night before at some sleazy club, which resulted in Ben getting extremely drunk and getting it on with someone in a bathroom cubicle, which he didn't even remember, but Cassie did, not that she'd say anything. They were both sad that Cassie was going, even if they wouldn't show it. Ben didn't want to her to leave, worried of what he'd do as he felt so alone in the big city. Even if he did have plenty of friends he only really wanted Cassie, she was the only one who could really understand without filling him up with alcohol.

They both stood at the train station, waiting for it patiently, secretly hoping something had happened and it wouldn't turn up, even though they both knew that would never happen. The conversation was short and the lump in Cassie's throat wasn't going anywhere. She was scared to speak, afraid she'd burst into tears, dreading going back to reality. Back to working at her shit job and not doing anything. She was dreading leaving Ben.

He was the same though, they'd been like this before, at the point of saying goodbye until never knowing when they'd see each other again, or the possibility that they wouldn't. At least before he was keeping himself occupied with the band, but at the moment they were on a break and his band members were busy with their on lives hours away, he'd just have to wait until America, where he'd be staying for God knows long. Without Cassie. Something he didn't want to think about.

The train arrived and people began to pile on in a rush, Cassie turned to face Ben, her eyes stinging as she tried not to cry. He held her hand, gripping it tightly, as if to never let her go. He pulled her into a hug and she breathed a sigh of relief into his chest, a silent tear falling from her eye, Ben didn't say anything, he didn't need to.

'We have to see each other again' Ben whispered into her ear as he nuzzled into her neck, taking in her scent, 'before I fuck off to America'

'Yes' Cassie nodded, unable to say much more, not that there was a lot to say anyway, 'I'm going to miss you so much, Ben'

He chuckled, kissing her cheek softly, 'I'm going to miss you too' he said. They both pulled away from each other finally or else Cassie would've missed the train. She smiled weakly at him, whiping her damp face. Not wanting to say goodbye, she just turned around and rushed towards the doors before they closed, heart beating as she just wanted to burst into tears.

To the eyes of others, Cassie might have come off like she was in love with Ben. She wasn't, and even if she was it was just in a friend way. She'd never felt so close to someone before in her life and the fact it was a band member she'd admired as well just increased it. The whole situation seemed surreal, like a dream she was going to burst from any second. But it wasn't a dream, it was real. The pain was real and her feelings were hurting.

The journey back seemed never ending. Cassie was still slightly hungover and tired but couldn't sleep, too afraid she'd miss her stop or something. Also her mind seemed too active, thinking about what Ben was doing right now, if he'd gone straight home (very doubtful) or gone to get wasted (not so doubtful).

Once she was home, in the early hours of the morning, tired, aching and feeling like crap, she just crashed straight into her bed. Another night fully clothed, another night with the light on. Cassie slipped into a deep sleep, not even dreaming of anything, and if she did it wouldn't have been anything positive anyway.

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A/N : Oh look I fail to upload another full chapter AGAIN fucking hell, you have no idea how sorry I am, seriously I swear to god my  mind lately is just asdfghjkl. It feels like I haven't updated in forever as well, fuck sakes.

Moving swiftly on, CALLING ALL PEOPLE WHO HAVE DONE/ARE DOING GCSE'S IN ENGLAND, please message me, I have a shit ton of questions I'm in desperate need of help as I'm moving back there at the end of the month and do not have a single clue about anything urgh fuck life.

Also, I REACHED 500 FOLLOWERS HOLY SHIT. Wow. Seriously guys thank you so  muchhhhh!!! I love you all to pieces <3 I go back to england on the 27th of June, so I'm going to updating most of my stories around the 26-27th, because I don't know when I'll be able to update very soon after that. Complications sucks merh.

I also may be starting youtube, thoughts? Thankyou all <3