Love Goes On

Chapter 30

Laurine's P.O.V

"Lau?" My heart races as I try to decide what I'm going to do. Do I confront her? Do I leave? Do I retaliate?

It's too late. Her footsteps are too close now for me to leave. I sigh, slumping back into the armchair.
"Okay listen you obviously know it was me and I'm sorry." Ciara sighs breathlessly as she enters the room.
I shake my head "what did you get out of that Ciara? Honestly now I'm miserable so well done and what have you achieved?"
She shakes her head and sits on the arm of the chair looking anxious.
"Nothing and I'm sorry. I'll talk to Cian. And I know I've hurt Brendan now too. So have you by the way."
She leans towards me and hugs me, clinging to me as if she's afraid I might leave.
I nudge her away gently.

"I could've done it to you you know?" I ponder. "If I was spiteful enough. Dean would be mad, Ryan would be mad and I'd get my way. But I couldn't do that to you."
The pain is evident in Ciara's eyes. "I'm sorry." She sighs again.
"I really and truly am and I love you and.."
I feel my cold exterior begin to melt away and I want to hug her and comfort her.but that doesn't fix this mess. Instead I jump up and leave the room.
I meet Dean at the door, leaning casually against the door frame, waiting.
He's obviously been warned not to let me leave. He grabs hold of me and tows me back towards the house as I protest. But I need to get out. I need to go.
"She's seeing Ryan behind your back." I sigh with as much conviction as possible. It works. His arms fall limp around my waist and I can easily push him off. I take into a sprint. He won't try to catch me now, he's too shocked.

I run until I can't run anymore and take out my phone to call somebody. Who?
I can't ask Cian or Brendan.. Or Dean to come pick me up. Dayl and Josh had plans. Ryan? But it dawns on me instantly the mess I've made. I've just put Ryan in almost the same situation that I was thrown into for no good reason other than my need to get away.
I feel so bad already. I should've just hugged her and told her it was okay. I could've fixed all this mess with a few simple actions. But instead here I am, cold and alone while I've just ruined too many people's days already.

My anger has faded. I know I forgive Ciara. I know I need these people yet I've just ruined everything right when it could have been fixed.
My heart aches for Cian to comfort me. I need his strong arms around me as he tells me it's all going to be alright. But now I can't have that, what am I going to do.
"Laurine?"