Those Three Words {Niall Horan} IN EDITING

Chapter Ten: Funeral

Hey guys, quick authors note!! This chapter will not only have Ashley's pov, but also Niall and Liams! Chapters are still kinda short I know, I haven't had much time to write. But I will try to get the chapters longer soon! Thanks guys, hope you like chapter ten xx ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 'Beep beep beep beep beep beep' I hear which woke me up. I open my eyes and grab my phone, "Hello?" No one answered, "hello?" I say again. Still no reply. I look at my phone and realised it wasn't someone calling me, it was my alarm telling me to get up. Stupid me!!! I stretch and make weird noses until I'm ready to get out of bed. Today's the day..... Today is Greg's funeral..... It's really happening!... I walk out my room and to the kitchen to find Niall sitting at the table with his head down, I looked around and no one was here, it was just Niall. I quickly run over to him and crouch on my knees so I can look at Niall from his view. I rub his back with my hand. "Are you ok Niall?" Niall puts his head up and looks at me, his eyes aren't red and he's not crying, thank god! I hate seeing him upset.... But why is he here by himself? "Yeah I'm ok" he replies with a slight smile. "Are you sure? I understand if your not cause today is the day, unfortunately" I ask. "Yeah I know it is, it's gonna be really hard! But right now I'm fine, seriously! I was just resting and thinking about things" he answers. "What were you thinking about?" "Just everything" he spoke, "our next gig, my mum and dad, Greg's death and even you. Just random things" "Even me? What about me?" I question. "Oh I was just remembering memories with Greg and you when we were younger" he replies and I giggle. "Also about seeing you again now, when I saw you at Nandos, I couldn't believe it was you!" I smile, "I know neither could I! We've been apart for too long!" Niall nods. "Anyway I'm ok, how about you?" "I'm fine" I answer, "where is everyone?" "They are all out doing their own things, their gonna meet us at the funeral later!" Niall replies. "Speaking of that, I need to get ready and so do you! We need to be there in 2 hours, you think you can be ready by then?" I nod and stand back on my feet, Niall also stands and walks to his bedroom to get ready. I walk to the fridge to find something to eat, I see left over pizza in there! Doesn't sound very healthy for breakfast but I love cold pizza!!! Once I eat 2 slices of it I head to my bedroom and get ready for the day I've been dreading.... * "NIALL YOU READY TO GO?" I scream from the door, we need to be at the funeral in 10 minutes! "YEAH IM COMING NOW!" He screams back, how was a girl like me ready before Niall? God he must be slow.... Probably stuffing around with his hair or some shit! I hear footsteps coming towards me and I look up as Niall comes down the hallway, once he reaches me, my eyes widen and my jaw drops..... Is this the Niall I know? He looks so... Hot! Wait I can't say that about my best friend! I stop my gaze and look directly at Niall to see he has the same expression on his face as I did. He looked just as shocked! "You look really good Niall, the suit makes you look so mature!" I blurt out. I see Niall blink a few times. "Thanks! And you look good yourself" I smile, "we should go" Niall nods, we walk out the door and to the car that was waiting for us. Once we put our seat belts on the driver drove off. *10 minutes later* I look out the window and see our destination. This is it.. It's time to say goodbye. Niall and I get out the car, Niall walks over to me with a upsetting and worried look on his face, I gave him a smile to tell him it's ok. Niall held out his arm, "please, when I'm holding someone I feel less worried" I put my arm through his so were linking arms and we walk towards everyone. Both of us feeling nervous as hell. * "We have some roses and petals here, so if you would like to come and put them on his coffin before we put him in the ground, come up now and take as long as you need" said the funeral director. Niall and everyone stands up, I stay seated as I felt too upset to even move! I haven't cried yet, I don't know why, but I haven't. Niall looks down at me, his face is so red and eyes are puffy. "Are you coming?" He asks I shrug my shoulders and look down at the ground, I suddenly see Nialls hand grab mine, "Please Ashely, I need you to come!" Niall begs I look up and see tears falling from his eyes, I can't say no! And I guess I should do this. I stand up and keep my hand locked with Nialls. We walk over to the coffin and wait until Maura and Bobby have finished, Maura turns and looks at us with her eyes also red and teary. I give her a slight smile, she eyes mine and Nialls hand and then smiles. Why is she smiling? What is she thinking? Bobby then also turns around with a sad look on his face, he nods and then walks away with Maura. Niall and I walk up the step and in front of the coffin, Niall grabbed a rose and put it on the coffin