LYSSA'S POV AND THOUGHTS
I WAS SITTING THERE WITH JOEY AND I KNEW I HAD TO EXPLAIN MORE ABOUT WHAT IVE BEEN DOING AND EVERYTHING SINCE THE LAST TIME I SAW HIM AND THE GUYS . I WAS JUST HOPING HE WOULDNT ASK ME ABOUT HOW I GOT HURT THE LAST TIME I SAW JON . AND WHY I TOOK THAT LEAVE OF ABSENCE FROM WORK THEN . BACK THEN IT WASNT THE BEST OF TIMES FOR ME .... AND I DONT WANT TO GO BACK THERE AGAIN ...DOWN MEMORY LANE .
JOEY THEN STILL WITH HIS ARM AROUND ME ASKED ME :
LITTLE BIT WHY ARE YOU SECOND GUESSING YOUR SELF HONEY ? AS LONG AS I HAVE KNOWN YOU , YOU HAVE NEVER SECOND GUESSED ANYTHING . I MEAN YOUR THE INDESTRUCTABLE ANGEL WATSON AFTER ALL HONEY . YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN STRAIGHT FORWARD AND WENT AFTER WHAT YOU WANTED IN LIFE . SO WHY THE SUDDEN CHANGE HONEY ?
JOEY ...... I ..... I ..... OH GOD .... THIS IS HARD FOR ME TO ADMIT, BUT DAMN IT I STILL LOVE THAT S.O.B. JON . EVEN AFTER ALL THIS TIME JOEY I THOUGHT I COULD MOVE ON AND I HAVE , BUT HES ALWAYS THERE IN MY MIND . ITS LIKE HES ACTUALLY HAUNTING ME AND TORMENTING ME DRAWING ME BACK TO THOUGHTS OF WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER AND HAPPY , OF WHAT WE COULD HAVE HAD IF I DIDNT LEAVE ...... I MEAN HE IS ALWAYS THERE LIKE HES MY CONSCIENCE OR SOMETHING ......
DONT GET ME WRONG JOEY . I LOVE MY FINACEE I REALLY DO , BUT THIS ISNT THE FIRST TIME HE AND I WERE ENGAGED . I SCREWED THAT UP THE FIRST TIME ..... I MET HIM ONE NIGHT AT SOME SHOWS YOUR FAMILY WAS DOING , AND SOME OTHER LOCAL SHOWS . THOUGH AT THE TIME I DIDNT KNOW WHO HE WAS SINCE I DIDNT FOLLOW TNA BACK THEN . JOEY HE ... HE ... HE REALLY IS A GREAT GUY , AND IM LUCKY TO HAVE HIM . HE TREATS ME GOOD AND SPOILS ME WHEN EVER HE CAN . BUT THATS NOT WHY IM MARRYING HIM . I LOVE HIM BUT AT THE SAME TIME LIKE I SAID I STILL LOVE JON TOO ....... IM SO CONFUSED AND DONT KNOW WHO I REALLY WANT ANYMORE , LET ALONE WHO IVE BECOME LATELY .
LYSSA , LITTLE BIT HONEY YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU LIKE FAMILY . WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS A LONG TIME , AND YOUR MY PARTNER IN CRIME . BUT HONEY I HAVE TO ASK YOU .... WHY COME BACK NOW AFTER SIX YEARS ? AND TO THE ONE PLACE YOU SWORE YOU WOULD NEVER EVER WORK BECAUSE JON AND COLBY WERE HERE ALONG WITH ME .... AND YOU KNOW IM ALSO GONNA ASK HOW YOU GOT HURT SIX YEARS AGO ......
JOEY , LIKE I SAID BEFORE . I CAME BECAUSE YOUR UNLCE'S AND DAD ASKED ME TO COME AS WELL AS VINCE . AND I THOUGHT I OWED IT TO THEM SINCE THEY GAVE ME THE PUSH I NEEDED . AND WELL ALSO BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO COMPLICATE THINGS MORE BY WORKING WITH MY FIANCEE AT TNA WITH RELATIONSHIP DRAMAS ..... YOU KNOW HOW I GET JOEY . BUT I GUESS DEEP DOWN I REALLY WANTED TO SEE JON AGAIN TO SEE IF ITS JUST ME OR IF HE STILL HAD FEELINGS FOR ME TOO ..... I GUESS I NEEDED TO FIGURE THIS OUT BEFORE I COULD POSSIBLY MAKE THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE BY MARRYING THE WRONG MAN .
AND ABOUT WHEN I GOT HURT SIX YEARS AGO ..... I WASNT SO MUCH HURT , I JUST HAD WELL I HAD SOME MEDICAL ISSUES THAT NEEDED TO BE TAKEN CARE OF . SO I HAD TREATMENT AND TOOK TIME OFF FOR A WHILE FROM WORK AND STUFF .... SO YEAH IM BETTER NOW SORTA . I STILL HAVE TO TAKE MEDICATION , BUT IM BETTER . THE TREATMENT I WENT THROUGH ALONE ACTUALLY SAVED MY LIFE .
OH LITTLE BIT , WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME ? YOU KNOW I WOULD HAVE COME BACK , SO WOULD JON AND COLBY . YOU DIDNT HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT ALONE LITTLE ONE . IF WE HAD KNOWN WE WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE FOR YOU . AT LEAST I KNOW I WOULD HAVE BEEN ANYWAYS . IM SO SORRY YOU JUST WENT THROUGH IT ALL ALONE SWEETHEART .....
JOEY ITS FINE . IM BETTER NOW AND DOING WELL FROM THE MEDICATION SO ITS ALL GOOD AGAIN . AND I KNOW YOU WOULD HAVE COME BACK FOR ME . YOUR MY OHANNA (FAMILY) AFTER ALL . BUT BACK THEN I FELT SORRY FOR MYSELF AND NOT LIKE ME AT ALL . I NEEDED TO FACE THE FACTS THAT THE PROCEDURE NEEDED TO BE DONE IN ORDER TO SAVE MY LIFE . I ALSO DIDNT WANT ANYONE FEELING SORRY FOR ME AND PITTYING ME . AND THE NIGHT I LEFT I GUESS EVERYTHING JUST HIT ME ALL AT ONCE AND I COULDNT DEAL WITH IT. SO I LEFT AND DIDNT LOOK BACK UNTILL YOU CAME BACK AND WE KEPT IN TOUCH AFTER I FORGAVE YOU . I MEAN HOW COULD I STAY MAD AT YOU ? YOU HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH WHAT HE DID THAT NIGHT ... NEITHER DID COLBY REALLY . I GUESS WHAT HURT ME THE MOST THAT NIGHT WAS THAT YOU BOTH KNEW HE WAS CHEATING AND DIDNT TELL ME ...... I WAS HURT BEYOND WORDS THAT NIGHT . I FELT MY HEART BREAK WORSE THAN EVER BEFORE .
