for you...(BWWM-INTERRACIAL)

chapter 21

Chapter nope, still didn't look

I think going to the graveyard to talk to my madrina and pradrino helped me a lot today, it felt as if they were actually here and were talking to me you know? I was driving to a hotel because I really didn't feel like going back there, it's too soon. I parked my car and went to my truck", seeing my bag "yes Steph and Rileigh know" I grabbed both of them and checked into the hotel going to my room. The first thing I did was order room service, so what its 3 in the morning, I'm starving. I turned my phone off & let my hair down running my hands through it. I turned on the TV and endless love was on, I groaned turning the TV back off and going to the bathroom to take a shower.

Looking at my reflection through the foggy mirror. I didn't know how to feel, I thought a lot in the shower and I've been ignoring my feelings. I feel numb, as Cameron's words repeated in my head. I wiped my eyes trying to forget about it. I put my wet hair half up half down and slid on some sweat pants and a sports bra. I opened the bathroom door glancing at my bed seeing cameron sitting on the bed "why are you here?!" I backed up into the bathroom more "I don't want to see you right now. why can't you just leave me alone?" He stood up "Jordan I am so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you like that. I was jus-" I shook my head "NO! I don't understand what is up with you and my feelings. You just like hurting me or something. Tell me what I did wrong cameron! Jesus Christ! How the heck did you even get in here? Get out!" He walked towards me and I punched him in his nose "holy shit" he was taken back "jordan please" I pointed to the door "leave" my eyes were watery "im not going anywhere, I will stand outside this door forever Jordan. Im not leaving you" he out his hand on my cheek as a tear streamed down. I moved his hand and wiped the tear "Cameron please" he kissed my for head and left as I let a Sob escape my lips. Where the hell is my room service?
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Getting no sleep last night, I was staring at my ceiling contemplating my life. I stretched standing up, doing my business in the bathroom and putting on ripped jeans and a white shirt. I wasn't ready to leave, but I miss my son. I gathered my stuff and turned my phone back on leaving the room. A scream left my mouth thinking it was something else on the floor, but it was just Cameron. I kneeled down to him and a groan left his mouth. There was a huge bruise on his face from me and felt just a little bad "what are you doing?" I helped him up "I told you Im not leaving you Jordan" his hands were on my hips and his eyes stared back into mine "I swear I didn't mean anything that I said. I was just being arrogant and a huge gigantic jerk. I'm so sorry, and no I don't want to hurt you. I'm a fuck up Jordan, im not good at this shit I never have been, but I will try for you baby girl. I love you" I brought his for head to mine and played with the back of his head he tried going in for a kiss, but I put my hand to his lips "I still don't like you" we chuckled "worth a shot" he shrugged kissing my forehead "my neck and and my face hurt babe" I shrugged "that's your fault, I told you to leave" he took my bags "hey, whatever happened to your arm and the person who did it...and the back yard" I asked he got tense "well my arm is alright. I got a few stitches. I'm still finding out more information concerning who did it. And you my beautiful beautiful baby doll are wanted, by whoever this gang is. I've been getting a massive amount of threats and I'm pretty sure they hate me" I smiled "wow im not the only one" he gave me a fake laugh and I gave him a cheeky smile "you're so cute" he put my bags in my car and I walked to the drivers seat "hey did you get any taller?" He asked me I sarcastically laughed "24 and still what was it 4'10?" I punched him in his arm "I'm 5'4" I put my hands on my hips "Oo nice" he bit his lip "what would I do without you baby girl?" I smiled "I don't know honestly" he kissed my hands "I'll see you at the house" I nodded and started my car driving away..I'm wanted

Reality sunk in hard