An Unexpected Fate

Chapter 25: Anxiety

-Rose's P.O.V-

I woke up to Maze's cuddling me, reminding me of last night.

Ever since last night I've began to get night terrors of what happened at Cason's house and my old house. I've began to get anxiety but I'm not showing anyone it.*sobbing*

"Rose what's wrong" Maze asked

"I-It's n-nothing, I'm fine" I stuttered .

"You promise" he asked

"I promise" I replied and fell back to sleep.

-15 minutes later-

I woke up and Maze was gone. I got up and stretched, I felt a wave a anxiety hit me. I'm so scared of being abused or tortured. Thoughts of suicide flooded my head like a wave. I tried to distract my self from the evil thoughts but I couldn't. It felt like the only way to escape this, I began to freak out and shake. I can't take it anymore!

I search Maze's bedroom for some rope. For some reason there was some in his closet but I don't question it. I grab his desk chair and position it on the bathroom door way. I tied the rope on the pull up bar and began to pull my head through the rope.

*Jump! jUmP! WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR JUMP! You whore! You don't deserve to live! Kill yourself! Die already* the voices started barks evil words in my head.

One tear slide down and I kick the chair down. The rope began to choke me fast but suddenly Maze opened the door and sprint towards me. He grabbed my legs, grabbed the chair, warped my legs around his waist and cut the rope fast with his pocket knife. Thank god he was 6"4. When the rope was cut I fell onto him causing him to fall on the ground.

He turned me over, pulled the rope over and off my neck, and began to hold me in his arms tight. "It's okay I'm here for you, I'm here for you" he whispered. I began to cry. "Why...why'd you do it" he began to cry and hug tighter.

"I'm so sorry, I-Im s-so s-sorry" I cried

After a few minutes we had calmed our breathing. He sat up while pulling me up as well. He positioned my legs around his waist while I sat on his legs. He look me in my red puffy eyes,"Why".

I looked down to ashamed by my attempt. His hand gently pulled me up and kissed my lips softly. I smiled and laughed a bit.

"I going to show you something I've never showed anyone else, and you can't tell anybody okay" he said,I nodded in response. He pulled the sleeve of his jacket up to show scars of past cuts he made on himself. "I stopped when I joined this gang....their the ones who make me feel like I belong somewhere...and I'm not ashamed about them Rose, when I see them, I don't think of the past and bullies, I think of our gang and how they except me and saved me from my demons". He looked up at me and smiled, "I've seen yours and I'm not going to ask you why you have them, I just want you to know that I love everyone of them and every flaw you have because they are what make you unique and I don't want you to feel ashamed of them, okay" he says. "I don't want you to leave me... I love you Rose" we leaned in together and kissed pationatly. He picked me up and carried me to his bed. He laid down and cuddled me for the rest of the day talking about our past problems.

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A/N I know this was a little deep. If you have problems with depression or anxiety and I may or may not have offended you, but suicide is not a joking matter. I want to remind others that suicide is never the answer, suicide does stop it from getting worse, it stops it from ever getting better. Anyways I love you all and if you ever have anything you need to talk about I'm here.