while I showered some petals over it. I looked at the photos placed on top, One of just Greg smiling, another of Greg with Niall, Maura and Bobby, and then the one on the end.... The picture of Niall, Greg and I when we were younger.. I felt tears poor out of both my eyes, Why? Why do the tears just flow themselves? I've been holding it in so well and now I've ruined it..... I hate crying in public.. Niall is also sobbing next to me, I hear sobs all around me... It's just so awful! I put my hand on the coffin and look at the photo of just Greg. "Goodbye Greg, I'll never forget you!" I whisper as I cry. "I love you Greg, thanks for everything! Your an awesome bro!" I hear Niall say miserably, the tears falling as we both say our goodbyes. Niall and I walked towards the reception room where the others were, I see Maura and Bobby as we walk towards them.. "Hey Mum" Niall spoke to Maura. "Hey Niall" she replied as they both hugged and cried a bit on each others shoulders, he did the same with Bobby. "We're so proud of you son! Greg would be too!" Bobby said. "Yes we love you so much! We're lucky to still have you or else we would be more gutted" Maura cried. "I love you both too!" Niall replied miserably. "And it's so good to see you again Ashley! We missed you so much!" Bobby spoke to me. "Yes and look at you now! So beautifully grown up now!" Maura also spoke. "It's good to see you both too, I've missed you and Niall a lot! It's a shame I didn't get to see Greg again though" I cry. Maura pulls me into a hug, "He would of loved to see you again!" She whispers. We pull out of our hug and then bobby hugs me too. "Wanna go get some tea?" Niall asks me. "Alright" I reply and we both walk to the table at the other end of the room. As we walk I still hear people sobbing and we have people looking at us as we walk past them. I hate funerals....... It's so upsetting! I look down at my hand to see Niall and my hand still locked together! I didn't even realise.... Suddenly I feel a tap on my shoulder, I turn around to find Liam. "Hey you two" he says sadly. " "you alright?" " Niall slightly nods. "Yeah I think so" I reply for us both. "I know we've said this a million times but were so sorry for you loss Niall! And to you too Ashley, you were good friends with him" Louis says. "Yeah we're always here for you" Harry pouts. "Thanks guys" Niall answered. All 4 boys then walked away and towards Nialls family. Suddenly I feel Niall unlock our hands and walk away from me. I look in his direction and see him power walking to the front door. "Niall?" I slightly yell. I run after him and reach him outside near the small water fountain. He falls to the ground and cries his eyes out. I crouch down and hold him tight, "Why did he have to go?! It's so unfair!" Niall sobs harder. "Shhhhhh I know, I know it is" I whisper. "I just wish I could of said goodbye!" He cries. "So do I Niall, so do I" I rock back and forward. "He will always be with us, it's gonna be ok!" "no it's not!" "Yes it will, it's gonna get easier I prom-" "NO ASHLEY! IT WONT!" Niall screams. "IM SICK OF PEOPLE TELLING ME ITS GOING TO BE OK! HE'S GONE, ILL NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN SO HOW THE FUCK IS THAT GONNA MAKE EVERYTHING OK?!" "I know I'm sorry! but it will be, just give it time!" I reply. "NO DON'T SHIT WITH ME! I DON'T WANT TO GIVE IT TIME, NOTHING WILL MAKE IT OK!" "Niall I'm so sorry!" "NO DON'T APOLOGISE! IM ALSO SICK OF PEOPLE SAYING SORRY, IT DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL ANY BETTER! JUST GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! I FUCKING HATE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING!" I feel rain drops hit me and I realise its raining. I see Niall stand up and run away in the rain. I try to yell for him to come back but nothing comes out, I'm too weak.. Did he really just say that? Does he really mean it? Does he hate everyone?.. Including me? I put my hands in my palms and cry. "Niall come back!" I whisper to myself. "Please please come back!" * I'm sitting on the couch back at Niall and the boys house staring into mid air. I can still feel my cheeks are wet from crying, and I'm drenched from the rain. Lucky harry gave me a towel to wrap around me. The door opens and in comes Zayn. I quickly stand up, "did you find him?" "No! I've looked everywhere!" He replies. "Where are the others? Maybe they've found him!" I ask. Just then the door swings open and in comes the Louis, Harry and Liam. "Any luck?" Zayn asks "Nope, we can't find him anywhere!" Louis replies. "Have you told his parents he's gone missing?" Zayn asks. "He hasn't gone missing!" I snap, "He hasn't been gone for even 3 hours yet, I'm not giving up until we find him!" I run into the bedroom and grab my phone, I dial Nialls number again and call him for the millionth time! It goes straight to message bank... I left him the 3rd message.. "Niall please answer your phone! We're all so worried about you! Just come home so we can talk.. Or at least let me know your ok! I need