Screen (A Joe Sugg fanfic)

9.

My phone is still in airplane mode hiding the text from Joe even though I'm waiting for my luggage to come around on the luggage carousel thing. I see my everyday, over-used, and old suitcases coming towards me, I quickly grab them and head out of the airport. I have no other way to get out of here and I am forced to turn off airplane mode to call an Uber. When I was about to open my Uber app, a car rolled up to me and window went down to show the Tyler Oakley. "Get in the car!", Tyler demanded in a deep voice. I laughed and he came out of the car to welcome me to America with a hug. "I haven't seen you in so long!!", I hugged him back, "Why are you here?", and when I ask a figure comes out of the car followed with a comment, "Who is this?" "Troye this is my friend Ella, don't need to be rude.", Tyler stood by me.

"Yeah, you ugly goblin.", I replied in disgust. Seconds past and we all laughed hysterically, "Ugly goblin? That's the best you can come up with?", I ignored him and instead jumped to him and gave him a hug. "How's it been, Sivan?", I ask him with an ear to ear smile on my face, "Pretty good. Are you here for the YouTube project too?", when he asks my face went down to a sarcastic frown and say, "No! I'm traveled all the way here by myself to stand around at an airport." "Well, get in the car so that you traveled all the way here by yourself to sit in my car!", Tyler suggested, I gave in and the back of the car was full of Troye's and I suitcases.

"So, Tyler did you hear about this new relationship on YouTube?", Troye asked with a sly smile plastered on his face, "Why, yes I have Troye. I recall it to be starring Ella Collins and Joe Sugg, is that correct?", Tyler replied with the same sneaky smile. The smile on my face disappeared, no one noticed and they both continued making comments like, "Oh, I heard they are in love", "Yes, lovebirds in the love tree those two", "Love is in their eyes every time they look at each other", "Crazy in love is all I can say". The old lady banter kept going on and on until they noticed my face buried in my hands, not crying but instead stressing and over thinking the situation I am in. "Ella, are you okay?", Troye asks looking back at me. "No!", tears start forming in my eyes, "You know love is a strong word! You shouldn't be throwing that word around! Love! Wow, look at Joe and Ella they are in love! Well we don't know!", I was unnecessarily yelling at them and just ranting, "Well, maybe we do know. Or maybe I don't know, or maybe I do." Now I'm just whispering to myself while Tyler and Troye are exchanging looks making me look crazy.

"I'm sorry guys. Just before I got here Joe and I got in an... argument? I don't really know. Anyways are you excited for the project?", I questioned them trying to lighten the mood. "I'm really excited! I haven't been out here since... I don't know how long actually", Troye answered with a hint of a "I'm sorry" voice caught in between his words.  A few weeks before coming out here they finally told us that the project is all about getting our viewers all around the world starting their own channels and making videos, "Yes, I love what they are doing!", Tyler keeping his eyes on the street but also answering my oh-so-serious questions that made this feel like this is an interview.

"You're staying at the same hotel where Troye is staying, right?", Tyler asks coming close to the hotel, "Yep, that one right there.", I say pointing to the tall building. Tyler drops us off at the valet area and we got all our suitcases out before Tyler raced away. Troye and I both entered the lobby and separately get our room keys, same room level just on opposite sides. Troye and I stepped into the lift and went up to the 15th level without saying anything the whole ride up. We hugged a long, tight hug,

"I missed you."
"I missed you, too."
"It gets better, you know."
"I hope so."
"It's so over said but it's true."
"I know."

A smile, a wave, and we departed in different directions. Rolling my suitcases down the hallway wondering how many other YouTubers are in these rooms right now. Where are they from? How many subscribers do they have? What are they known for?

My room almost to the end of the hall was roomy, too small for two people, but big enough for one person. My bed was grey and soft and comfy and I melted into it when I laid down with my uncomfortable jeans and white t-shirt. My phone buzzed once more, Caspar.

Hey Ella, hope you got there safe! Also Joe texted you a while back and you haven't answered. He's pretty much freaking out, I know what happened and I can see why you are... I don't know feeling things? But can you go ahead and text him back just so that he knows your okay.

A groan escapes my mouth as I fling my phone on the bed. I really don't want to hear from any of them right now I'm confused, being difficult, and overthinking everything as I usually do. It my worst trait, the simplest thing my brain can go into a whirl of things that doesn't make any sense.

"Can you pick up the dry cleaning?", what do they mean by that? Dry cleaning? Is there going to be a surprise party? Is this a kidnapper that is texting me through my mom's phone and is making me waste my time so when I get home everything at home is stolen?

"You're cool, we should go out sometime.", what does he mean by that? My crush asking me out? Is this a prank? How cruel. But does he actually fancy me? Again, Ella, this could be a prank.

"Maybe because I love you!", whoa what? I don't understand. Me? You love me? How? I don't know if I love you. Do I? I want to. Oh, I really want to. But I don't know. I like you. I know I like you. But love? Love. Love is a powerful word. This shouldn't end in tears. It's a simple question Ella. Do you love him or not? Yes! No. Maybe. Definitely! You have to Ella! 3 months. That's a long time. Is it long enough? Maybe I shouldn't rush it. What's to rush? 3 months! You haven't exactly been rushing it at all... I love him. I'm in love with him!

Hey I'm alive...

A weight has been taken off of my shoulders just to see that the text Joe sent me was to tell him when I got here. When I texted him I could feel from across the ocean that weight has been taken off of his as well.

Good to hear.

Caspar is now calling me, I answer him almost instantly. "Hey.", I say shyly, "Hey.", he imitates me in an effort to make me smile (which works), "How are you?", he asks in attempt to keep the conversation flowing. "Jetlag is getting the best of me, but other than that... Okay." "You want to vent to Caspar?", he questions and I respond with a chuckle, "Yeah, sure." "Okay, vent.", he says very cautiously because in our younger years when I would have my little summer romances when I would visit his family in South Africa I was known to yell. But instead I just stated quietly, "I love him." "What?", Caspar said again. "I love him! I love Joe!", I start screaming in my room and I can hear Caspar jump a little bit. I pause and then spoke again, "But I can't love him. It's forced love. You know how you would watch a really sad, romantic movie and the couple they are in love. But then you think deeper and deeper and finally you run into a wall, telling you these people aren't real. Why are you crying and laughing and smiling about their love? It's not real. That's me. I ran into a wall.", hot tears streaming down my face falling on to the bed. "I'm acting! It's an act, Caspar! I can't love him!"

I sit up, cross legged on the bed, tears stained black thanks to my make up. "Look, Caspar I have to go. Don't tell Joe, please.", I wipe one last tear when a voice that is not Caspar's makes its way into my head, bouncing around my brain, "Yeah, I'll try not to."

"Joe, I'm so sorry."

Wow, this chapter was confusing. Buuuut, Cliffhanger!! New chapters coming soon!! Stay tuned! Xx