Those Three Words {Niall Horan} IN EDITING

Chapter Twenty-Six: Lonely

*A MONTH LATER*


HARRYS POV



I've been back in Cheshire with my family for about a month now, I haven't left my room once. well to go pee and shower I have, but apart from that, I've been crawled up under my covers.



Mum brings me in food 3 times a day, each meal. I only eat them when I'm hungry though. Which is normally only dinner.



I hear my phone go off and I have look to see its a text message from... LOUIS?!




I sit up and lean on the head of my bed, I almost cried when I read his message,


'Hey Harry, how are you?
Everything is such a mess, Zayn has now left me, we were hanging out all the time for ages until last week. He went home to his family in Bradford, he doesn't want anything to do with me, you or Liam ever again. He wants to act like he never met us and he's trying to go back to his old life, it's so unfair.
Have you heard from Liam? I have no idea where the fricken hell he is! No one knows, Josh told me that Liam wouldn't tell him where he was going or how long he would be. His family is getting worried and so am I!
I'm worried about you too Haz, I shouldn't of ignored you like I have been for the past month, I'm so sorry.
I miss you so much and hopefully we can see each other soon, I can't lose all 4 of my best friends'



My heart shatters, he feels like he's losing everyone. That's how I'm feeling. I need to talk to him, hear his voice.


I text back,

'Call me?'



About a minute later, my phone rings and Louis's caller ID lights up.



I answer, "Lou?"



"Harry, you don't know how happy I am to hear your voice!" He chirps.



"I'm so happy to hear yours too!" I chirp back.



He sighs, "I'm so sorry Haz"



"Louis it's fin-"



"No it's not! let me finish, please?" he asks.



I hum a yes and he then continues, "I don't know what got into me, pulling out of the band was the worst decision I've ever made! Liam was right, Niall definitely wouldn't want us to go our separate ways and I wish I listened to Liam because I miss you, Liam and Zayn so much, and of corse I miss Niall. I guess I just took it really hard, everything happened so suddenly and I just couldn't take it in, so I quit the band and wanted all of you out of my life, because I was scared that if I stuck around, I would put myself in so much pain because everything would remind me of Niall, but not seeing you guys has made things worse. I should've been there for you Harry, and Liam and Zayn too, I'm so so sorry for being as selfish as I was" I hear him start to sniffle and it goes silent for a minute.




"My rant is over" he suddenly spoke.



I chuckled, "I understand Louis, I really do. It's so hard, I still can't even believe that Niall is gone and our days of being in One Direction are over, it's not fair and it really hurts me"




"I know, same for me" he replies, "so, do you forgive me Haz? I hope you have, because I can't lose anymore people than I already have"



"Of corse I do! You haven't lost me and you never will! I need you Lou, and you need me, if Liam and Zayn are gonna be stubborn then they can deal with it on their own" I spoke.




He sighs in relief, "thank you! I'm glad I have you Haz, can we meet up soon? I'm kinda lonely"




"Don't you have your family?" I question.




"No, I'm still in Australia"




"What?! Why aren't you with your family Louis?! Your such an idiot"




"I know I am, but I just couldn't go back to everyone when I know what they'll say, they'll just feel sorry for me and will make me feel worse" he coughs a little, "I've talked to my mum and sisters on the phone a couple of times, so they know I'm ok, but I'm just not ready to go back home, I needed to deal with things on my own and I love being in Australia, so I've just been chilling here"




"Don't you get really lonely? Being by yourself every minute of the day, when your upset, no one is there for you" I say.




"Yes I do" he answers, "but I have some fans that talk to me in public sometimes, and I spend most of my time surfing at the beach, or I've even been writing songs about how I'm feeling"




He's been writing songs about how he's feeling? now that is something Louis never does. "I've been writing songs too, everything I feel or something I think of in my head, I write down and put it into a song"




Suddenly my door opens and in walks Gemma with a tray of food, "Harry?" she talks.




"Just a sec Louis, my sister is talking to me" I say and quickly just put my phone on my lap, not hanging up.




"Hey Gem" I say, "what's up?"




"I brought you Spaghetti" she replies and hands me the tray.



"Thank you"




She smiles a little, "you look a little happier tonight Haz, who's on the phone?"



"Louis, and I am feeling a bit better because he's not shutting me out anymore unlike Liam and Zayn"



She sits down on the end of my bed, "is there anything I can do for you? You've been so quite and out of this world, we haven't had a conversation with you at all and were all worried about you, we miss the Harry Styles we used to know, the happy, bubbly person"




I look at my hands and fiddle with my thumbs, "I know Gemma, I'm really sorry. I just don't like to socialize when I'm upset, I like to be alone so I can deal with my emotions. But I promise I'll get better soon, okay?"




I look up and she nods, "but whenever you need someone, you talk to me okay?"




"Thanks sis" I give her a slight smile and she pulls me into a hug.




