💙🌊I Speak in Poetry🌊💙

Had and Have

I was full

and walking

and breathing

but blind...

only full of want.

Then  you came

with sweet words

and admiring grins

a glint in your eyes

that screamed praise

with promises of 'dreams do come true'

and 'love is real'

and the want...

the hope... of something more

And so I took you in

to finally feel the whole

I didn't know

I already had

You used me,

drained me,

took everything.

and you wore what I was

like the borrowed skin it is

and created your image

after my own

By leaving me

forgotten in the storm

an emptiness of used to be

and in all?

I'm at fault.

Because I thought,

but did not know,

Thought,

but did not know,

That glints of interest

are not shining attraction.

That boys

really are only just boys

and that your worship was really

envy.

And as you walk

full, and breathing,

running fast and strong, away

from this lie

Our lie

I drown

in the air that you flew away on.

Empty

and hardened

and alone

with the once upon a dreams

the maybes

the words

and the argument in my head

between Want

versus Need.