Me raven aka Zoe

an asshole that i hate

Okay so I have this ex he is a massive asshole he cheated and called me hideous he said I was a bet, he cheated on me with 5 other girls he cheated on me 2 times so if i trust you with my heart you are very lucky, one day he said he was going to kill all of my friends so me being me i went to were he said he was and i was going to let him kill me and the thing is that i was ready to die i wanted to die for so long and i was thinking maybe i can finally die but no as you can tell i am alive and i guess that is good but he put me in a really bad depressed state of mind which i am still fighting i was self harming everyday and that was all because i was sad that i lost one of the most important people in my life and i really did love him and i don't think i will stop but oh well but now he is in Sydney with his new girlfriend and i trusted him that much that i wanted him to take my virginity which is a really big thing but yea.
OK so just something new about this guy he is still an ass but he is back in Adelaide, he is still with his gf I have seen him and I freaked out I could not breath I had a panic attack, he looked so happy more happy then he did with me and as I said I don't think i will ever get over him because I still have feelings for him and that sucks because I have a bf but yea.

P.S i am sooo sorry i didn't update sooner but comment what u want me to talk about and i will right it up love u sooo much bye my little demons.