I wish I could love you

Your hurting but so am I

"What... Raf since when have you had a cot in your house?" Cara says with an open mouth as she holds Ella against her hip as Raf takes her into the spare bedroom.

"Since my ex wife" he replies without a single emotion towards Amy shown. "Ella is welcome to use it, and your welcome to stay here for as long as you like" he smiles as he watches Cara put Ella down on the floor and hand her a dummy.

Cara makes sure Ella sits up correctly so she doesn't fall then laughs "sorry she's only been sitting up correctly by herself for just over a month now" she smiles as she watches Ella lie on her stomach.

"It's okay" Raf laughs as he picks up Ella and smiles at her, Ella giggles at him and pats his face.

"Someone likes you" Cara smiles as she watches her daughter giggle happily at Raf.

Raf smiles "I've always had a way with babies, I but have a funny face to them" Raf says as he makes Ella giggle some more.

Later on Cara has put Ella to bed and is now sitting in her pyjamas in the lounge with Raf, he hands her a glass of wine and sits opposite Cara, "you said you've been alone with Ella? So was Jed there when you gave birth?" Raf questions.

Cara looks down at her glass of wine and shakes her head, "no, well... Erm... You remember a few months back a woman in labour in the corridor?" Cara questions.
Raf nods and Cara continues "that was me... I thought I recognised you" Cara smiles as she finally takes a sip of her wine.

"You have a set of lungs on you Cara, everyone was on about you" he laughs as he still doesn't know Cara that well and tries to push her to find out more.
Cara blushes a little and yawns.

"Sorry about that I'm so tried" she mutters as she rests her head in her hands.

"You can have my bed tonight if you like, and I will stop down here" Raf smiles as he looks at the petite nurse who is clearly exhausted.

Cara thinks to herself "I can't possibly do that, I will stay down here" Cara protests.

"No you won't, you need a good night sleep" he says as he stands up and fills his glass up again. He also fills Cara's half way and says "One more drink and we can discuss sleeping arrangements" he smiles.

Raf sits himself down next to Cara and gives her a small smile, "so what happened between you and your wife?Cara questions curiously as she can see no sign of a woman living in his house.

"She cheated, turns out the baby we were having together wasn't mine but a doctor I worked with" he explains as he rubs his finger around the rim of his glass.

She looks at him sympathetically "Oh Raf I'm sorry to here that" she says as she places her hand on his knee.

Raf stops what he was about to say and looks up at Cara, "It doesn't matter anymore" he says slowly as he watches Cara's facial expression.

"I know the feeling" Cara mumbles as she looks at him, "Jed cheated and he didn't even know I had Ella" Cara mumbles.

"Oh Cara" Raf says sympathetically, he puts his hand on her knee, he rubs his hand around in circles on her knee.

He leans in closer to her as they sit in silence, Cara gives him a little smile and looks at him "I better be going to bed" she smiles as she stands up and straightens her pyjamas out.

"Goodnight Cara" Raf smiles as he watches her walk to the door.

"Goodnight Mr Di Lucca" she replies with a smile as she heads upstairs. Raf gives a sigh to himself he was so close to kissing Cara, but he knew it possibly wasn't the beast idea as Cara is still clearly upset.