Wont give up

Chapter nine

Jacks POV

It was 12:30pm and I hadn't eaten lunch. I figured I would just run to Taco Bell and grab something quick.

Something strange happened while I was sitting at my table eating though. I was in the back of Taco Bell and there where plenty other people to walk up to but instead this girl walked up to me.

She looked awfully familiar. She had long black curly hair and the greenest eyes you would ever see. When she spoke to me she spoke so softly.

"Um this is embarrassing to ask but I forgot my wallet at my friends house and I don't have a way to pay for my food. Umm do you have anything I could have? I promise to pay you back once I got my wallet." She said in this kind of shy tone.

Why did she look familiar? Then it hit me. I think I knew who she was. "Sure. How much you need?" I said in response.

"Not much. Umm ten I think." She spoke with a soft voice and I knew it had to be her. She hung her head a bit.

I reached into my wallet and pulled out a ten. "Here. Don't worry about paying me back."

"Are you sure?"

"Positive." I said with a smile.

She smiled back and took the money then looked at the ground and back at me. "We'll I have to do something in return."

I thought for a second. "Have lunch with me."

"What? We just met?" She said confused.

"I have a feeling I've known you longer then you can remember." I said.

"Ok fine. I'll have lunch with you." She smiled and walked away.

She came back minutes later with her food and sat across from me. I gave her a warm smiled.

"We'll I guess if your going to make me have lunch with you I should tell you my name." She said

"Lilly." I quickly responded.

She looked at me oddly. "How did you know my name?"

"It's me. Jack? Don't you remember?" I asked her.

I have her a minute to think.

Lilly's POV

When he said he was Jack I started racing through my thoughts. Jack. Antonoff? I looked deep Into his eyes and then it hit me. All the memories. Everything that happened. Everything I spent months to forget.

I got up out of my seat and probably looked stressed. "I gotta go."

I turned my back but he soon stood and grabbed my arm. "Hey. What's wrong?" He asked me.

"I can't. This isn't real. It's just another stupid dream. Your not really hear." I said as a tear hit the floor.

Ever since that day and I left, I can stop dreaming about him. I try to forget him but he sticks in my head like gum to a shoe.

"It's really me Lilly I promise! It's not a dream!" He said. When he spoke louder when he said that I knew it wasn't a dream. He never raised his voice in my dreams.

I stopped struggling from his arm and turned towards him. "But...but I thought you where dead?" By this point everyone in Taco Bell was watching us.

"Dead? Why in the world would I be dead?" He asked me sounding confused.

"I don't want to talk about it here. Can we go to your place?"

"Sure I guess. Are you sure your ok?"

I didn't respond to him I just grabbed my stuff and got into my car and followed him to his house. He still lived in the same one.

I got out of my car and stood behind Jack while he unlocks the doors. When I walked inside the cold breeze of his house hit me. It was so hot outside that it actually felt nice.

I took my place on the couch and Jack set his keys on the counter then came and sat next to me. "Now can we please talk about this?" He said. He sounded very confused and worried.

I shook my head and started crying again. Remembering that day was to hard. I spent forever trying to forget it and now I have to remember it.

Jack placed his arms around me and pulled me to him and I continued to cry in his chest. It felt like another dream. I finally after a few minutes dried my tears and took a deep breath and looked at him.

"That day. The day Nate sent those guys to....beat you...." I took another breath. It was hard to say it. "I laid on the ground with you and after a while you...you.." I almost started crying again. "You shut your eyes and stopped breathing." I said barley. I buried my head in my hands and started sobbing.

He tries to hold me again but I refused. "I'm not done." I whimpered out. He nodded his head and let me continue. "For a week I dreaded you. I wanted you. I missed you. But I knew it was over and you where gone. I fount it Nate and those guys ended up in jail and I was happy. I felt safer. But I still didn't feel safe. I dyed my hair black because I didn't k ow what to do but I kinda like it now so I keep it this way. I also grew it out." I finally calmed down.

"In so sorry Lilly. But I'm here now. I'm not dead. Andrew came and took me to the hospital and now I'm all better see?" He put me in his arms again. By this time I was cold so his arms where warming me up.

"I'm sorry jack. I should have stayed. I shouldn't have left." I said leaning on him.

"It's ok. Your here now. I finally found you. That's all that matters." He whispered into my ear. I looked up at him and just gazes into his eyes for a moment. I leaned forward and kissed him on the lips.

He kissed me back. His lips where heaven. He pulled me closer to him as I placed each of my hands onto either side of his face. This was the first actual kiss me and Jack had and of course it led on.

He pulled me into his lap and I continued on holding his face to mine while he held my sides. I had my legs wrapped around his waist. I paused for a moment to tell him that I loved him and he said that he loved me too. I smiled then he leaned in and kissed me. Harder this time.

Our kissing progressed then he finally stood up holding me as I kept my legs around him and he walked down the hallway then up the stairs. About half way up the stairs he tripped and we both started laughing. He made it up the rest of the stairs and walked into his bedroom.

Before he set my down on his bed he threw my shirt off of me and tossed it to the ground. Gently he laid me on his bed then he climbed over me and kisses my lips some more. Then he moved himself down to my neck.

I leaned my head back extending my neck out giving him room to rome. He ran his hands down my sides the down my legs.

The cold touch of his hands sent chills to my spin. My hands trailed down his chest and I tugged at the bottom of his shirt. He took the hint and stopped with my neck for a moment and I slid his shirt off of him.

We both flashed each other a smile then he propped my legs up next to his hips. He led on to my collar bone and held one of his hands behind my back as I played with his hair. He pressed His body up against my digging his hips into mine and trailed off with the rest of me and for the first time in months, I felt completely safe again.