Feelings Kept Inside

A Curse

I'm a curse.

All I do is bring pain.

Whether it be to me or other people, I'm a goddamn curse.

I feel as if all the shit going on in other people's life is because of me.

Because I exist.

I feel that if I wasn't here anymore, then their problems would go away.

That they would be happy.

But what's worse is what this curse is doing to me and my life.

Nothing has gone right for as far as I can remember.

All my friends left or forgot about me.

Everyone I loved either didn't love me back, loved someone else, or didn't love me anymore.

All I've known are broken hearts.

All I've known is pain, sorrow, and emptiness.

Happiness never lasted since this curse came.

Happiness came, but it never lasted.

It just fooled me into thinking that my life was getting better, when it wasn't.

I'm a curse.

A goddamn curse.

And the only way to break this curse is to kill it.

And that's what I'll do.

I'll kill this curse.

One that has gone on for far too long.

One that should have been destroyed a long time ago.

No one will miss it,

No one will mourn,

Or even shed a tear.

Because this curse that I kill...will be me.

And nobody will miss me.

-LovelyLittleReaper