Kik Me.... (A Mindless Behavior love story)

Im Not Meant To Be Fixed

i woke up earlier than usual today i went into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror i was upset at what I saw I looked horrible as you can see I was never one of those girls who had a bunch of confidence and high self esteem because that just wasn't me.....I reached inside the drawer and grabbed my 'friend' , my razor I took the razor and slid it down my arm it hurted more than usual so I looked down and gasped I had cut right next to a vain I quickly grapped a towel and cleaned the blood up and then I hopped into the shower once I got out I put on my green shirt that said ' my tongue is a oozi my ______ is a Ak' and I put on my white skinny jeans and my white ,black and green Jordan's and I put on my white hat that had my name on it in green I looked into the mirror and I instantly knew today was going to be horrible .....once I got to school I saw ny'lah

" hey boo"

"hey" I said trying to sound energetic ...my classes went by fast then it was gym once I changed into my uniform coach asked me about the bruises I told him I got cut by accident he believed it during gym ny'lah told me that after school we were meeting up with the boys

Once school was over we went to the place were we were meeting the boys and we waited for at least 5 minutes until we saw them walk in

" hey " they all said

"hi" me in ny'lah replied at the same time

"you girls look sexier in person damn" ray ray said looking me and ny'lah up and down .....everybody got bored and then they decided on going swimming at the pool that was in the boys hotel we all said yea we left but stopped by me and ny'lah's houses to get swimsuits once I started to change I remembered the bruises and cuts and I decided that I wasn't gonna get in the pool I was just gonna put on my swimsuit and watch everybody else I went to the pool area and just sat down pulling my jacket on top of me covering up my cuts I closed my eyes and started to relax until I felt my body being lifted

'CANNONBALL!!!!!" ROC yelled throwing me into the pool once I rose to the surface I screamed

"Roc what the fuck was that I didn't want to get in the fucking pool ugh" at this point I knew somebody was going to see the cuts but by now roc , prodigy,ray ray , and ny'lah were playing Marco polo I decided to get up and try to run out once I got out the pool I heard Princeton make a low gasped I Knew It .He Saw the Cuts! I ran out into the hall standing there frustrated Princeton came out and stood next to me I put my head down

"K'lynn what happened " he said low I didn't reply that's when he lifted my chin making me look into his eyes

"K'LYNN please " he said sounding more desperate to know I finally responded

"I'm my own worst enemie" I said my eyes watering

"why are you doing this to yourself"

"Princeton look I'm not the perfect pretty girl you see I'm broken I have no mother because she left me! she loved drugs better than her own daughter! and my dad hits me and beats! cutting myself is the only way I fell happy because no one can fix me NO ONE WANTS ME !" I say tears heavily streaming down my face I stood there waiting for him to leave like everyone else but he the looks me in my eyes and says

"I want you" I didn't say anything he started to touch my wrist rubbing his hand across my cut he looked at me to see if it was OK I nodded and we stood there until he touched every bruise and every cut

"K'lynn let me be there for you please let me be the one who can help you mend you broken heart" he says looking at me ...I can't believe a couple of days ago I couldn't stand this boy and now I feel like I might love him, but I can't everybody I loved either left me or turned on me and I can't risk being put into that situation especially with a celebrity

"Princeton - I just can't " I said grabbing my things off the stool beside me and running out the door

"K'LYNN WAIT!!" I heard him yell but I was already out of the hotel I ran until I found a little quit alley I sat down next to a dumpster crying ....I know that Princeton may be able to help me with my problems but that thought alone scares the living shit out of me.