"I love you bro, we all do" she gives me a kiss on the cheek before she let's go of our hug and walks out of my room, closing the door behind her.




I pick up my phone, "you still there Lou?"




"Yeah, so can we meet up soon?" he answers.




"Well, I could use some time out of the house, so maybe I can come back to Australia for a week or two?"




"But what about your family? You haven't been communicating with them and now your just gonna leave?" he croaks.




"Do you want to see me or not?"



"Yeah but if-"




"Then I'm coming to Australia! I'll book a flight for tomorrow and I'll text you before I board" I shoot.



He laughs a bit, "alright, talk tomorrow then, well it will be night for me, but I don't care"




I chuckle, "Bye Lou"




"See ya Haz" and with that we both hung up. I remember that I have spaghetti waiting for me to eat it, so I grab the plate and quickly shove it down.



I get up and walk out to the kitchen, I put the plate in the dishwasher before I go into the lounge room where my mum is sitting, all by herself.




"Mum?"




She shoots her head to me, "Oh Harry, your out of your room"




I nod, "I'm sorry mum"




"Don't be sorry, I know you like dealing with things by yourself and that's okay, but your alright, aren't you?"



I shrug, "I don't know how I'm feeling anymore, everything is just a mess and I'm still trying to sink it all in"



She walks over to me and hugs me, "it must me so hard, losing your best friend and having the others cut you off, I'm so sorry and I wish there was something I could do"



I hug her back and burry my face in her shoulder, "I miss him, and I try not to believe that he's really dead" a tear streams down my face and I start to cry in her arms.




"Oh my baby, it's okay, let it all out" she rubs my back and strokes my hair, we stay in this position for a while. This is why I love talking to my mum.




Once I calmed down, I pull out of our hug and looked her straight in the eyes, "I wish I wasn't so stubborn and actually talked to you, I pushed you and everyone away and I'm sorry"




She wipes my tears away, "it's okay, we all understood" she holds both of my hands, "just remember that Niall will always be with you, he will never leave you or the boys, you had such a strong friendship. I'm sure he's okay now, he's with his girlfriend and they both will be waiting until the day you all join them"




I sniffle and nod, "thanks mum" I give her a slight smile and she gives me one back, "oh, I've got some news"




"Go on?"




"Louis called me, so he's not shutting me out anymore"




"That's great! What about Liam and Zayn?" she questions.




"None of us have heard from Liam, he's gone somewhere but no one knows where, he wouldn't tell anyone" I start, "and as for Zayn, he's completely shutting us out, he doesn't want anything to do with us ever again. he's just acting like he never even met us and wants to go back to his old life, so he's back in Bradford with his family and is ignoring us"




She gasps, "why would he do that?!"




"He's hurting I guess, I know that gives him no right, but we can't force him to do anything so he can just deal with things on his own" I state and mum nods.




"So what about you and Louis?"




"Well, he's still in Australia, he's hurting pretty bad" I pause for a minute before I continue, "I'm going back to Australia to visit him tomorrow"




Her eyes tear up and her face drops, "y-your leaving again? for how long?"




"Well I-I said to Louis about a week or two, but if I feel I can't leave him, then I'll stay longer" I grab her hands and squeeze them, "Louis and I need each other and if we meet up, we might both feel better about things. I know we haven't spent much time together, but I'll come back soon, I promise Mum"




She sighs, "your right, you do what you think is best and I'll be waiting for you here"




I pull her into a quick hug, "I'm booking the earliest flight, so I probably won't see you tomorrow"




We let go and she gives me a peck on the cheek, "well say hi to Louis, and please help each other so you feel better"



I nod, "night mum"





"Night baby" she coos as I walk to my room. I get online and book the earliest flight I could find, which was 5am. I turn off my light and curl up under my covers, I close my eyes and fall asleep to the sound of Nialls solos on replay.



....




'Beep beep beep beep beep beep' I hear my alarm go off, I shut it up and quickly get out of bed.




I have a quick shower and change into my tight black jeans and my white shirt, I don't bother quiffing my hair, I just leave it hanging down and curly.



I start packing my suitcase, chucking random shit in there and then sitting on it to get it shut. I put on my white converses, something I haven't worn in a while.




I grab my phone and wallet and drag my suitcase to the lounge, I call a cab to come get me and I eat a piece of toast while I wait.




10 minutes later my cab arrives and takes me to the airport. I arrive just in time because my flight is boarding. I go through the check in and security and then bolt to my gate.




Once I reach the plane and find my seat, I quickly text Louis,


'Hey mate, I'm on my plane and about to take off! don't know what time I land in Australian time, so your gonna have to check online.
See you soon :)'



I get a reply not long after,

'Okay have a good flight!
I'm about to go to bed, but I'll check when I wake up, don't worry, I'll be there to pick you up.
Can't wait to see you :)'




I smile as I put my phone on silent and get ready for the long trip to Australia, I can't wait to see Louis though, I've missed him so much. and I hope that
we can get through to Zayn and Liam.