Kik Me.... (A Mindless Behavior love story)

Cant Keep A Secret

when I got to school on monday I saw ny'lah running towards me

"hey why'd you ditch yesterday Princeton said you just ran off"

"yea my dad told me to come home and I ran bout because he sounded worried" I lied through my teeth yesterday my dad was the last thing in my mind

ny'lah replied by saying 'oh and guess what'

"ummm you have a long lost twin " I said

"that shit would be awesome but no.....ROC ASKED ME OUT" she said jumping up an down I screamed with her

"omg my little ny'lah bear is growing up I remember when you were a widdle girl now your all grown up and shit and going on datea " I said smiling she said 'watever as we walked to our first period class we were early an I noticed that I turned off my phone last night as I turned my phone back on I had 7 text messages from princeton

'Where did u go'

'Are u OK'

' did you get home safe'

' dammit K'lynn what the fuck did I do I just want to help'

'morning'

'K'lynn please'

'ugh I can see that your obviously ignoring me my number hasn't changed text me when your ready to talk other then that see u later'

I huffed as I put my gone back into my pocket and sat down....the day went by fast when school let out I saw a crowd of kids in a circle by the street I didn't know what it was that's when I saw a limo what the fuck is a limo here for that's when I heard ny'lah walk up

"oh hey I forgot to tell you that the boys were picking us up today" I huffrd as we started walking towards the limo I heard Mrs.clay (our principal ) call our names she gave us both a yellow envelope and walked away once we finished walking to the limo the boys opened the door and we got in

"hey babe" roc said to ny'lah kissing her cheek she said 'hey and gave him a hug I was sitting across from Princeton with my head down feeling his stares pear into my soul

"hey K'lynn" he said I nodded not looking up then he made a big sigh then began talking

"K'lynn look I don't know why your in a pissy ass mood all I wanted to do was try to help but you pushed me away"

"help with what?" ny'lah said neither of us answered as I responded to Princeton lookin into his eyes this time

"I didn't push u away on purpose I just can't bear the thought -" I said stopping feeling the tears in my eyes

"bear the thought of what someone actually caring about you, someone actually wanting to be there for you or the thought that you are hurting so badly and putting on a show to make it seem like your OK" he said raising his voice a little

"K'lynn what is he talking about" ny'lah says looking at me

"she doesn't know " Princeton said I shook my head

"KNOW WHAT" ny'lah screamed I signed then turns to her and said

"ny'lah every since my mom died my dad has been beating me and every time he does I have the thoughts that no one wants me and so I cut myself " I raised up my sleeve and my pants leg and showed her the bruise "I know you make think I'm crazy but its the only way because at the end of the day i know that if no one wants me my razor always does"

I was full out crying then I looked up at ny'lah then at princeton and finally spoke

"you happy now" I said I yelled at the drive and told him to stop he did and I hopped out the limo and started walking away before I got far I felt somebody grab my arm I turned around to see Princeton

"K'lynn stop running away from me I just want to help" he says with sympathetic eyes

"oh so you call that helping Princeton ny'lah is my best friend and the only person i have and because of what you just made me do I might have lost her " I said screaming through tears I turned and walked away I walks on and on until I finally got on my block I saw ny'lah sitting on my porch

"look ny'lah if you don't want to be my friend its OK I understand if I'm to fucked up for you" ny'lah looked up with wide eyes and said

"K'lynn I'm still want to be your friend and of course your not to fucked up for me I just want to know why didn't you tell me"

"because ny'lah you weren't suppose to knowbo don't want you to know I was scared I didn't know what to do I'm sorry" I said crying she hugged me

"K'lynn look I'm gonna be here no matter what but this-" she said pointing to the cuts and bruises "has got to stop I can't lose you I won't lose you just please stop doing this to yourself" I cried and said OK she gave me a big hug and sh promised that everything would be OK as she left .....I went inside the house to see my dad passed out with a bottle of patron in his hand and a cigarette burning I put it out and went to my room, I took off my clothes and cried myself to sleep thinking about the promise ny'lah made me 'everything will be ok' I knew it wasn't true but all I could do is hope because now that's the only thing I have left to depend on