ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴇʀғᴇᴄᴛ ᴄᴏᴜᴘʟᴇ

Chapter 14

Taraji -

When Tyrese got home I was laying across the bed reading a magazine. "Hey," I said. "Hey," he replied as he began taking his clothes off. He took off his clothes and threw on his pajama pants and a t shirt. I scooted over so he could get in the bed. I put my magazine on the night stand and turned off the lamp.

"Tyrese we need to talk about us," I said as I sat up and stared at our picture that sat down on the dresser. "What about us?" He asked. "Your trust issues, baby me and Hill were just having a friendly lunch, he kissed me on the cheek that's it, nothing more nothing less, I would never disrespect you like that. I feel like you would rather believe TMZ than me, like how we gone get married if you can't even trust me?" I asked.

"Look T you know I don't like that nigga regardless of all that, I mean okay I shouldn't have went off but damn, if yo man don't fuck with a certain person you shouldn't be fucking with them, I mean if you had a problem with a certain bitch I wouldn't even be around her," he said.

"Okay baby but I don't have a problem with Hill, you do. Me and Hill are just friends," I said. He chuckled and turned over. "Man and you still making excuses for this nigga Taraji, you know what do what you want man," he said. "Wow, you don't even care about us," I said.

"No apparently you don't," he said. "Look, I think we need to take a break, or something and rethink wither or not if marriage is what we need," I said.

"Fine if that's what you want," he said. "Tyrese," "nah man, I'm tired of this, if that's what you want then fine," he said. He put his headphones in and turned over. Tears fell down my face as I sat up staring at the wall. I couldn't describe the pain I felt in my heart. I loved him so much, I didn't wanna go on a break but maybe that's what we needed. I took off my ring and stared at it. I mean I wanted to be Mrs. Gibson but maybe it just wasn't meant to be.

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After the taping of the show, I went to my trailer. I was laughing around with Jussie. We had to practice on this scene once more. Just as we were rehearsing there was a knock on my trailer. "I'll get it T," Jussie said as he went over to the door. "Hey Hill wassup?" Jussie asked. "Hey Jussie," hill smiled. I was shocked to see him with a dozen of roses. "Jussie give me and hill a minute," I said.

"Alright T," he said. "Hey," I smiled as I gave Hill a hug. "Hey you okay? I'm sorry about that TMZ thing," he said. "It's okay," I said. "I bought these for you," he said as he handed me the roses. "Awe thank you," I said as I put them in the vase on the countertop.

"You sound sad," he said. "I am, me and Tyrese got into an argument, and we put the wedding on hold," I said. "Damn, I'm sorry T, you want me to go talk to him?" Hill asked as he sat next to me on the couch. "No it's okay, I mean maybe it's best me and Ty just focus on our un born children before we cross that line," I said.

"Yeah I hear you," he said. "So how has things been going on with you and Karen?" I asked. "Good, she's pregnant were having a baby," he said. "Awe wow congratulations," I said. "Thanks," he replied. Just as I was about to say something else, the door to my trailer opened and in came Tyrese with a dozen of roses.

His simile instantly turned to a frown. "Baby," I said as I stood up. He put his hand up and turned around. I walked after him and he threw the roses in the trash. "Tyrese!" I yelled. "Tyrese!" I yelled back. He never turned around. Tears fell down my eyes as I watched him walk away.

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On my way home all I could think about was Tyrese. I knew he was pissed off at me. I needed to see him. I needed to talk to him. When I walked up to the house, I saw that his car was gone. I made inside and kicked my shoes off. I walked up the stairs and went into the room. There was a note on the bed. I plopped down and opened it.

Dear Taraji,

I love you with all my heart, but maybe you're right, maybe marriage isn't for us. Maybe we both need to figure out who and what it is we want and need. Seeing how close you are with Hill, makes me realize that maybe you too are best for each other. I mean even after I tell you not too, you still find a need to have this man around you. So instead of making you choose between me and Hill, I chose for you. I will always be there for Shayla and Marcel. I'll be there for both their births. I went ahead and canceled all the wedding plans. I did the favor of moving out. Don't worry, the house will always be paid for. I'll always continue to support you and the kids, I just can't stand and watch somebody else come between us. My head has been all the place lately, and I don't know what I need or what I want. Just know I'll always love you Taraji. Always and forever. Maybe we just wasn't meant to be. I'm sorry if I'm not the man that you need, I'm sorry for being an asshole. I'm sorry for hurting you, making you cry, I'm even sorry for leaving when I know I shouldn't be. I hope you forgive me. I love you Taraji Penda Henson. Always have and always will.

- Ty

Tears ran down my face as I crumpled up his letter. I couldn't believe that he up and left like this. He really didn't love me. He really didn't care anymore. I couldn't believe we were over. I couldn't believe he gave up on me, on us. I slid down on the ground and let the tears fall down my eyes. How could this man that I loved so much, walk away from me. What did I do to make him give up so easily?

I couldn't contain myself, as I thought about all the years I've spent with Tyrese. I loved him so much and he just didn't see it. "He don't love me no more," I sobbed as I rocked back in forth in fetal position. I couldn't take this type of pain. I will always love Tyrese, but I will never forgive him for this. Never.