Carmen

Love Of The Brother

Light of my life, fire in my loins

Be a good baby, do what I want

Light of my life, fire in my loins

Gimme them gold coins, gimme them coins

And I'm off to the races

Cases of Bacardi chasers

Chasin' me all over town

Cause he knows I'm wasted,

Facing time again on Rikers Island

And I won't get out

Because I'm crazy, baby

I need you to come here and save me

I'm your little scarlet, starlet

Singing in the garden,

Kiss me on my open mouth

Ready for you...............

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 Carmen

          The heat was amazing. His hands traveled up and down my body. My heart was beating out of my chest. His kisses made me want to burst into flames. Breathing was heavy and we were both drunk and hot. 

"Jacob" I whispered.

"Yeah" He whispered back with his vodka straight breath. 

"I love you" spilled from my lips. 

"Ok...." He said, continuing to kiss down my neck.

"Do you love me?" I asked. 

"No" he said. I choked. 

"Wait what?" I threw him off of me.

"I don't love you. I don't know you." He said.

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T KNOW ME! I'VE HAD A CRUSH ON YOU FOR THE LONGEST" I yelled.

"Can you keep it down?" He asked.

"NO I CANT FUCKING KEEP IT DOWN." Screamed, grabbing my clothes off the floor and putting them on. I rushed downstairs to see boy throwing dollar bills at Taylor as she was twerking in the middle of the floor.

"TAYLOR GET ALL YOUR SHIT AND LETS GO" I yelled over the music. 

"WHATS WRONG BABY IS EVERYTHING OK?" she asked.

"NO LETS GO" 

"SORRY GUYS SHOWS OVER" she said, grabbing all the money and following me out the door.

     We were on our way to drop me off at home, as Tay began talking. 

"What happened up there?" she asked.

"I don't want to talk about it" I said

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      I walked inside my house.

"Hi baby" My mom said, but I was so drowned in my drunk emotions, I walked right past her into my room. I locked my door and laid in my bed with my face in a pillow hoping to smother myself. My mom came to knock on my door, but I refuse to answer. First of all, Im drunk as hell. Second, I almost had sex with a guy who doesn't give 2 shits about me. How do you explain that to your mother?  I heard another knock.

"Please go away" I said, lightly.

"Its me, Cammie" His nickname for me. My brother.

"What do you want..." I said.

"Please open the door. Maybe I can help." I walked over to the door and opened it, to a caring brother standing in front of my door. I moved to the side and let him in. He sat on the edge of my bed with the most pathetic look on his face. 

"Lets talk" He said.

"Theres nothing to talk about"

"Don't act like Taylor doesn't have my number" I let out a deep sigh. "She told me you came downstair from that fro kid. and you were upset" 

"Look its too long of a story"  He sat back on my bed and got comfortable. 

"Im listening" He said. I went ahead and ran it down to him as clear as I could. 

"Do you need some milk?" He said. He must have realized how out of it I was. I usually function pretty amazing when Im drunk. He came back with a tall glass of whole milk. After I drunk it, I laid down next to him, and finished telling him everything. I began to tear up and he pulled me into an embracing hug. 

"Sis don't cry, your brother got you" He said patting my head. "He's an idiot, and he only wanted to hit, and I almost promise you he wasnt gonna want anything to do with you after that." He said, kissing my forehead. 

"Thank you s much. Im so glad I have an amazing brother like you." 

"Being amazing is my job as a big brother" He said. I let out a chuckle. 

"Well Im going to go now" He said.

"Wait a minute Casanova" I said smirking. "Whats up with you and Taylor" I said. He laughed

"Bye Cameron" He said, closing my door.....

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Hi everyone. Its BJ. Not in the mood to be excited but here's your update. 

Lyrics at the beginning is "OFF TO THE RACES" by Lana Del Rey... I promise I'll use more artists besides Lana and Marina, but they are relevant for the first few chapter at the moment. 

Um..... Im deactivating my Twitter soon so not asking for a folllow this time.

Carmen's brother Caleb is on the side, just so yall can know what he looks like.... Ok seeya crazies.