you Niall.." I hang up and let a loud groan of frustration, he could be anywhere! It's pissing down with rain and its freezing outside! What if he's lost? What if he's hurts? Ahhh I just want to know he's ok!! I put my hand on my hips and I realise my clothes are still wet, I open my suitcase and get out my purple Adidas jumper and my black skinny jeans and quickly slide them on.. I grab my black beanie, gloves and my white converse shoes with purple laces and also put them on.. I put my phone in my hand and run out the bedroom door and to the front door to find the boys all talking about where Niall could be, all as frustrated and worried as I am. I grab the umbrella at the door and open it, before I go outside I face the boys. "I'm going to look for him" "Are you crazy? It's gonna storm soon and it's freezing cold!" Zayn shoots. "Yeah you'll get sick, we need to wait until the weather calms a bit and then we will look for him again" Louis states. "Wherever he is he obviously doesn't want to be found so just give him some time to calm down" "Wait? Are you serious? Wait until he gets hurt or lost? I don't think so. I don't care about the weather and I don't care about getting sick, I'm going to look for him and I'm not gonna stop until I find him!" "Well at least let one of us come with you!" Liam spoke "Fine!! Who's coming?" All the boys except Liam step back with there arms in protest. "Fine it looks like I'm going with you, call us if you here from him ok boys?!" Liam said and the boys nod. Liam quickly grabs another umbrella and we both walk out the door. We walk up the street, "we should split up and meet back here in an hour if we don't find him" I exclaim. "Yep call if we find him?" Liam replies. I nod. "Please be careful!" Liam begs "Yeah I will now let's find him!" We both run the opposite way and begin our search for Niall, hoping for the best that he's ok... But also expecting the worst.... *NIALLS POV* I lye here in the tall green grass, in the poring rain and in the freezing cold. I'm in a small Forrest, about 10 mintues away from all the busy roads and people, I'm in a place of peace and quiet where hopefully no one can find me! Barley anyone comes out here, I've never even been out here! I just want to be left alone to think, Or else I'm gonna explode! Still got my suit on which is not keeping me very warm, and my wrists hurt.... But I dont care, nothing could hurt more then the loss of my brother... The pocket knife lyes beside me, covered in bloody water. I'm curled into a ball, my face and my stomach hurts from crying so much... I can't stop thinking about him, I miss him so much! I always knew my brother meant a lot to me, but you never actually realise how much you love someone until their gone... And then it's too late! I was such a shit brother to him! I hadn't talked to him since new years eve, which was what 6 months ago?! I had his number in my phone, I had his Skype, his Facebook, but yet I still didn't talk to him! I know he would've understood because of how busy I was, but that's no excuse! He's my brother.... I should make time! I hear my phone vibrate in my pocket again, I don't bother answering it because I know who it would be as they all have left heaps of messages. I feel and hear my stomach rumble of hunger, I haven't eaten since last night. I just don't want to.. I feel in my pocket to see if I have anything to nibble on, I find a energy bar.. I pull it out my pocket and out falls a square photo with it.. I sit up and pick the photo up, I look to see its a picture of Greg and I when we were going to primary school. Our uniforms on and our bags on our backs, were standing close together with big smiles on our faces! All those memories flood back into my mind.. And now I can't make anymore memories..... Cause he's gone. My eyes fill with water as I drop the photo and fall back so I'm lying down again, I lye on my back and ball my eyes out. I scream with all my might, "WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO GREG? IT'S SO UNFAIR!" "FUCK YOU GOD! YOU TOOK MY BROTHER AWAY FROM ME!" I'm so angry, I've never been so pissed before! I feel like I'm gonna spew because of how much I'm crying, the tears just keep coming and falling uncontrollably! It's hard to describe this feeling, but I've never felt like this before! I need to let my anger out, I need to make myself feel better.... The only way to do that is..... Using that knife. I pick up the knife shakily and stare at it for a minute, all the thoughts in my mind are giving me a headache. I put the knife close to the skin of my upper arm, I press the blade against my skin very hard and then slide it across until I can see it turning into a deep cut. "FUCK LIFE!" I shout. "FUCK ME! IM AN ASSHOLE!" "I JUST WANT YOU BACK GREG!" I keep cutting my whole arm until the pain is too much.... I drop the knife and cry harder...... I look at my arm and see blood dripping non stop and the cuts look incredibly deep. Even though it hurts, I feel better. I begin to feel weak and achy all over