LYSSA'S POV AND THOUGHTS
WELL TODAY WAS A NEW DAY AND I HAD TO TELL THE BOYS I WAS GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS THEN OUT TO THE GYM TO TRAIN AFTER ..... WHEN IN ALL HONESTY I WAS GOING TO SEE THE SPECIALIST VINCE HAS ME GOING TO FOR MY TREATMENTS .... HOPEFULLY TODAY THEY WILL HAVE SOME GOOD NEWS FOR ME ABOUT MY PROGRESS SINCE THEY HAVE BEEN MONITORING IT NOW FOR A FEW WEEKS . HOPEFULLY I'M GETTING BETTER AND WONT HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS AS OFTEN AND THEY CAN CUT THE TREATMENTS BACK TO A FEW DAYS A WEEK RATHER THEN EVERYDAY LIKE NOW .
I GUESS I'VE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT DEPENDING ON WHAT THEY TELL ME TODAY , I WILL TELL THE BOYS AND ALSO GET IN TOUCH WITH MY COWBOY AND TELL HIM AS WELL . I STILL HAVE TO BREAK THINGS OFF WITH MY COWBOY , SINCE I HAVEN'T COMPLETTELY DONE THAT YET . JON UNDERSTOOD THAT I WANTED TO DO IT IN PERSON RATHER THAN BY PHONE , TEXT , OR EMAIL . THE MORE TIME I SPEND WITH JONATHAN I'M FALLING MORE AND MORE IN LOVE WITH HIM EVERY DAY . TO BE HONEST IF HE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM TODAY , I PROBABALLY WOULD . HE HAS HELD THE KEYS TO MY HEART FOR THE PAST SIX YEARS AND HE DEFINATELY STILL HOLDS THE KEYS TO MY HEART .
AND SINCE GETTING BACK WITH JON I FEEL MORE LIKE THE OLD ME AGAIN. I FEEL LIKE I'M HAPPY AGAIN AND CONTENT AFTER EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED BETWEEN US .
I GUESS THE THING THAT BOTHERS ME THE MOST LATELY IS THE WAY COLBY IS ACTING TOWARDS ME . ITS REALLY BREAKING MY HEART TO SEE ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS AND BUDDIES TO ACT LIKE HE HATES ME SINCE I HAVE COME BACK AGAIN AFTER SIX YEARS . I MISS MY BEST FRIEND AND MY BABY DINOSAUR . HE WAS ALWAYS THE ONE I WOULD RUN TO WITH THINGS IF I HAD A PROBLEM WITH JON BEFORE . BUT NOW I DON'T KNOW HES ACTING LIKE HE HATES ME AND HAS BEEN AVOIDING ME AT ALL COSTS EXCEPT FOR WORK RELATED THINGS ....
MAN I'M SO CONFUSED ABOUT EVERYTHING LATELY . BUT I HAVE TO STOP WORRYING AND CONCENTRATE ON MY GETTING BETTER FROM THIS TREATMENTS.
JUST THEN THE NURSE CALLED ME BACK TO SEE THE SPECIALIST . IF I WASN'T NERVOUS BEFORE I AM NOW SINCE I KNEW THAT TODAY WOULD AND COULD MAKE OR BREAK ME DEPENDING ON THE RESULTS . THE SPECIALIST CAME IN AND SMILED AND I GUESS I THOUGHT THE WORST OF THINGS .
LYSSA I HAVE SOME GOOD NEWS FOR YOU SWEETHEART......
REALLY ? PLEASE DON'T KEEP ME WAITING HERE DOC . I NEED TO KNOW WHATS THE RESULTS AND THE NEWS PLEASE .... I'VE BEEN WAITING TO HEAR THIS AND HOPING AND PRAYING FOR THE BEST ....
LYSSA YOUR IN REMISSION SWEETIE .... EITHER THAT OR IT'S GONE FROM THE PROCEDURE AND MEDICINE AND TREATMENTS. YOU COMPLETELY CANCER FREE MY DEAR .
OH MY GOD !!!!! DOC ARE YOU SERIOUS ? THAT'S THE BEST NEWS I'VE HAD IN I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG .
I LISTENED TO WHAT THE DOCTOR HAD TO SAY , AND ABOUT MY CARE FROM HERE ON OUT . THANKFULLY I COULD STOP THE MEDICINE THAT I HATE SINCE IT MADE ME SICK AND WEAK . I JUST NEEDED TO TAKE SOME PILLS EACH DAY AND REST AS MUCH AS I COULD TO RECOUPERATE TO GAIN MY STRENGTH BACK AGAIN . THE DOCTOR ALSO SAID HE WOULD GIVE ME A CLEAN BILL OF HEALTH SO I COULD RETURN TO WORK AGAIN FOR VINCE . HOWEVER I STILL NEEDED TO REST WHEN I WASN'T WORKING AND I COULDN'T OVER DUE THINGS LIKE I AM USE TO DOING NOW .
I ALSO KNEW THAT NOW SINCE I HAD THE NEWS I WOULD TELL MY BOYS AND ALSO TELL MY COWBOY . I KNEW THE HARDER PART WOULD BE TELLING MY COWBOY THAT I COULDN'T MARRY HIM ANYMORE BECAUSE I WAS BACK WITH JONATHAN AGAIN . PLUS I ALSO KNEW I HAD TO CALL LISA AND RAYNE AND TELL THEM AS WELL . LISA AND RAYNE WERE MY OTHER BEST FRIENDS WHO HAVE BEEN WITH ME THROUGH MOST EVERYTHING SO FAR WITH JONATHAN AND ALSO WITH THIS MEDICAL CONDITION OF MINE . I MISS THEM SINCE I'M WORKING IN WWE NOW AND THEY ARE STILL BACK HOME ON THE EAST COAST . THEY ARE TAKING CARE OF MY HOUSE WHILE I'M ON THE ROAD MAKING SURE THE GRASS AND STUFF IS NEAT LIKE I LIKE IT AND THAT NO ONE BREAKS IN .
