Me raven aka Zoe

hi

Hey guys i know its been a long time but well i have had ups and downs as always so the time is 1:39Am AND I CAN'T SLEEP i really can't and i don't know why but what should i tell u guys well i have not been ro great lately i have well sadly done some bad habits i used to do which is really not good but i am still with angus so thats good but i don't know whats going on i am comparing myself to every girl i see and i think why can't i have a body like hers or why can't i be confident like her ot funny or pretty or beautiful i so it with EVERY girl i see....and..it sucks i hate it so much and i know have voices in my head saying kill your self or kill everyone u love and its says horrible things to me and they r getting louder and louder everyday and more and more violent i try and be happy for everyone but i can't be anymore i am breaking down and i don't want to drag anyone down with me. But on other news its almost Christmas yay (that was sarcastic by the way) i mean i don't even want it this year i want it to be gone and never come back but hey what u gonna do but yea i am going to try and sleep night guys xxx