The three Musketeers and their fears

XLII

Cassie Cassandra

From the moment I've discovered life can be great , I can honestly say I've been happy ever since. Me, personally; has been through a little too much. A part of me, Robyn Meagan Reynolds is supposed to be dead. And we was just next to each other. I shouldn't have called her out like that but she foul as fuck!

"Come on, let's go home and get some rest. I'll tell Sagittarius to call Rob & Reagan tonight" D says. I text Brandan to let him know I'm coming to the hotel and I have disturbing news. I can not cope, tonight is going to be a restless night for me, just as I thought Life was finally starting to get easy, I always end up in square one.

Chanel Darnell

"And it didn't look like her Tarius! I know it was! Cassie and I know she's out there, she gotten away from her life and is trying to start over"

"Why would she do that though?" He asked as we laid there under my silk gray sheets in nude, covered in dried up sweat from steamy love making. I thought about everything Robyn complained about "Calvin always in the streets, I'll be stuck with Loreal, and when he comes home. He acts as if everything was perfect. As in everything between him and I is okay! I didn't wanna have a baby young, I didn't wanna be a young wife! I wanted to your life D! Everything was there for you to reach, everything was planed for you. Just because my sister and brother bussed their asses for me, don't mean I had everything I wanted. Where was my mom and dad during parent,teacher conference? I don't know shit about being a mom. I just know everything isn't-" I quoted her. "She called me and vented to me every so often about how she would want to "run away and start over. Maybe just change my name, go to school, within time find love and do it over" she'd say. I would always laugh at her because it was crazy but it was her goal. I understand how she feels now because it's so much in little time"

"Well, I been gone for what? Four, almost five years? We're all going on 23 & 24. Brandan gonna be the only one 25. It's time we all try to figure out what's IT, for us. Roby wasn't happy with her life. So either she ran off or ended" he said.
I sat and closed my eye's. I pictured time when it was the middle of fall time, and school was in for like three months. Robyn and I didn't like these girls because they picked on Cassie, they'd say she was a bumb bitch. Cassie was a punk at the time so Robyn and I would defend her. Cassie tried killing herself one night. I remember it so vividly because she missed school and the girls would say it was because she was scared. We all was in seventh grade at the time too. A girl was talking so much shit, Robyn punch the girl in her mouth and another tried to jump in so I got in it. That day my dad picked both Robyn and I up and drove into the hospital. We was so clueless why we was there until we heard him say Cassie's last name to the lady at the desk. When we finally seen her, she told us she wanted to die. We cried together and Robyn said "no matter what, we won't try to kill ourselves because we're all sister's. If one sick, we all sick. If one go, we all go. . . If one die, we all die" and we made a pact. One of my fears was losing my girl's, especially to suicide. Never would I ever thought Robyn would be the one so unhappy. "You sleep?" Tarius ask me breaking me from my thoughts
"No. . . I'm just, empty. It's not in me to sleep, in me to wake up. To breathe"
"Hey, Hey, Hey now. Wait! It's gonna be good baby. We're going to get past this together"
"Together!? You moved out of a place we picked! You left me. We aren't doing shit together! All y'all do is leave!!! Get out!" I start hitting him, he got out the bed and grabbed his clothes. "Chanel, wait-"
"Nah! Get the fuck out. Ionno why I even called you"
"What! She's my friend too. What you mean? Baby calm down your just hurt"
"Because of you! You don't give a fuck about Robyn. Your not nice! Your rude! I hate you!"
I was hitting him and pushing him towards the front door. I grabbed my wine bottle and threw it at him. Before it hit him, he left out the front door. I locked it and cried.

Calvin
So much happened, is this life?
We're born to go through trails and tribulations to be strong but barely surviving each week.
I fight with my mind against the odds that the devil make!
Is it true what God put us through? Making us stronger when in reality been feel weaker. I beat this demon to battle another one? Why can't I just be surrounded by Angel's?
The life I lived, so much happened. So I had to go to solve the fraction. -Robyn

"What the fuck does this mean Robyn?" I read it again. Was she not happy with me?
"Where's Mommy?" Loreal asks
"Uhm-" I pick her up and sit her on my lap "she went on a vacation Lorē. She'll be gone for a while"
"Is she mad because I didn't take my nap?"
"No baby girl no. She's just, lost. Wanna help me put her clothes up so we can take them home"
"Yeah. Are we getting on the airplane again?"
"Yeah. But you'll be sleeping though lil mama"
"Okay. We going to see Tt Chanel again?"
"Yeah".

D just got Sagittarius back and looses Robyn. I know she's in a hard place right now. Her and Cassie, I haven't called Robyn or Reagan yet to break the news. Shit, I haven't even coped all the way. I don't care about her and dude no more, I just want my fuckin wife back!
How am I going to raise a woman?