JONS POV AND THOUGHTS
OH GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE ? MY ANGEL LYSSA WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND DYING AND I CAUSED THIS . I BROKE HER HEART AND MADE HER HAVE THIS SET BACK .... WHY AM I SO DAMNED STUPID ?
I GUESS I THOUGHT THAT NIGHT AT THE CLUB A FEW MONTHS AGO I WAS GIVING HER THE CHANCE TO CHOOSE WHO SHE WANTED MORE SINCE WE ALL SCREWED UP AND CHEATED ON HER BEFORE . WE ALL HURT HER SO BADLY IN THE PAST BUT I GUESS I DID MOST OF ALL . SHES ALWAYS HAD MY HEART AND IVE ALWAYS LOVED HER BUT WHEN I SAW HER THAT NIGHT WITH MATT, JEFF, SHANNON, AND THAT OTHER GUY SHE WAS WITH I LOST IT AND WENT FORTHE CLOSEST THING TO ANGEL WHICH AT THE TIME WAS SUMMER . OH TRUST ME SHES NO ANGEL . NOT BY A L ONG SHOT . SOMETHING IN ME SNAPPED THAT NIGHT WHEN I SAW LYSSA WITH THE OTHER GUYS . EPSECIALLY SINCE SHE LOOKED SO DAMNED SEXY AND LIKE THE OLD LYSSA I KNEW AND LOVED SO DAMN MUCH .
AND THEN SUMMER CAME OVER AND I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED BUT I SCREWED UP AGAIN AND DID THE SAME THING I DID SIX YEARS AGO TO HURT LYSSA . WHAT THE HELL IS SO WRONG WITH ME THAT I CANT JUST BE WITH LYSSA THE WAY WE SHOULD BE WITH ME ALWAYS ENDING UP HURTING HER AGAIN ..... I REALLY WISH I COULD GO BACK AND CHANGE THINGS BUT I KNOW I CANT . I KNOW THIS TIME I REALLY SCREWED UP AGAIN AND THIS TIME I REALLY LOST THE ONE AND ONLY THING I CARED ABOUT AND LOVED MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF AND WRESTLING . I NEEDED TO GO SEE HER AND MAKE SURE SHE WAS OKAY . I HAD TO LET HER KNOW HOW SORRY I REALLY WAS AND THAT I DONT BLAME HER FOR NOT FORGIVING ME THIS TIME . EVEN IF SHE DIDNT WANT TO SEE ME I HAD TO SEE HER ONE LAST TIME.
I MADE THE DESICION THEN THAT I WAS GOING TO GO SEE HER AT THE HOSPITAL EVEN IF SHE DIDNT WANT ME TO BE THERE . SO WITH THAT IN MIND I WENT AND GOT DRESSED AND GOT MY KEYS AND LEFT TO GO FIND LYSSA AT THE HOSPITAL. I TEXTED JOE AND ASKED WHAT ROOM SHE WAS IN AND HE TOLD ME SO I KNEW WHERE SHE WAS . HE WAS STILL PISSED AT ME AND I DONT BLAME HIM REALLY ID BE PISSED TO IF I WAS THEM .
SO WITH A VERY HEAVY HEART I LEFT AND WENT TO THE HOSPITAL TO SEE THE ONLY WOMAN IVE EVER TRULY LOVED WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL . THE ONLY WOMAN IVE NEVER FORGOTTEN AND THATS MY LYSSA ANGEL .
BACK AT THE HOSPITAL
COLBYS POV
I WAS A HAPPY MAN . I HAD THE ONE WOMAN WHO MEANT THE WORLD TO ME IN MY ARMS PEACEFULL ASLEEP WITH A SMILE ON HER FACE . THAT MADE ME HAPPY TO KNOW I HELPED PUT THAT SMILE THERE .
EVEN WITH LYSSA BEEING THIS SICK SHE WAS STILL BEAUTIFULL IN MY EYES AND SHE WAS MINE . SHE AGREEED TO MARRY ME AND THAT MADE ME EVEN HAPPIER TO KNOW I WAS THE ONE SHE CHOSE OVER JON . THAT I COULD MAKE HER HAPPY AGAIN AND GET OVER HIM FINALLY .
I WASNT A RELIGIOUS PERSON REALLY BUT I SENT A PRAYER WHILE SHE WAS SLEEPING IN MY ARMS LIKE THE ANGEL SHE WAS AND IS .I PRAYED THAT SHE WOULD GET BETTER AGAIN AND BE HAPPY WITH ME . AND THAT WE COULD HAVE A HAPPY LIFE TOGETHER . BUT MOST OF ALL I PRAYED THAT SHE WOULD RECOVER AGAIN . SHE DESERVED TO BE HAPPY AGAIN AND I HOPED AND PRAYED I COULD MAKE THAT HAPPEN FOR HER . I WOULD SPEND MY LAST DAYS WITH HER TRYING TO MAKE THAT HAPPENFOR HER .
I ALSO KNEW THAT SHES ALWAYS WANTED A ROTTWEILER PUPPY SO I DECIDED THAT I WOULD GET HER ONE . SHE SAID SHE HAD ONE YEARS AGO BUT SHE HAD TO HAVE HIM PUT DOWN BECAUSE OF OLD AGE AND HEALTH ISSUES . AND SHE MISSED HIM BECAUSE HE WAS HER BABY. SHE ALSO TOLD ME SHE WANTED A BLACK KITTEN WITH EITHER BLUE OR GREEN EYES SO I DECIDED I WOULD GET HER ONE OR TWO OF THEM AS WELL CANT JUST HAVE ONE THEY NEED FRIENDS TO PLAY WITH . I ASKED WHICH SHE WANTED MORE AND SHE SAID IT DIDNT MATTER TO HER BUT THE KITTENS WOULD BE EASIER TO TAKE ON THE ROAD WITH US . SO YEAH I WAS DEFINATELY GOING TO GET HER THE CATS . WHICH MADE ME SMILE .
