Unexpected Meetings (Lauren/You)

Chapter 23

Your POV

"So Y/n, how do that make you feel?"

"I actually hate you for starting our session off like that." I laugh

"You know I'm just kidding." Lisa laughs back. "But seriously. It's been a while since I last saw you. How is everything going?"

"Well, I've been having panic attacks again, some worse than before." I start off.

"I don't want to hear about that yet. Tell what has happened since I last saw you. Any new people you met, boyfriend, girlfriend? What about Elements? Just anything new, that you have yet to tell me."

Now the thing about Lisa, she's cool. I was skeptical when we first had our first session. Thought she was just being nosy and annoying and puts on an act to show that she cares when she doesn't. But I was wrong. Lisa actually true cares. She is actually the 4th therapist I went to. The other ones were just shit, literal shit. Lisa's different. 

She had a different tactic than the other therapists. She didn't push or force anything out of me and most importantly, she listens. She had no pen and paper in front of her. Or a voice recorder to record everything that's said. It was just me and her. Lisa would aways have full eye contact with me, nod, and hum every once in a while to show she was paying attention. 

Eventually, I've grown to trust her. At first, I would say bullshit lies to see if she would relay the message to anyone of the family or of some sort. She never did.

"Well, schools going great. My friends are helping me like always. Winter break is coming up soon, thank God." I start. "Um, college looking is doing just fine as well. Spent a whole weekend once on strictly college stuff. I wanna to kill myself, my brain literally got fried from it." She laughs. "I got every application handed in and now I just have to work of scholarships. Already handed in 2 and plan on doing 3 more." I pause thinking what else to say.

"What about this summer? How was celebrity watching?" Lisa asks once she saw I was having trouble thinking of what else to say? Oh, forgot to mention, Lisa knows what we do every summer and about 'Mystery Elements.

"We actually didn't watch any celebrities this summer. We actually had a true vacation, it was great to have."

"So then what did you do? The usual, beach, party, chill?"

"Yeah, pretty much. Smoked a few times too, but not as often, as I usually do I guess."

"Ah yes, smoking. You still smoke occasionally?"

"Yeah, I still only smoke about 3 times a week. Rarely go over that amount."

We talked more, about that people I met over the summer: Camri, Eli, Fifth Harmony, even Ashley. Mentioned that we are watching celebrities during school instead of the summer, but not much is going to change from that. We even went into detail about Lauren. How we can be hot and cold sometimes.When I told her about 'Mystery Elements' she got really excited. She's really happy that we are trying to get out there. She did mention about the added stress there is to becoming and being well known and famous. 

Then we talked about my panic attacks. I told her that my dreams are coming back more often. She was confused why they would suddenly come back, when I told her I am still taking my regular meds, my daily routine is basically the same. Well, besides that one mishap at school when I forgot to take my meds and ended up in the hospital. But besides that, I would make sure I wouldn't forget. Let me rephrase that, NINA would make sure I wouldn't forget.

Our session soon ended. I have to come back to her again, 2 weeks later, nothing new. 

I drove over to Nina's house. She's helping me with homework again. And she's home alone today and wants some company.