Don't Leave Me (Kai Fanfic)

Chapter 6.

"What did you do when I was gone?" I ask in a soft tone.

We've gone from anger to nice and awkward. "I..I don't even know." Is this how he was when he killed his first love? Did he just lose all control of himself?

I take his hand. "Are you okay?" I ask him. He looks down at our hands and then to my eyes. 

He nods biting his lips. I hug him so that he feels better and this time he hugs me back. 

"I'm sorry I came back so late." I tell him.

"Don't leave me again." He almost whimpers and begs me in his own way. He holds me tighter around my waist.

"I won't." I assure him.

"I need to go to sleep, goodnight." I saying biting my lip scared of leaving him but I don't know what I'm suppose to do.

He nods. He holds onto my hand a little until he can stretch out his arm anymore and lets go.

He says something under his breath but I can't make out the words.

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"So when do you turn me bad?" I ask him.

"Whenever I want."

"How bad?" 

"As much as I want you to be." 

His answers aren't that straight forward or specific but I don't plan on asking more and more or else he'll just rage on me again.

I just nod and bite my lip still having so many questions for him but I don't want to have him be burdened or annoyed.

I walk over to the living room to grab my laptop and start looking through my notes for my exams soon.

"Anything else?" He asks going over to sit beside me and look at what I'm doing. He doesn't know what privacy is apparently.

"When you said you will leave me right after we find out if I'm good or bad...do you get punish if you ever meet me again?" I ask him quite softly and sadly.

I look from my laptop to him and he does the same to me. He bites his lip and looks anywhere but me.

"You won't be able to see me physically. Almost like I'm invisible to you but I will still be able to see you. So technically, I'll see you but you won't see me. I won't have any purpose of having to be around you after this week so it doesn't matter..." 

"I really want you to stay." I say trying to put on a smile.

He lifts the corner of his mouth up for only a second before it drops back down intro frown.

"Yet just a few days ago you were so ready for me to leave as soon as possible." He tries to laugh and so do I.

"You're not as bad as I thought you were before.." I tell him resting my head on his and he rests his head on mine. 

He smirks. "I know." I smile at his smirk but then my smile fades knowing I'll mis his everything. By now, I don't really care that he has a short temper or that he's able to kill me. I don't care that I'll turn bad or stay good. All I care about is him.

"Don't leave me." I start to cry into his chest and he hugs me tight. 

"Katherine, don't cry. Don't do this to me." He whispers into my ear. He brushes my hair with his hand as he comforts me.

He lets go of me and cups my face with his hands. He kisses the top of my head. "It's not my choice, I'm just doing me job. If I could do anything to stay, I would." I finally stop crying after a little while.

"You'd only stay because of So yeon." I mumble and he looks me straight in the eyes although mine are a bit puffy now from crying.

"You might remind me of her but that doesn't mean I'd only want to stay because of that. I want to stay because I like you. So yeon might of been my first love but it's in the past, I can't change that."

"But once we know tomorrow and you're gone. This will be the past and you can't change it either." I argue. Somehow I'm start to feel like I'm jealous of So yeon, like I'm trying to make Jongin try to choose between the two of us.

"She's gone and you're still here." 

"But if she were here, then you'd chose her." I argue and it takes him longer to response. Of course he'd chose her over me. I'm just a copy for her.

"Katherine-" He starts but I cut him off.

"Don't even start." I say getting up and walking away from him. He storms up to me with his eyes black and his sharp teeth. 

"Don't walk away from me." Jongin growls at me.

"I want you to turn me a bad, right now." I demand him to do so and his eyes shift back to normal and so do his teeth.

"What?" 

"You heard me, turn me bad now." I say furious. I don't want to deal with having to be a second choice to him. 

"Katherine-" He starts again but I cut him off. 

"Just do it." I say having my arm out to him.

I'm making him relive the moment he lost So yeon but this time it's with me. 

He eyes turn black once again. "You asked for this." He says before grabbing my wrist and holding onto it hard, very hard. 

His black veins start to appear and he starts to turn mine the same dark black colour. I start to scream out in pain. He said he wouldn't hurt me...but he did in both ways.