my body, my head is spinning and I have no energy to even move! My eyes are growing weak and my sight is turning blurry. I try to keep my eyes open but fail, My eyes just shut and I can see nothing but darkness and a bright light in the distance which is gradually getting brighter and brighter. This doesn't feel like the real world anymore. *LIAMS POV* I see Nandos up ahead and I widen my eyes. Maybe he could be there? It's his favourite restaurant, he could just be chilling there? I run as fast as I could until I reach the entrance, I quickly open the door and bolt inside. "NIALL?!" I yell. I look around for him but don't see him, only strangers giving me weird looks. Maybe I should ask the people that work here? I walk up to the counter to see a young lady with black hair and green eyes, "Can I help you sir?" "Have you seen a young lad with bright blonde hair, blue eyes and is about 5'7 tall?" I ask her. "Um well I've seen a lot of lads so I'm not quite sure" she replies. "Maybe a picture will help?" "Oh yeah here" I grab my phone out of my pocket and look through my gallery. I find the picture of him and I on stage. "Oh yes I remember him!" She shoots. "Was he wearing a black suit?" "Yes!" "Yeah he asked for directions" she said. "Directions to where?" I ask determinedly. "I normally wouldn't ask these types of questions but I need to find him! He's my best friend and he's been missing for hours now!" "Oh alright" she replies. "He asked if I knew anywhere he could go that was quiet, where no one could find him so he could be alone" "And where did you tell him to go?" "To the Forrest, it's about 10 minutes away from here and people dont go there very often. you just run up that hill and then turn left at the first street and then keep going straight until you see a sign saying rain Forrest, you'll hopefully find him there!" She explains. "Oh thanks so much, you've been a great help!" I spoke as I run off and she waves me off. I head for the hill and I run as fast as I could, I gradually get tired but I don't care.... I need to find Niall. Luckily it stops raining, clouds are still out and looking as grey as ever but no rain thank god! I finally reach the sign that leads me to the Forrest! I start running again through the Forrest and I yell for Niall. "NIALL?" I run and look around everywhere. "NIALL WHERE ARE YOU?" I see a big paddock of tall green grass and sprint towards it, it's so hard to see in it as the grass is up past my knees! Suddenly I hear music, it's the song Endlessly by the cab.. That's Nialls ring tone! "NIALL IS THAT YOU?" I scream I keep running towards the sound until I see him.... I see Niall lying in the grass..... He's not moving.... "NIALL?!" I scream loudly. I run up to him and crouch down next to him, his eyes are closed, his body is weak and there's blood! Blood? What? I see the knife lying next to him, "NOOOO!" I yell! "NIALL YOU DIDNT!" I pull up his sleeve and see all the deep cuts over his whole arm! Blood still dripping and it's all such a mess! What has he done? Why did he do this to himself? I slap his face a little, "Niall it's me please wake up" He doesn't move, is he even breathing? "Niall buddy can you hear me?" He still doesn't move, his body lyes there..... He's as pale as a ghost.... "Oh no please don't do this!" I loudly beg. "Please just open your fricken eyes!" "SHIT!" I yell. I grab my phone out of my pocket and dial 911. "Ambulance please!" "Hello what's your emergency?" A man says. "I just found my best friend and he's cut himself deeply and it's made him pass out! He's not waking up and he looks awful!" I yell into the phone worriedly... feeling scared as shit! " is he breathing?" He asks "I have no idea but the cuts are really deep! There's blood everywhere and he's extremely cold from the rain!" I freak out. "Alright what's your location sir?" "Ugh the Rain Forrest about 10 minutes away from town, if you run straight through the Forrest you'll find tall green grass and we are there!" "Ok I'm sending an ambulance they will be there as soon as they can, just stay with him and keep calm!" He orders. "Thank you but please hurry before its too late! I can't loose him!" I beg. "You won't loose him! It's going to be fine, the ambulance is on their way!" "Ok thanks bye" and I hung up the phone. I feel tears fall down my cheeks as I hold Niall in my lap... "It's gonna be ok Niall, your gonna be fine! The ambulance is on their way, just stay with me ok?" I dial Ashley's number. "Liam have you found him?" Ashley answers quickly. "Yes but he's injured! The ambulance is on their way to help now!" I reply "WHAT?! is he ok?" "I don't know but you need to meet us at the hospital ok? Tell the boys too please!" I order "Ok see you soon!" She replies and hangs up. I look down at Niall again, his face still pale and blood still dripping from his arm.... God how much is hurts to see him like this! I look up at the sky and pray, "Please please make him be alright!" "We can't loose him! He doesn't deserve to die!" "Please Just let him live!"