Thoughts

Waiting...

I've been waiting.

My whole life, I've been waiting.

First, for small things.

Waiting for a nap.

Waiting for a changed diaper.

Waiting for food.

Waiting for playtime.

Then, slowly, waiting became more complex.

Waiting for a book. 

Waiting for school to end.

Waiting for pain to lessen.

Waiting for a bruise to disappear.

Waiting for a scar to fade.

More and more complex.

Waiting for two soldiers at our door telling us my brother was gone.

Waiting to see the smile he'd been hiding for so long.

Waiting to stop pretending.

Waiting for my own smile....

Again and again.

But then you came along.

You showed me how to keep my faith.

You understood my tears.

You soothed my fears.

You waited for my smile.

I still wait.

But it's a different waiting now.

I wait for an embrace

I wait for the lilt of a voice.

I wait for the ring of a laugh.

I wait for the brightness of a smile.

I wait for the warmth of a friend.

I wait for the man I will walk hand in hand with for the rest of our lives together.

I wait for you.

Side note: Babe, I wrote this while thinking of our future together. Of when we'll be able to be together and not with this distance between us. You'll be here soon. And I am so excited to see you and be in your arms. But until then, you are so beyond worth the wait. :) Merry Christmas. I love you, Narwhal <3