Good Girl Gone Wrong

10: ( no title bc all combined )

10

It's now 11p.m. and I'm reading through Tumblr love quotes and I'm crying in bed:

I wish my life was a movie sometimes. You know, I'd never have to worry about my hair or having to go to the bathroom. And then when I'm at my lowest point, some guy would chase me down the street pour his heart out and we'd kiss. Happily ever after.

I hate getting close to anyone becasue I lose myself in them. And when they leave, it breaks me up and I'm not the same after.

I'm at that point where I don't even care if people like me anymore. If you like me, cool. If you don't, okay.

" Sometimes I regret being nice, apologizing when I didn't do anything wrong, and for making unworthy people a piority in my life. "

Do i have a crush on you or am i just lonely
Do i like you or do i like that you like me
Do i want to be in a relationship or do i just want to prove that I'm worthy of one

Have you ever been so sad and tired and you really wanna be alone but at the same time you really wish there was someone who you can talk to and cares

Sometimes I keep my feelings to myself because its hard to find someone who understands.

Dont say maybe if you wanna say no.

Of course there are many more and I just needed to sleep...

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School. School. School.

I woke up quite early as I was unable to sleep from the sudden change of house. I checked my phone and it says 4:45am

I would usually get up at 5:30am and get out of the house at 6:35am and reach school by 7am.

But since school is nearer when I stay here i thought i could get up later but my body decides to play games with me. I dragged my body into the bathroom and showered. I got out and changed back to my clothes that I slept in last night. I went downstairs but stairs and I thought it would wake me up. Well, I guess it worked a little.

" Good morning sweetie. Do you always wake up this time? " Anna asked me.

" Good morning Anna. I thought you would asleep and Auntie Kaitlyn would be the one who prepares breakfast. Oh no, I usually would wake up at 5:30 but I my body wasn't use to it so I guess my body decides to function early in the morning. "

" No honey, Kaitlyn will only take care of cleaning the house and taking care of the household items like what is missing and stuff. I still do things! I try to help Kaitlyn as much as I can, I don't want dementia to kick in early for me! " She replied as she laughed.

" I can just make a sandwich then, " I mumbled to myself thinking of what to eat, " No honey, we should eat altogether. Except Winnie of course, school starts at 9am for her so no rush. " Anna said.

We chatted for about an hour while Anna was preparing breakfast. Lewis came down in his clothes and everything ready, " Morning Mother. "

" Morning Lewis! " I chirped cheerfully.

He ignored me. What do I do?!

" I'll just be having a slice of toast with coffee then I'll be leaving already. "

What? Then how about me, I'm still trapped in my pjs and waiting for pancakes and I still haven't brushed my teeth!

I immediately ran up( 3 stories mind you! ) and changed in ny school uniform consisting of white button up top and a blue skirt and I wore my adidas superstar and did a thirty seconds brushing of teeth and tied my hair into a low ponytail and ran down again and I grabbed a huge slice of pancake and devoured it and drank some drink. When I said some is like one teaspoon, and I ran to the door while Lewis was just putting on his shoes.

Thank goodness!

We didn't take a bus as from his home as it was walking distance.
I tried to walk beside him but it was either he was too fast or he suddenly stopped. I did that for about twenty minutes.

" Can you please stop? "

" What? "

" Stop coming near me and stop talking to me like we knew each other! You are annoying, stupid and useless okay? Stop being a bug clinging onto me and just let go! "

He walked quickly ahead.

What have I done? Too desperate am I? True it's like he's the top of the level in school while I'm just right at the bottom! It's so true, I liked him for many years and I never knew I got to stay with him. Maybe he has a friendly side which I have to find and introduce myself to it! I have study harder to prove him wrong and that I'm not stupid and useless!

And about a few minutes later he turned around and said, " Don't even think about letting your gangster friends know that you are staying at my house. I don't want some girl whom I find disgusting telling the world that she's staying at my house. Okay? No. "

Of course I couldn't cry, that's not the right thing to do when faced with a confrontation. I kept quiet all the way to class, " Whassup Beautiful, can I have your number so I can send messages to you every night and morning so you wouldn't that grumpy face of yours? "

Oh dear, I have tried smiling but failing miserably.

Jackson, my long time buddy since high school. We have both failed school quite badly so we were always the bottom of the lists and we never really did bother about schoolwork. He's older than me just about six months so he's ust like an older brother to me which I can use as a punching bag if I was angry of anything. Yeah, he's strong built and stuff but not that attractive I must say as a ' younger sister '. There are girls who go for him but he rejects them all, shouldn't he choose one in time?

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During lunch time then I realized i didn't have a lunch box with as I usually hated school's food plus they were so expensive! So Momma has gotten Auntie Mariento prepare breakfast for me but since I was staying at Andersons housing I think I would have to waste some money to buy food there.

School went well just the normal days as I was staying at home. I went back straight to the Anderson's housing after school and I found Anna looking at me as if she did something wrong, " I'm so sorry Calista. I didn't realize you eat with you lunchbox as well! I will prepare for you tomorrow, don't worry it'll be as delicious as your Mom makes! We went for cooking classes together before you both existed! "

I didn't know Momma went for cooking classes. Papa always says Momma's cooking sucks.

" Actually it's Auntie Kaitlyn who cooks for me, " I smiled, " Thank you anyways. I'll go up and study now. "

I brought up my superstar and kanken bag and threw it on the floor and flopped on the bed. I couldn't do it. It's not easy as you think.

I took out my books and placed it on the table and started revising and who knows what happens when I'm left alone to study.

I fell asleep. I was thinking of fluffy unicorn that Lewis won at a carnival and he gave it to me. Awww isn't he sweet!

Lewis' POV

Mom made me go upstairs to call her down as it was dinner time, I went to her room outside and knocked on her door expecting to hear a reply. But she didn't, so I just said I was going in but I found her on the floor sleeping with all the books around and writing materials. I squat and picked at piece a paper up, she was trying to solve many questions on the book we were now going through in class. Yes, we all are in different classes but we learn almost the same thing. Except I learn extra things and our pace of learning is faster while theirs is slow. I took out her pens, realizing all of them are girly pens I gave up and used one of them and did it.

Helloooo humans im so damn proud of myself rn. Okay, i know this book might sound famillar yes, it is based on the japanese love story!
1430words!!!!!!!!omfgggg

Jolynn