After my talk with Liam, I had gone to the bathroom and tried to calm myself down, trying to hide any evidence of having cried. Feeling satisfied that I looked decent enough I made my way out the bathroom and into the library where I would meet Zayn.
I spot him sitting on one of the tables, his glasses on and a his nose stuck in a book.
"Hi" I say once I have made my way towards him, taking a seat next to him. He looks up from his book and gives me a smile.
"Hey Nialler" He says, closing his book and taking his reading glasses off.
"Where were you in English?" I ask, he hadn't turned up to English which was odd because I knew that was his favourite lesson. I was a little bit upset with him for not coming, if he had been there he would have stopped me from talking to Liam because he knows he would've just crushed me even more and he did.
"I was with Louis" he says shyly, a small blush creeping on his cheeks. I roll my eyes at him.
"Are you guys still fucking?" I ask, Louis and Zayn had a on and off thing, it wasn't a relationship because Louis has this fear of commitment. Zayn likes to pretend that it doesn't hurt him when he smells another girls perfume on him or a lipstick stain on his neck but being his best friend I've grown to know him pretty well and I can tell his every emotion even when he is trying to hide it from me.
"His an asshole, what do you even see in him" I say, I never understood Zayn's attraction towards Louis. He was rude and just out right awful to people. He smoked too much weed and had far too many tattoos and piercings. Zayn and him were the complete opposite of each other, Zayn is the nicest person you'll ever meet he has a pure heart and always puts others before himself.
"His not an asshole" Zayn says with a frown on his face, I raise my eyebrows at him.
"Well not to me anyways" he says, sighing "you just don't know him like I do"
"Either way, you deserve better" I say and he nods mumbling 'I know' under his breath as he runs his hand through his perfectly styled hair, messing it up.
We fall into a silent and I notice his eyes are looking at something behind me, turning around I see that something being Liam.
Liam was sat nearly behind a petite girl and has I looked at her, he had a smirk sewn to his lips as he looked her over, nodding to whatever she was saying as if intrigued.
I attempted to ignore the freight train sensation that impaled me in the chest and hoped to God that Zayn hadn't noticed the increase in my breathing or the shattering of my heart.
"You okay?" Zayn questioned, wrapping comforting finger around the small circumference of my wrist. I nodded absent-mindedly, attempting once again to ignore the stabbing pain against my ribcage as I watched Liam run a few nimble fingers against the girl's leg. I'll never understand why this hurt so much, it's not like I actually mattered to him. I knew I never had, not really, not fully; and I never would-
Not to Liam.
"I'm fine," I murmured, tearing my eyes away from the scene in front of me.
STAI LEGGENDO
Everlasting love - Niam
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