One Direction Imagines

Usure (Zayn Malik)

Well I finally knew, all this time of wondering and guessing I finally knew. I brushed the few strands of hair that fell from my messy bun. I was shaking with fear, excitement; well I didn’t really know how to feel. But the real question was how Zayn would feel. “[Y/F/N]!” I yelled from the bathroom, in desperate need of support. She walking in unsurely, scanning my face for any sign of my bundled emotions. She drew closer, “Well what’s the news?” I focused my gaze solely on her wondering expression. “Looks like I’m pregnant!” I squealed with excitement. She effortlessly pulled to me into her arms, squeezing my shoulders tightly; tears stung my eyes with worry not knowing how my life would turn out in the matter of a few hours.

I was scared of what might become of my relationship with Zayn, I mean he was in the prime of his career I’m sure the last thing he wants it his girlfriend pregnant. [Y/F/N] tried her best in comforting me but nothing would help until I told Zayn. I had to tell him, good or bad I just had to tell him. After [Y/F/N] left I did my best to clean myself up and wash my worries away, but they soon flooded back into my mind when I heard Zayn’s key to our apartment push into lock. My hands trembled and my heart raced at an incredible rate, I closed my eyes to a breath and prayed for the best.

Zayn’s eyes lit up when he saw me standing at the door way awaiting his presence. “Hey baby, I missed all too much today.” I swallowed my secret and smiled as he kissed my lips passionately; squeezing my waist tightly, letting his hands roam down to my butt. He moaned into my mouth begging for entrance as he slid his tongue across my bottom lip. I lightly pushed his lips away from mine so I could once again speak, his face filled with confusion before he leant down to peck my lips once more.

“What’s wrong baby you seem… .gloomy today.” I forced a convincing smile onto my lips; Zayn loosened his grip around my waist before letting his hands fall away altogether. “Well babe dinner is ready, it’s seat up on table already.” Zayn smiled quickly leaving my side; I felt a shiver run through my spine, already missing his warmth beside me as if I had already lost the love of my life. I held back the tears threating to spill over any minute; I bit my lip harshly and intertwined my fingers behind my back as I made my way over to the dining room chair besides him. 

I watched Zayn chew through his food, watching it slowly deplete from his plate. I cleared my throat forcing his eyes to my attention, “So Zayn h-how do you feel about settling down, I-I mean having children.” I squeaked, feeling my throating becoming more and more dry as time ticked away. Zayn kissed my cheek, dropping his fork so he could mainly focus on me. “Baby you know I would love to have kids with you and start our own little family…” A smile crept on my face, genuinely at his soft words that made my heart feel like there was hope. “But a baby is the last thing I want right now; it just doesn’t simply fit into our lifestyle you know?”

My heart shattered and dark clouds hung low over my head predicting lighting and long showers ahead. I felt like I was flying high in the sky till Zayn loaded his gun and shot me down with his harsh words that blew through me. “Yeah you are right Zayn… we aren’t ready.” I excused myself from the table leaving him to finish his dinner; tears streamed down my face as I crawled into bed realizing the future ahead. 

Later that night Zayn snuggled up close beside me as if nothing was wrong, because for him life was great as he knew it; I heard him fall into his soft slumber letting small snores emit from his mouth. I knew I couldn’t stay, I was going to keep my beautiful baby but I wouldn’t be able to do that around here, so I smoothly shifted out of Zayn’s grip and began packing my belongings. Making sure there would be no trace of me left behind that way Zayn could easily forget me; the only sign that I ever existed in his life was a small note that I wrote on the back of a receipt explaining how I just didn’t love him anymore. 

My body ached just at the thought of having to leave him like this with no true explanation, but that night I slipped away into the darkness letting my future quickly consume me. I rode the elevator down stairs, slipping into the car Zayn had bought me for my birthday not knowing any place I could turn that Zayn wouldn’t be able to find me so I just drove. I drove and drove as the tears continued down my sorrow filled face wondering if I had just made the right decision, thinking if I turn back now would he have ever known I was gone.

I had saved a bundle of money in my bank account but nothing that would sustain me long and even less in my pockets. It had just shown daylight before I got the first call from Zayn assuming he had read the note and notice I was no long surrounded by his warm embrace. My heart told me to quickly pick up the phone, Zayn would understand and take me home with open arms but what he said buzzed in the back of my mind. “A baby just doesn’t fit in our lifestyle.” I could no long suppress my cries for Zayn, I missed him and that’s all I could do. . is I miss him. 

… . one year later

Boys P.O.V. 

The music roared throughout the Carnival as I made my way through the large crowd towards the cotton candy machine. “Mommy, mommy where are you!” a little cried out from below, swallowed by the huge mob people that easily ignored her small cry and walk past her. Her beautiful tear filled hazel eyes connected with mine as I moved closer to her. I kneeled down beside her and gave her a small warm smile letting her know it was okay to trust me. “Hi sweetie, you can’t find your mommy huh?” she shook her nodding in agreement with my comment, outstretching her small dainty hands around my neck.

She latched on tight as I scooped her up from ground below; her salty tears stained my collar. “Well do you see her anywhere sweetheart? What’s her name?” The little girl pick up her small face turning it to the crowd quickly scan everyone’s face trying to find the familiarity in each one of them, “my mommy’s name is [Y/N], I accidently let go of her hand and she told me not to but I just slipped away.” My heart froze recognizing the so familiar name right away. Could her mom be the one, the love of my life that slipped away without out any warning or explanation.

“Sierra! Sweetheart there you are.” A wide grin spread across the baby girl’s face as her mother took her from my hands. “Oh sir thank you so much for finding my little baby, she just seems to slip away sometimes.” The little girl giggled as her mother finally brought her face up to view. Her brown eyes holding a familiar sting to my heart and that smile that could light up the whole city made it seem like I knew her. “[Y/N]? Is that you?” Just then a young girl I knew came up behind [Y/N] taking Sierra from her hands. “I think you and Zayn need to talk.”

She spoke, taking the little girl away. [Y/N] stood froze in her spot unable to speak or even look me in the eye. Tears began to fall from her eyes, anger flooded through me as if she had a reason to cry when she was the one who left me. “Why are you the one crying?” I asked trying to humor myself. Her eyes finally peered up into mine, “I-I don’t know what to say.” She choked out. Her eyes fell back to the ground but I quickly lift her chin with my fingers wanting to feel her sweet lips on mine but I knew it wasn’t the right time.

“Why did you leave [Y/N]? I was in love with you, I thought you were the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with but you just left. You fucking left me with nothing but a little receipt that did hold the truth one bit.” She was in utter shock, choked up, not able to do anything but stare in my direction. “I know you loved me, I just… something came up and I had to leave. I’m sorry.” She whispered. All she said was sorry, that she was sorry. Once again anger coursed through my veins and it took all of me not to yell. “something came up! What the fuck is that supposed to mean [Y/N]. I called you and texted and slept alone wishing you were there by my side and all you can say is sorry. What could have possible happened that you couldn’t tell me.”

Silence fell upon us before she spoke in a soft whisper. “I tried to tell you, but I just…” “it was just easier to run away from your our problems.” I said cutting her off. The tears continue down her tired Face, “You want to know what happen Zayn, I GOT PREGNANT! But no a baby didn’t fit into your lifestyle remember so I left feeling like that was the only option I had because you didn’t want us.” I couldn’t believe my ears, she was pregnant…with my child. I pulled her into me as she continued to cry. No we both had tears rolling down our cheeks, I never knew this whole time I had a little girl. “How could you ever think I didn’t want you?”

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