Love, Lust & Broken Trust

Merry Christmas

Tabitha

After Erik basically told me I had to choose then left. I was going to stop him but he left to fast so I turned to my music. Like I've done so many other times. I stick to my plan and text his Bradley phone. I have to keep him. When I get up in the morning I clean then make a big breakfast for us acting like I expect Bradley and my husband. The kids run around as usual then I have them sit while I make their plates but Erik knocks so I let him in. He sits his gifts down and looks at me.

Here this is Bradley. It was my only way to be here for you when you wouldn't talk to me. I am Erik Bradley Baker. Where's your husband?

I shrug acting unsure.

I guess he got lost. He told me he'd be here. I'm sure he has plan with his kids today to.

He looks at me like he's confused then shakes his head but goes over and kisses the kids. Hey guys daddy came to spend some time with you for Christmas. They cheer then continue eating but I'm not hungry so I go brush my hair then sit with them and drink my tea but Erik grins and hands me a plate.

Eat something. You didn't make all this to look at it.

I look at him irritated and set the plate down then walk to my room closing the door. I know he won't leave the kids eating so I sit at my desk and write in my journal. I don't think I can do it. He won't have me unless I get a divorce but I can't divorce him. Then there's a tap in my door so I act like I'm on the phone.

Well where are you? I'm tired of your games. Would you just come on all already. Erik's here and I'm not gonna wait forever? You don't think I know it's Christmas. You agreed to this now stop ruining my life and get here! Fine bye.

I turn around but Erik looks at me grinning.

The kids are waiting. Are you okay?

I huff irritated.

I'll be fine. You just worry about our kids.

How could he not see what's right in front of him? He's ruining Christmas. He groans and follows me out. I look in the kitchen but it's clean so I go to the living room and sit down. Erik sits across from me as we start giving out the gifts. Then I hand Erik his but he looks at me and the small box confused.

Come on kids mommy and daddy have toys outside for you.

I walk off with them opening the back door. Our boys run to their quads and our girls get on theirs riding around. I start teaching the boys when Erik walks over with his key.

You got me a quad?

I shrug as the boys take off.

Now you can ride with our kids and your friends. I have to take my medicine.

I walk off leaving him to watch the kids. I walk in and take my medicine then look out but he's still standing there watching them. Then I hear someone out front so I look to see Lily who's dressed to impress. I walk out and we look at each other but she puffs and knocks on his door with a gift in her hand.

He's not home. He's here with me and our kids.

She looks at me and scoffs.

He wouldn't go back to you after you ran off and slept with God knows how many guys. Who knows if those kids are even his.

I get pissed and tell her off but the kids come running through the house followed by Erik and they hear me.

How dare you call me a whore! I've never cheated on Erik or slept with anyone else for that matter! You're the cheating whore here!