The three Musketeers and their fears

XLI

Sagittarius
They say the good ones  die young and the lucky ones get another chance.

I on the other hand consider myself as cursed. Why is it that I had to die for a minute and leave my dad behind then leave my girlfriend. Why couldn't I just be dead or just didn't get hurt at all. Now I'm here stuck in this situation I put myself in.

While Chanel has just one more semester of school, I have to start all the way over. It's cool shit though, I still have an option to even go to college and have my own place.
I pull up to my new apartment. It's actually in the same complex as Chanel's place just in the building behind her. The apartment came fully loaded. From being already furnished to being no utilities included and having a nice master sweet. It won't be the same as living with D but I gotta get use to me again and find myself so I can be right for D. I can be the man that I am and want to be and for myself.

Calvin
"Daddy, why are you crying?"
Loreal asks as she walks into the kitchen, we have three more nights in California and this hotel is beautiful. I kinda don't want to leave.

"Because, daddy is sad. But not sad enough when I can't tickle you" I say picking her up and tickling her. Her giggles are filled through out the hotel until my phone ring. I stopped tickling her and let her be on my hip. I was skeptical to answer it due to it being unknown. But my gut feeling told me to answer it "hello?"
"Mr. Harris?"
"This me. Who is this?"
"I am a detective, unfortunately your wife was in an accident and we need you to come down to the morgue  to verify her body". From that very moment, I felt my heart actually stop. I felt earth stop spinning and I could feel my soul exiting my body.
"To the morgue? As in my wife is-?"
"Please Mr. Harris. Just come on down and we can discuss everything". I can't even hang up. My body is trembling as my mine is evaporating. "Daddy. . . Is that mommy?. . . Daddy! . . .-" everything goes silent and I need to Robyn to be here so we can go back to the way things where. Before my accident, before she was robin' banks, before I even left.

Cassie Cassandra
"Through everything we've been through sis. I've never expected for you and Tari to break up".
"It's a lot of things I didn't see coming. Just imagine how God feel. All the things he saved us from that we don't know about" D says.
"I miss the times that it would be the three of us just chilling in my bedroom Cassie. When Robyn always did your hair & I would do y'all homework"
"And I'll be ordering unnecessary shit offline" I add on and we laughed.
"Ahh girl. Now everything that I feared to happened, happened. We was facing jail time for Skylar"
"The dumb Bitch snitched"
"Yeah, what did happen to her?"
"B and his crew took care of her ass"
D shook her head & took a sip from her wine. "We thought we was gonna all live together & have no kids, be single, & just do us" I said.
"But shit got in the way" D said
"No. Life happened, now you know that wasn't going to be realistic did you?"
"Yeah. Kinda" D laughed
"You know who life hit real hard though"
"Who?" D answers
"Us three. I didn't tell y'all, so I don't think I did. Vee Veronica is not my sister. She's my actual mother. My "Mom & dad" are my auntie and uncle. Veronica knew about me being raped but still left to go to college. But she really didn't go to college to learn, she went to teach" I paused and cleared my throat"

"My uncle as you know used to abuse My and use to rape me. Freshman year, one night He and his guys ran a train on me and beat me. While Veronica was in the room. As I sit and think about everything. How could a mother allow her own child to be hurt like that. In the room next to her! I screamed and cried. I prayed aloud and no one came" I cry shaking my head.
"Who was there? No one. I wanted to be you so bad Chanel. I thought you had life perfect. But then as we got older, I started to just feel like. Everyone get sexually abused. I shouldn't be hurt over this. And one night I just switched. I left for two weeks that's how Skylar and I came closer because I was with her. I went to the house, but liter fluid all around it. On the floors, beds, bathtubs, girl even on my auntie and uncle body. I made sure the kids was at a sleep over that night. I smoked me a fat ass bout outside the house sitting on my car fighting with myself if I had the guts to let them burn. About a hour and a half. I was higher than the clouds so I got the courage and threw my blunt. Within seconds D. The house explodes. I didn't run incase of me getting caught. Instead, I watched it. I heard their screams. One thing I did love though, he ran out the house in flames and fell. I walked over to him & turned him over. He said "baby girl. Please help daddy" I cried and backed away laughing. Nothing felt as good as seeing him in flames D. I'm telling you sis. After that, I stayed in my car until the flames died and someone finally called for help"
"That sounds like a damn book girl. Stop ya shit". We both laughed it off
"You had it worse than me Cassie"
"What all did you go through D. You seemed to have it perfect"

"Shit, nothing compared to you. But uhm. I got molested by my baby sitter oldest daughter. She made me do sick shit to her & they use to stick things inside me but I mean I told my mom & dad eventually. And never seen them people since but you know, I started to get help then I just couldn't get go back to therapy anymore. Talking about it made me worse in the inside. I still battle with it but for the most part life been smooth".

It was quiet for a week then Chanel phone started ringing. She answered it and within seconds she stood up "Get Brycion. We have to go". She yell grabbing her purse & getting in the car.

Chanel Darnell

"This is a fucking burnt body. This could be anyone!" Cassie yells. I just look at the person in front of me, could this really be my best friend. Robyn can't be dead because I would feel it in my heart. I look at Calvin who's holding Loreal "Are you alright ?" I ask. He nods his head no then hands me L'Oréal. "I'm sorry ma'am but this is the body we found in the room. There is no way Robyn would be alive" the guy said to Cassie who was going off. She too feels like this can't be true.