I woke up early in the morning to the smell of bacon and coffee invading my nostrils and a slight nudge of someone's hand on my shoulder, I slowly let out a groan and rolled over fully prepared to cuss out whoever dared to wake me from my peaceful slumber.
As my eyes adjusted to the blinding sunlight peeking through the window I looked up and saw who the culprit was before they spoke.
"Niall you have to get up and take your meds" I heard the sweet voice of my mother as she continued to shake me awake.
"Okay, okay I'm up mum you don't have to keep shaking me" I let out in a rough voiced laced with sleepiness
"Okay I was just making sure... here I brought you some water to wash em down" Maura said as she handed me a water bottle along with the various pill bottles that contained my meds.
I slowly rose up and slung my legs to the side of the bed before lifting my arms high in the air and letting out a long yawn followed by some stretching to get the sleep out of my joints. As I accepted the water and pills from mum and prepared to take them I noticed that she didn't make a move to leave but only continued watching me like she was waiting for something to happen.
"Mum you don't have to keep watching me okay?" I let out a sigh as I looked down not meeting her gaze.
"I've been taking my pills every day for a year I'm not gonna flip out and flush them again"
I knew mum meant well with her constant vigilance of me but now it was starting to get slightly annoying but in the end I couldn't blame her.
About a month after my break up with Liam, my depression had gotten pretty bad and as a copping mechanism I stayed out almost all the time and did so many drugs. My mother grew concern of me but I was fine at the time. At least that's what I kept telling myself.
But then the good times were over and I felt the devastating weight of my lows creep up on me out of nowhere. I couldn't feel joy anymore and all the happiness I had felt was starting to feel like someone was slowly snatching it away from me. It hurt to move and it even hurt to speak. And it hurt even more because the only one person I wanted by my side helping me threw the darkness of my mind didn't want me at all.
God the thought alone brought tears to my eyes. Liam had destroyed me, I laid my heart and soul bare at his feet and all Liam did was throw them in the trash like nothing.
My mind keeps replaying the day we broke up.
Niall was outside Liam's house running to him with so much hope and love in his eyes.
"Hi babe" Liam heard Niall say.
"I think we should break up" Liam says watching as Niall's face slowly started to crumble
"What?" He could hear Niall's voice breaking
"I can't do this anymore" was all he could get out to reply
"Really?....Fuck" Niall looked so defeated, so sad and Liam had to look away.
"Okay" Niall says before turning around and walking away.
he mustered up the strength to keep his tears in before he got home. He went to the kitchen and got the sharpest knife he could find and brought it to his wrist but before he could firmly pull the sharpness to his flesh and end it, Maura came through the backdoor and saw him.
STAI LEGGENDO
Everlasting love - Niam
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