"Bunny? More Like Kangaroo"

Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

*PLEASE READ VODKA SHOTS BEFORE THIS FOR PART 1*

Jack's POV

Gasping while trying to not cry, but failing horribly as tears slide down my cheeks, I make my way home. I didn't realize that I had been getting too clingy to Aster, if anything I thought that I wasn't doing as much as I wanted to. I was going to ask him if he wanted to move in together, now that I think about it, it probably wouldn't end too well if I put too much pressure on him.

Walking up the steps of my apartment, I unlock the door and step in. Closing and locking the door behind me, I flick the light on and drop my keys on the rack while kicking my shoes, not even caring if they're sprawled everywhere. Wiping my tears out of my eyes, I shake my head and make my way to the bedroom.

'I can't be thinking about this right now, I just need some time to relax....'

Inside my bedroom, I toss my phone and wallet on my bed, not caring if they land or not. I get out a pair of sweatpants and a t- shirt. With my items, I make my way into the bathroom, ready for a much needed shower.

Standing under the warm spray of the water, I feel my muscles starting to loosen up. Water gliding down my arms and back, drops of water dripping down my hair as I let my head hang. Sighing to myself, I close my eyes and feel myself starting to drift away into my self conscious.

'Maybe this is for the best....We both need some time apart, maybe now Aster can focus on his paintings more and I can...work on something....'

Groaning at the feeling of anxiety starting to form in my stomach, I turn the shower off and dry up. Changing into my new clothes, I toss my old ones into the hamper and make my way back to my bedroom.

'Aster's had to turn down a few job opportunities for me, all of them that would require him to be gone for a long time...This is...probably for the best...'

I rub the towel through my hair. Picking up my phone, I'm shocked to see several missed calls and text messages. Confused, I sit down and unlock my phone, shocked even more when I see they're all form Aster.

'Aster said he didn't want me to get too clingy....I guess this is the first step then....'

Shutting my phone, I leave it on my bed as I walk to the kitchen. Opening the fridge, I grab a carton of mint chocolate chip ice cream, my favorite, and a spoon from the cabinet. I debate on whether or not I should get a bowl to put the ice cream in, but I just shake my head, it would be gone by the end of the night. Carrying my arsenal with me to the bedroom, I set them on the nightstand. Sitting on my bed, I wrap myself up in blankets, turn the TV and start to eat my ice cream.

I hadn't done this in a while, not since my college days where these would be used to keep me up at night. Now it's just a way to drown my sorrows away.

Buzz Buzz....Buzz Buzz....Buzz Buzz...

Glancing at my phone, I begin to feel myself breaking down a bit. Trying to fight the urge to pick it up, I have an internal fight with myself before I decide to open my phone.

"Jack, I know you're there. Please answer your phone."

"Snowflake? Please baby. please answer the phone."

"I was wrong. I get it, but I can't apologize until you acknowledge me."

"I may have had too much to drink but I swear jack that if you don't respond soon i'm going to come over to your house and not leave until you hear me out."

"Jack?"

"Jack I'm not kidding, I'm going to come over."

"Thats it. I'm calling a cab and coming over right now."

By now I'm panicing and scrolling through my other messages as quickly as possible.

"I'm in the cab. Please respond?"

"Almost there."

After what seemed like forever, I finally make it to the newest message at the bottom. Just as the doorbell rings.

"Please let me in."

Not knowing what to do, my body moves on its own as I get out of bed and head to the front door. I'm not sure what I'm doing, it's as if my mind is in a haze and my body has taken over, telling me what I want, but what I cannot have is here at this moment. Standing on the other side of this door, waiting for me to open it. Unsure, I go onto my tip toes and glance through the peep hole, only to see a tired Aster standing on the other side, constantly checking his phone.

Feeling bad, but not sure about what, I unlock the door slowly, my movements slow and concise. Turning the door knob, I open the door wide enough for him to get the hint to come in. My heart pounds in my chest as he walks in, his head down, as if not finding the will to look me in the eyes.

Closing the door and locking it, I lead him to the living room, confused at how I got here. Sitting down on the couch, daring not to look up at him, I wait for Aster to take a seat. But that never happens since, instead, Aster kneels down in front of me, still not looking at me. Still not understanding what's going on, I stare at him in shock.

"Aster? W-what are you doing?" I question, fighting the urge to move away.

Looking up at me, I feel my throat clog up at the emotions in his eyes. Sorrow, regret, ashamed....love. But remembering the anger in his eyes, the yelling and the swearing earlier that night makes me wince. Looking away, I try to find anywhere else to look besides this man's face, settling for my hands on my lap instead.

"Jack?" Aster whispers. I refuse to react when he reaches for my hands, his shaky ones enveloping mine as if their delicate snowflakes. "I....I was so afraid..." This gets my attention, causing me to glance up at him, to see what else he'll say. "I was afraid of a commitment, the thought of a long term relationship just...just didn't seem to settle with me."

Instantly, anger consumes me. I scowl at him. "Why did you even bother to be in a relationship with me if you knew that it wasn't going to last long then?" I try to shake his hands off but Aster holds onto them tightly.

Shaking his head, a look of urgency takes place in his eyes. "No! When we first met I could honestly see this as a long term relationship." Not wanting to hear how Aster fell out of the relationship with me, I look away, only for him to grip my hands in a panicked state. "Jack, please listen! I honestly did, and still do see this as a long term relationship." Lowering his head down in shame, he continues. "But once everything started to seem too good to be true, I was afraid of losing you..." Blinking rapidly, I struggle to not let my tears slide down my cheeks as he continues, his heartbroken voice killing me. "I let my denial and frustration get the better of me when I spoke such harsh words to you..." Looking up, he holds eye contact with me, making my heart break when I see the tears pooling in his eyes. "I never meant a word I said earlier. I need you by my side and I don't think I can stand the idea of this being anything but a relationship."

Sniffling, I feel my tears wet my cheeks as I hug Aster to me tightly. Feeling him stifle a sob against my chest, he then wraps his arms around my waist, holding me tightly. Kissing his temple gently, I whisper in his ear softly. "If you ever do anything like this again, I'm going to kick your ass, Bunbun."

I can tell that Aster is smiling against my stomach as he nods his head. Pulling back, he looks in me in the eyes. "I promise you, I will never do anything like this again."

Relieved, I lean down and kiss him passionately, loving the feeling of his arms wrapped around me, making me feel loved.

'My Aster'