The three Musketeers and their fears

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Chanel Darnell
Well it's been two full years. Sagittarius hasn't woke up. "Eventually you'll lose hope and pull the plug. You'll save yourself a lot of pain by doing that " the nurse words mimicked in my head as I just left the hospital. Now i'm getting out my car walking to the apartment. Due to me being in such deep thoughts I bump into a guy "Excuse me. I'm sorry miss" he says.
I sign and roll my eyes continuing to walk to the entrance door.

"I'm home" I say as if anyone is here other than K & the cat Tarius bought me a while back. K is my German shepherd, he fills Sagittarius spot on the protection side. I walk to my room undressing and running the bath water.
I walk around my room in just my panties and sports bra.
Looking in my body length mirror at my body. I been the same height since I was ten years old. Weighed the same amount since I was seventeen. I let my hair down, I allowed it to finally grow to it's full length which is three inches below my bra strap. Tarius would love to see my hair long. It was always short when we was younger. Dealing with his hospital bills, school, bills, and work all alone hasn't given my enough time to actually tend to my hair. I wash, condition, comb and clip my ends when necessary. That's it. No heat or color has been applied in years. And I think maybe on my day off I would do my hair. I grab my brush and brush it into two French braids.

Then walk into the kitchen and pour me some wine. I turn my TV on and spoiled by Wale is playing. I wind my hips to the beat and walk to the bathroom. I cut the water off and slowly walk into the tub. I sink all the way down drinking my wine then sitting it in the cup holder I have. "Baby I miss you! It's been two full years and nothing hasn't happened. You haven't blinked or anything. I don't even know if you'll be able to walk when you wake up. Your missing out on life babe. We supposed to do this together" I cry aloud as if he can hear me.
"So why hold on to what you have to let go of?
Like, did I really break your heart?
Was it all my fault?
If you don't knock it off. You know like I know where this was headed, yeah

I'm a wanderer" I sing alone to Spotless mind. I love this song. I just love Jhene Aiko.

K comes in the bathroom and lay besides the tub. Tears just keep flowing as of this pain isn't usual.

Robyn Meagan
"Well I mean she has to start sleeping alone Calvin"

"No. Not necessarily Roby" I pause from drying out our daughter bottles and look at him.

"I just think it'll teach her to get use to mommy and daddy being gone while she's in day care"

"How? Sleeping alone is horrifying Roby. She's just Two years old" he pleads his case

"Okay that's old enough. We haven't even been making love like we use to before she was born and that was two years ago. I can't even have pleasure "

"Are you jealous of Loreal?" He asks. I frown and stop dying her bottles

"You sound selfish Roby for real. I want our daughter to sleep with us but you tryna fuck. Then you get mad when I have time with her, take her shopping and have us on the gram"

I turn around "yeah. I'm so jealous. Very!"

"I know the fuck you are Robyn. That's fucked up man!! I can't love my daughter"

"It's not about that. You just forget about me. When you want to be bothered with me then you come around. You treat me like I'm just a baby momma when I'm your wife. I love that you adore our daughter but you left me out babe" I say

"Shut up Robyn. You sound stupid. Nobody forgot about you man"

"Your a damn lie because you didn't even tell me happy birthday yesterday. Cassie and Chanel called. But you forgot. Didn't notice how I got my hair done or went shopping. I'm tryna please my man on my birthday that he forgot!!"

He stands there shocked "baby I'm-"

"No let me shut up because I sound stupid".

I walk off and go into the bedroom. He didn't just forget my birthday but our anniversary last week two. Then questioned him when I bought him a Rolex. He was so lost. Tears just started falling as I thought about it all over. I sign and lay down.
I made my bed so I shall lay in it.

Cassie Cassandra
"Have a nice day ma'am " I tell the lady who walks out the store mean mugging me.
I roll my eyes and sign "did you know her?" Sophia asks me
"Girl nah. But I think I'm going to introduce her to my fists if she looks at me like that next time she come"
"She's probably jealous. So how's cute Brycion?" She asks
"He's in the terrible two's. Girl running around, repeating everything, throwing temper tantrums and all that"
"I can't believe you Cassie. He's too cute"
"Please believe it. Him and Brandan argue all day. Like who argue with a two year old?"
Sophia laughs. Our next shopper walk in "welcome to Akira, do you need assistance?" Sophia asks the woman
"Yes. I'm shopping for my daughter seventeen birthday and need help. She needs a whole new wardrobe"
"What does she like?"
"Well. . . She's more of a tom boy but we both agreed that she should start-" the lady pauses "you know, like dress better?"
"Well uhm. My coworker Cassie will be perfect with that " she says. This bitch so lazy. I walk from around the counter mugging Sophia but being professional still.
"I'll be gladly to help. What size is your daughter in pants?"
"She's around a-" she pause and think "I believe around a seven"
"Right this way" I lead her.

"So she's never had a boyfriend before? Like ever?"

"Not of my knowledge no. She probably kept it from me. I know she's a virgin for sure though". I smile at the lady

"That's good. Waiting is smart. I've witness a lot of females that got pregnant in high school. Most of them didn't even graduate"

"Well my baby wont be a high school mom" I was a teen mom. My husband now was my guy back then. He had already had a daughter. But she was given up"

"Let's just just pray Calynah will graduate being no one mother " I say ringing her up. Her daughter Calynah is seventeen and she play's basketball and run track. You know, the typical girl in high school that be so into sports that they don't even dress like a girl. The woman bought her daughter nice bra's to the cuties panties. Tank tops to the best leggings. "Your total is $365.95"
She pulls out a card and swipe it. "And your say the new Jordan's drop tomorrow ?" She ask
"Mhm. And I suggest a new white, black, and grey pair of air max since that's her favorite shoe. She'll really love it those to" I say
"Okay thank you" she says answering her phone
"Hey baby? Did they have the color she wanted?. . . Great and it's the four door right? Great. Yeah I'm on my way to the shoe store now. . . Love you too" she looks up at me.
"Calynah daddy just chased her out a bmw X5. Turning 18 will be good for her".
I smile "I would love if my parents did that. She will be beyond happy"
"Oh she better. But thank you. Have a nice day young lady"
"You too" I said and she left out the store.
"Some lucky girl" I say.

My phone vibrated. A text came in
"Cass- haven't heard from you in a while. How's Brycion and Brandan?"
I respond "sorry I've been busy. Brycion has me so tired but he's great. Brandan is great as well. Everything is smooth. Are are you and yours?"
Since I found out about Vee and Cass being my biological parents we've been keeping in touch. All of this is all unreal still, Sandra and the babies are really gone. I cried every night for a year straight because I should've brought them here.
Cass responds "Their great. I think it's time you meet my family now. Your sister is turning 18 and my wife and I just went shopping for her"
My eyes squint. Wait, hold up "is your daughter name Calina?"
I ask.
"Boss just came in. Put your phone away" Sophia asks.
I shove it back in my back pocket.

Chanel Darnell
After my bath and me drinking the whole bottle of wine. I went out for a walk. I'm getting really depressed because of Sagittarius absence. My girls don't even live in the same state. They have kid's and husband or boyfriend but me. I just have a cat,dog and a guy in a coma.
I look around and remember the very first day Tarius and I moved in.
I can't bare with these moments anymore. I'm going to move somewhere else.
If Cassie wouldn't have messed with Skylar, Sagittarius would still be here.
I sign while walking in my bed. I made my bed so I shall lay in it.