The unexpected

Chapter 9

I didn't trust my voice and myself to can say something in line with hi. So all I did was wave back. Still standing outside the house.  Should I go back home? Maybe this was a bad idea I should have just texted him. I'm totally making a fool of myself. I swallowed hard. Just looking in his eyes. They were saying a lot of things if you ask me.

"Uhm...come in" Nate finally said running his hand over his hair. I let go of a breath I didn't realise I was holding. Not waiting for another minute to pass I walked inside. I felt a pair of eyes on my back,but since I know we were the only people in the house I didn't look back.

"Can I get you something to drink?" Come on Taylor say something. Just don't be weird. He's trying to be nice and you're blowing the whole thing up."Are you seriously not going to talk to me? Cause you might aswell..." the now standing infront of me Nate started but I cut him off. I ran to him and hugged him like my life depended on the hug.

For a few seconds he was not hugging me back. That didn't make me let go though. When he returned the hug I felt it. He was squeezing my life out of me. It was like the hug was saying all the unspoken words. We stood like that for a good minute. It felt good to breathe his scent in again. I realised I missed it. I missed him too. "You going to kiss me now?"

Really? He didn't find this the wrong moment to say such, but hey. You know what I'm happy to have him back. I shrugged and let go of him and threw myself on the nearest couch. Rolling my eyes at him of course.

"You ain't gonna say anything are you?" Nate started. It slipped my mind that I hadn't said a word since I got here. "Taylor, I know I'm not the best person ever but..." here come the I'm sorry speech. No thank you. I don't need one of those now. He sure is serious, he even used my name. Damn!

"Hey,cut the crap. Get me my usual and get back here. You owe me an explanation" I cut him off before the word sorry  could leave his mouth. He looked at me with an expression I couldn't really make out. It's like he didn't know what to do or say to me. You know those looks that kind of say I'll-kill-anything-that-came-close-to-you or how-did-I-manage-to-have-a-person-like-you-in-my-life?yeah. Something like that. His eyes still a darker shade of blue. He turned for the kitchen without saying anything.

"Orange Juice for you" Nate said handing me my drink. He then proceeded to sit next to me. I took a sip of my drink and turned to face him. It's not as akward as it was before but the tension was still flying around the room. I'm pretty sure he felt my stare on his face but just decided to continue scanning through the channels. Through his cheek I could see he had his teeth together containing himself for some reason.

"So...when were you planing on telling me?" I asked crossing my fingers that I didn't press the wrong button. Trust me, we are fluent when just talking but non of us were going on doing such. He froze at my question for a while then pulled it together and said " Taylor, you have everything figured out and a perfect life. I didn't want to be the first imperfection. That's why I didn't tell you"

Nate said not once looking at me. I can't believe he thought I have a perfect life, let alone make that an excuse for not telling me. Does it never cross his mind that if I was into perfect I wouldn't even be friends with him and my two crazy friends? I mean given his life style with girls. Maybe he just didn't think I'm that important to him. I didn't deserve to know.

"Ok. For one, I think I like it when you don't use my name it feels so 'down to business' when you use it" I started putting the air queotes around the down to business part. "For two that's not reason enough and please don't be one of those people that get fooled by my smile" I continued. Honestly, I wished he'd learn to read through my smiles. Be able to tell when I'm just putting it there. I know I might be asking a lot but he made me believe he's capable.