Not Your Average Nerd

The Music Express

All day at lunch, Kendall acted as if nothing happened between us.

It's not like I'm complaining. People won't suspect anything. But the fact he is easily lying to his friends and not feeling any guilt whatsoever... Sickens me. Makes me even more pissed at him.

While at lunch, I hadn't even known I was glaring at him. But apparently Aiden did. Because he questioned me about it.

"Did something happen between you guys?" He had said. I bit on my teeth and shook my head. "No. I just have a bad feeling about that boy." And it was true. The first part of that was a lie. The rest was all true. I'm trying to stop lying to Aiden. And I'm getting close. I'm starting to do half and half.

That's a good start right?

After figuring out I liked Aiden, I instantly thought I should get as far away from him as I can. Because if-now remember I said IF-he likes me, and tries to do anything, I won't be able to stop myself. I wouldn't be able to warn him.

Warn him about me.

About what could happen if he did like me. If we did hook up or date. Hell, right now he's in danger just being my friend.

But then I realised it was too late. I had already promised to go somewhere with him today. I had already made it clear I didn't hate him. And guess what?

I'm. Scared.

I can't tell a soul about Kendall. I can't tell my friends about my dad and how he is chasing me and my brother down, wanting to kill us. I can't tell them about my childhood and how I was always being beat or raped. I can't tell them about my player reputation.

I can't tell anyone, anything.

And it's like its crawling up my throat, itching to get out. To be heard. I want to scream it. But I can't. And that's what scares me. I'm going to explode soon.

"Hey, Aaron are you okay? And answer me truthfully this time. No lying." I hear Aidens soft voice from somewhere. I hear him. But I can't see him. My eyes are squeezed shut when I come back. Trying to block everything out.

"Aaron?" The large hand on my knee is what made me open my eyes. I looked over at Aiden. His eyes were soft, filled with concern. He slightly tilted his head to the side, not examining me like most people. But seeing if I'm okay.

Which I'm not.

I swallow and look away.

"So um... Where are we going?" I was hoping he would drop the subject like he usually does. He can always tell when I don't want to talk about something and I'm so greatful he understands it and actually drops the subject. So I'm glad when he does right now also.

He poked my ribs and put the car in reverse. "Alright. We'll drop the subject for now. But after our date your telling me."

I punch his chest, lightly smiling. "It's not a date!" He smirks at me and drives forward. "Yes it is, and you know it. You think I'm irresistible." I roll my eyes. "Still cocky as ever."

"Still bitchy as ever." I laugh and punch his arm. "I am not bitchy. I'm simply mocking your attitude." He smiles and pokes my side, making me lurch towards him with very sudden movements. "Then you should be more pervy."