Learn to love again

Chapter 11

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Chapter 11 I'll never let you go

"Jay you better get dressed, you probably don't want to go to my mom's in your bikini. As much as I don't mind you might get a little cold." I whispered the last part into Jay's ear as I gave her a little push towards the duffle bag that was sitting on her counter. I shut the door slowly and began to descend the stairs in deep thought.

Jay is like an onion but with each layer I peel back, it almost scares me to see what I'll find. I mean she has so many secrets; so much about her has changed.

I hit my self over the head every time I think about what I did to her. I mean I just left her, and when she stopped answering my calls, yeah I called once or twice, but I gave up so easily. I could have been there when she needed me; I could have done something to keep all of this from happening. And I promise, I promise I will never let it happen again. I'll always be there no matter what; I'm never letting her go again. And I am going to show her what real, no scratch that, what TRUE love feels and looks like.

I was so deep in thought I hadn't noticed Jay come down the stairs until she tapped me on the shoulder.

"Justin, Juussttiinn, anyone in there?" she asked I spun around surprised. She was frantically waving her hand in front of me. I took a step back, taking in what she was wearing. She had a pair of white mini shorts and a blue top that said ‘Cookie Monster’ it was cropped revealing her belly button ring, and to top the outfit off she had my hat on.

"Hey there Gorgeous. Mind if I take this?" I said reaching for her, my hat. As I placed it on my head, it felt nice and it fit just right. Not too tight but not too loose. I wrapped my around Jay's waist, my hand touching her skin, I felt her flinch a little then relax. As we began to head towards my house, Jay's Grandmother popped her head around the kitchen door.

"Oh Jay are you going to be staying for dinner?" Jay’s grandmother asked as she began to work around in the kitchen. Jay gave her a look like why should I tell you? I quickly gave her a little pinch and she quickly reprimanded herself.

"What I meant grandma was is it okay if I go to Justin's for supper?" She said as she gave me a squeeze and a little smile as if to say Sorry I wasn't thinking. Jay's grandmother gave me a nod then turned towards Jay.

"You can go just make sure you’re home for supper, and have some fun. You deserve it." She gave us both a smile then shooed us out of her kitchen and began working on fixing lunch for her and Jay's grandfather.

As Jay and I began to walk down the beach towards my house, I intertwined our fingers sending tiny bolts of electricity throughout my body, like when you touch a light switch after you get out of bed, but her shock waves were addicting, like a drug. My drug. We walked in silence 'till I couldn't take it I had to know more, more about her she had changed so much.

"Jay I have a question for you, promise me you'll answer it?" I pleaded with my eyes, she gave me a smirk and she gave me a quick reply.

"Only if you give me a piggy back ride," She compromised and returned my look of plea with her look of well not really plea, more like puppy dog eyes. I picked her up by the waist and swung her around onto my back. Jay started laughing, and I let the sound fill my ears. As she settled down and placed her head on my shoulder her breath sending shivers down my spine.

"Okay so I want to know honestly, were you ever part of the partying, drinking and drugs? Like that kind of scene?" I really truly hoped she would give me the true answer, and not just the one she knew I wanted to hear. My thought process was interrupted by the sound of her voice.

"Okay. Wow that kind of shocked me, But no I never really was into the whole partying thing because it involved being with people and well, I don't really like people so…” she trailed off.

“Drugs, yeah. Drinking, no, I am strictly against that because that’s what killed my dad." Her voice cracked a little but she kept going.

"As for drugs, you want the truth? I'd be lying if I said no so, yes I've tried a few but they never really did anything, plus they're expensive and who likes needles?" The way she said the last part made me laugh, but before I could say anything else we were at my house.

"Mom! We're home and I brought Jay," I called as we opened the screen door. My mother quickly opened the door and ran in from the kitchen, engulfing Jay in a monster hug (haha you all thought I was going to say bear hug lol). Jay hugged back but seemed nervous, then she gave me a look and I quickly called my mom into the kitchen to help me with the grilled cheese.

Jay’s POV

As we sat down to eat the smell of cheese filled my senses. I took a deep breath taking it all in, Justin on my right and his mom on my left. Lunch was going perfect until I went to reach for the ketchup and my bracelets fell down on am reveling some of my bruises. I quickly went to grab my bracelets and push them back when I felt someone grab my wrist. Pattie.

"What-who did this? Did you?" Her voice was like a frantic mother like any mother should. But her yelling shocked me and I only let out a whimper not wanting my secret to be, well not a secret anymore. "yummmhmm.." was all I could muster.

"Justin- your girlfriend- she- she's an emo freak! Look what she did to herself!" she yelled holding my wrist for all to see, by know I had found my voice. Before I said anything I gave Justin a look like ‘I'm sorry but....’

"Now listen here Pattie! Yes I have bruises on my wrist and yeah, maybe I don't look like every other teenage girl around here. But I'm no emo freak!! And I don't think you’re in any way right to call me that, you took Justin away, a long time ago and when that happened you lost all right to say what I can and can't do in my life! And to be criticizing the way I dress and my life choices." with that I got up and began to storm out, Justin stood there shocked but his mom quickly got up and grabbed me by the wrist again.

"Jay, wait! I‘m sorry, I overreacted it's just- I've been there and I didn't want to- Oh I don't know! I’m sorry, I shouldn't have judged you like that. Will you just come outside with me so we can talk?" The look on Pattie’s face was sympathetic and earnest. I slowly nodded and followed her out. We talked and eventually it ended in me practically spilling my story out all over again, and Pattie was surprisingly calm. She just held me and let me cry. When I had wiped my last tear she spoke, "Jay, honey, you need to tell someone." All I could do was shake my head.

"Pattie, I- I can't, I don't have anywhere else to live, and you don't know what she'd do if- if she even knew what I told you I could be in huge trouble."

"Honey, we’ll work it out. You don't need to tell her now but when you’re ready okay?" I nodded slowly. I really wasn't used to all this attention. "But if you ever, need help or anything I'll be there. I’m just a call away, okay?"

Again all I could do was nod and hug her again. Suddenly, my phone rang. I excused myself from Pattie and went to answer it as she walked inside.

"Hello?"