Lost Before it Could Begin

Chapter 10

AUTUMNS POV

I had Grams drop me off at Ryan's, i had called his mom earlier and she said he should be here and that the door wasn't locked. So i walked right in and i called his name but no one answered, but then i heard something. I walked through the hallway and i heard someone screaming Ryan's name. I opened his door and saw them. Ryan had looked at the door, and got up off of her.  I was pissed. I walked out of his house and started walking up the road. Ryan came out with his shorts on, "Autumn wait. I can explain" i kept on walking, "Leave me the fuck alone Ryan" I yelled at him. He caught up to me and grabbed my wrist. "Don't touch me" i growled. And i snatched my arm away from him, and continued walking. I knew it would take me a while to get to my house but i didn't want grams and gramps to see me like this. "Autumn please, let me explain" Ryan yelled. I stopped, "Explain what? Why you were having sex with some slut?" He frowned, "I'm sorry Autumn. Please, Can we talk?" I looked at him like he was stupid. He has to be stupid. "Go back to fucking your friend" I hissed and continued to walk. I walked all the way to the boardwalk. I had tears of anger rolling down my face. I shouldn't have trusted him. What the fuck is wrong with me. I saw Devin, and he came running up to me.

"Hey baby feet" he said. I ignored him. "Something wrong?" He asked. "Your dumbass friend is whats wrong" I spit. "Oh god! They didn't" i looked at him narrowing my eyes "Excuse me?" "Autumn, i am soo sorry for whatever he did" "You knew. You knew he had someone over there" i asked angry. "His Ex girlfriend texted me asking me if i knew he was dating. I told her not to do anything stupid, but she got mad at me so i stopped texting her." He explained. I was crying silently and didn't realize it until my breath got stuck in my throat. He held me putting my head up against his chest. I looked at him angrily, "That still doesn't give him a right to do what he did" I said yelling at him. I am such an idiot. I was starting to calm down now though. "I know, and I'm sorry Devin said sincerely" "Autumn" i heard Ryan's voice, and then just like that, the adrenaline was back, I ran away from Devin and kept running until i was at the end of the boardwalk stepping onto the beach. Ryan had followed me and i begin to slow my pace because i was getting tired. He walked up beside me, trying to get me to stop. But i ignored his every attempt. He touched my hand, "Don't you dare ever put your fucking hands on me, Ever again Ryan!" i hissed at him. "Autumn, you're mad, i know. But will you please just listen?" he asked. I shook my head, "Can't you listen? I told you earlier to leave me the fuck alone. And yet you're still bothering me" i growled. "Look Autumn, I'm sorry. Ca- i cut him off, "I know you're sorry. You're one sorry ass mother fucker . What the hell were you thinking? What the hell was i thinking?" I hissed. and walked faster. "I wasn't. And i didn't mean anything to you?" he said. I turned back around. And i hit him repeatedly on his chest as hard as i could, until he grabbed both my hands. I snatched them away from him ,"Don't touch me" i said as i ran to the girls bathroom. I called Grams hoping she would answer her phone. "Grams i need a ride home" i said. "Can't Ryan bring you" she asked. "No grams he can't. And I'm not at his house. im at the boardwalk" I said. She sighed, "Well meet me at Ryan's" she said and hung up. No way in hell am i going back to Ryan's house. It's been 25 mins since i came in here, and i knew that grams didn't leave right away, She's probably just leaving.  So i walked to Ryan's house from the boardwalk still mad. I got there and Grams still wasn't there. So i climbed the tree in his front yard, hoping he wouldn't see me. Grams honked the horn, and Ryan came outside to her car. "Autumn isn't here" he said, as i jumped down from the tree. "I'm ready Grams" i said as i got into the front seat. He looked at me apologetically, and as she pulled off i yelled out ,"FUCK YOU RYAN" and i started to cry.