Wanted Love (Waterloo road/leabians)

Chapter Twelve (Wanted Love

Chapter 12 -

Lorraine Donegan:

Waking up to Nelly crying, I went to see to her. Eddie woke up to while she was in my arms "see I can look after her" he just stared... "Yeah sorry about that, I'm going for shower" something didn't seem right with him... He was acting weird but I tried to make the day as normal as possible.

Once we were all dressed and had woken up we went to the restaurant to eat a lovely breakfast. We fed Nel to and then spent the rest of the day by the pool. Things still felt awkward between us. However I let the day lead on. I left Nel with Eddie by the pool and went for a walk, I needed to clear my head and think about what that kiss meant? 

I felt awful, but the kiss... It felt so right. I walked down the sea front, making m way to the place, that place where it happened, two years on... Where mine and Nikki's lips met once more. Looking back now I would of never thought this would of happened... Even to just see her! Let alone kiss her, after are arguing. I wish I could go back! Go back and put things right, maybe things would be different? Who knows. It was different now and nothing could happen. All I wondered is why she wanted to meet me at that cliff top in a few days time.

I started walking back and got an ice cream, I had to enjoy this holiday! What wasn't there to love, I didn't have to work, clean, cook, I had sea views so I couldn't really be sad. As I walked back up I went past Nikki's house, staring at the door for a while until someone came down the side putting the bins out "Lorraine?" She questioned "what are you doing?" I smiled "so..sorry" I just stood there.... A car started driving around the corner but I didn't move out of the way "Lo... LORRAINE!" She shouted while pushing me out of the way and landing on top of me. "What are you doing?" She questioned while helping me up. "Come inside" she took me up to the kitchen and poured me a drink. "What were you doing" I just shrugged and looked up at her beautiful face staring back at me. "This isn't like you" she said gently while we sat on the sofas, each of us on the opposite side. "I'm. I.... I'm sorry" I was shaking, she took my hand "it's ok" she reassured "but why... Would you of moved?" I shrugged again, "Nikki meet me at the roof top on Friday evening?" I questioned, she looked at me "yeah of course" she smiled and then she hugged me as I began to cry. "I'm sorry!" I blurted out everything! "Nikki I can't do this anymore! I can't!" I started and couldn't stop. Nikki had started crying to "since I saw you! I realised things should be different Lorraine! I wish, I really do!" She said crying, it was crazy... I could forget about everything that happened "if I could I would run away with you! I wish Nikki!" She looked shocked "you'd do that" she questioned "for you" then she looked up at the clock "Louise will be home soon, meet me Friday night ok!" She explained and then I started walking back up the hill to the hotel.

"Where have you been?" Eddie questioned "I said I was going out, why you miss me?" I tried to be friendly, I really did but how much I tried I just couldn't do this. "You were just gone longer that's all... I met some mates up at the pool, and on Friday we have arranged to go out on the water and stuff" I gave a smile, "boy stuff" I said with a laugh... I didn't want him to no anything was up. This is why I continue how things would be. Nel started crying and I looked at him "I'll sort her, don't worry Lorraine.. You look tired" he smiled and I got ready for bed.

We laid there next to each other "I'm sorry, I think your great with Nelly and it wasn't my place to judge, so sorry" he apologised, it sounded selfish but Ididn't care, course I loved Nel but I just couldn't be a mum. It wasn't for me... It tired me out and I'm just not great with babies, now I have this huge responsibility to look after. "It's fine" I replied. After a while I fell asleep, Eddie was right, I was tired.

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