Good Girl Gone Wrong

22: Love Myself

22: Calista pov

I have decided.

I'm not doing it for anyone, I'm doing it for myself. I want to love myself and not put anyone first in that position, even Anderson.

" Queue number 31! " He called out.

I gave him a smile and sat on the comfy chair and ready for everything, " This please. "

He took out the scissor that is used for professional uses and chopped off my long brunette hair, it became shoulder length.

He started trimming off bit by bit of my hair while I shut my eyes, excited and nervous on how everyone will see me in school.
I am quite scared that i might be judged, I hate being judged being it makes me scared that i made the wrong decision and i don't want to see that i have made the wrong decision.

" Okay miss, we are done here. Please go and queue up behind that lady, thank you very much. Queue number 40! "

i slowly opened my eyes to see a pixie hair cut, not just an ordinary long pixie but just a bit longer than the short haircut Jeniffer Lawrence had.
It had the feminine side yet the boyish look that I could match anything. The mirror gave back a confidence girl over there and I stood up and queued behind the lady and hope this new Morgan can shock the world.
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I thought I would sell or trade majority of my old clothes with other designs. I have been playing as the good girl for too long and how I went to school might represent me as one of the nerds but guess what? I'm dumb.
But i play along with the school rules well. Never been caught with any dress code wrongly or any shoes that were not meant to be worn.

I manage to earn over $200 from all the clothes that I had sold( apparentally, there are peoplenwho appreciate those kind of clothing. Pleased to say, I am not complaining or anything honestly. )

I thought I would go for a boyish look instead of the ' The Girl Next Door ' look, I wandered around some shops and found it.

It was he boys section and the owner of the store was staring at me intently trying to figure out whether I was a girl or a boy.

" Hi sir, how can i help you, are you buying it for your boyfriend? "

Oh, he now thinks I'm gay.

" Nope, " He eyes widened when he realized I was a girl due to my voice, still low but still recgonizable as a girl, " I'm buying it for myself, giving myself a makeover. "

He nod his head, trying to take in everything that I wasn't a girl and not buying it for my boyfriend and the fact is that I'm buying it for myself.

" So, " i rub my hands together, " Do you have any monochrome style? Maybe I might just go with tee and jeans. "

I manage to find some guy clothing fit me, although it is a little big but I guess it is still acceptable. So I actually had gotten loads of flannels in different patterns and styles, also, I have gotten jeans.

But of course, I wasn't the fragile girl anymore. I was going to work out almost everyday, so I have about 5 sports bra right now.

I went back home contented with all the clothes I manage to fit in and style it up.

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" Mommy, there is a guy in our door and he has the house key! "

Okay, maybe I might have gone a little too far with the haircut.

I was looking down, as i was still afraid of how everyone might look at me so I thought I should enter in slowly. But urgh, gotten caught.

Anna came out and stared at me intently upon realizing that it was me, she started laughing and asked me if i was out of my mind.
All i could say was: Maybe
and i ran straight to my room.

I started packing all my stuff back into the wardrobe which was three quarters empty and placed it back slowly bit by bit, humming ' Queen Of Hearts ' by We The Kings out loud.

Well, maybe he heard that because he crashed into my room and hugged my immediately, like he hasn't seen me in three hours. Well, I was missing for three hours without pior notice with sort of.

"I thought you ran away with your stuff because your wardrobe was nearly empty, I felt that maybe i have gone a little too far. "

I felt numb for a moment but then regained consciences and pushed him away gently, showing him that I didn't need his concern. Thankfully, he noticed the signal and let go.

" Why did you cut your hair? "

" Nice to know. "

Maybe I was a little and said something I shouldn't have, maybe the sarcasm had gone a little too far.
I felt a pang of guilt for a second but decided against showing it, I chose to just smile and get him out of the room so i can finish packing.

But before he left the room, he saw the kind of clothes I bought.

He picked up the bag and said, " Thanks for the gift, appreciated. "

" No guts, no spine and a head full of shit. Just like, a prawn. "

He turned around and walked towards me again and smiled, " At least I'm not a b!tch that I have to take for bowling to learn that she should stay in her lane. "

" At least it takes a b!tch to know a b!tch. And excuse me those clothing, " I pointed to myself, " Are mine. "

He gave me a confused look and returned the bag and said, " Trash. "

I smiled confidently to myself,
at least garbage cans are uses and for your info:
it is garbage can and not cannot.

Lmao loads of sarcasm in here ok, idk but the inner me just came out so your welcome. I got grounded on the 9th so fml.

Planning to twist the plot a little bit, it was suppose to be like all the Japanese, k-drama, Taiwan, China(?)
all those shows but maybe I might change it to a more confident girl instead of a lost puppy :-)

jolynn♧