Me raven aka Zoe

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Hey guys well it's been weird I met my sister that went well but I'm still iffy about her.
I a still with my gus gus.
I have been going to the doctor and seeing if I have depression.
And well something just doesn't feel right anymore I don't feel happy like I used to it feels like year 9 all over again and I was not in a good place back then I was so sad and I wanted everyone to piss off I feel like everything is falling apart and I am bringing every one down with me..... I miss the old friends I had I miss how close I was to them but there is one person that I miss being friends with and that stopped idk why but it was probably because of me like always everything is my fault everything and it hurts so much I feel like crying every day i feel like doing bad habits again and I can't do that again so i draw and try blocking everything out but I can't I mean i miss being happy and being able to talk to my old friends I want them back but I can't because I fucked up again as always. I told Angus that I would hurt him and I feel like I am and that hurts so so much and for that I hate my self even more I mean look at me I hate everything about me from my hair to my feet I hate everything about my self and nothing if helping nothing no matter what people say or do I don't feel better at all I mean all I want is everything to go back to how it used to be but no that can't happen. But anyway I'm going to sleep guys talk to u guys again soon maybe love u xxx