Replacement.

5."But he doesn't know that there's something wrong with me."

That's Maxine ^^

Song above: Roman Holiday by Halsey

(IKR ITS NOT THE NBHD)

Christie's POV

I drum my fingers on my thigh, my anxiety slowly slipping away from me.

I close my eyes, and when I open them Jesse is in front of me.

"Can I help you?" I ask, pushing his face away.

He laughs, and shakes his head. "Was just checking if you were okay." Jesse sits down beside me, leaning comfortably against me. I let out a sigh, and push him aside. 

"You're fat." I whine. 

He pouts at me, "You're fat. Fattie." I giggle, making him roll his eyes. 

"Okay you guys, you guys comfortable?"Jesse says loudly. Dan laughs, laying in Maxine's lap. She pushes him up, and away from her. He pouts at her, and she rolls her eyes, smiling at him.

"Who's gonna talk today?" Jesse questions, and Serenity fidgets in her seat.

"I'll talk today." Max says casually, folding her legs. I bite my lip, wondering what she would talk about.

"Well, I met this guy 2 months ago. And I actually really fucking like him. He seems to understand me, and doesn't judge me. But he doesn't know my reputation. My full reputation. He doesn't know that there's something wrong with me. I don't-I don't have the fucking ability to care for others. I can't do it. I'll enjoy your company, or I'll love you, but I can't care for you. I don't know how. I try, I really do, but when I try to, I don't feel anything. I don't fucking feel." She says, looking up at the ceiling. I see tears fall from her eyes, and I felt something for her.

I fold my hands in my lap, only to unfold them in a matter of seconds.

"I want to tell him, but I just don't want him to leave. My best friend left me after realizing I don't have the ability to care. And I know that he will too." She says softly.

"Well, you'll never know if you try, Max." Serenity tells her quietly. "And he's not worth it if he leaves."

"Not worth it?" Maxine breathes out. Her breathing grew heavy, and the only thing you could hear in the room was her heavy breathing.

"I don't care if he isn't worth it!" She stands up, yelling. I felt my anxiety build up inside, and I bit my lip harshly.

"He's the only thing I have." Max whispers, before running out the room. It was silent, and Dan stood up.

"I'm going to go get her." He mumbles, leaving the room quietly.

I could relate to Max, in some kind of twisted way. I was selfish like her, I didn't want to be replaced, just like she didn't want to tell him the truth because of who she is. Because he would leave. She was scared he would leave.

Just like I'm scared that I'd be replaced.

I turn to look at Jesse, and he looks at me, his face blank. Jesse lets out a small sigh, rubbing his face roughly.

"That didn't go the way I wanted it to." He mutters, leaning back in his chair.

"How did you want it to go?"

"I don't know. Not like that, for sure."
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I sat on my bed, in the dark, the light from my laptop illuminating my face.  

I found myself wondering if Maxine was okay. Where did she go? 

Is she okay now? I reach for my phone from my nightstand, and put the password in. I decided to text Serenity, and check if she had heard from Max.

{Me}: Yo, have you heard from Max?

I waited silently for her to respond, staring intently at the screen.

{Serenity}: No. :\\ Maybe check with Dan? I called him earlier, but he didn't pick up.

I bite my lip, chewing on the bottom softly. Weird.

{Me}: That's fucking weird. Idk I'll call him.

{Serenity}: Mkay.

 Let me know if anything happens?

{Me}: Yeah totally.

I call Dan, putting him on speaker. I continue to scroll through Tumblr, following people here and there. 

"Hello?" His british voice echoes throughout my room. I pick the phone up, pressing it against my face.

"God Dan, it took you forever to pick up." I breathe out.

"Sorry." Dan apologizes sheepishly.

"Its fine. What happened to Max? Did you catch up to her?" I pick at my nails, biting one of them.

I hear him sigh heavily, "I did. She was crying really hard, and I didn't know how to help, like the fucking fail I am." He says bitterly. 

"Hey, its fine. Don't beat yourself up so much, I'd be fucking awkward in that kind of situation too." I assure him softly. 

"I guess. She ran away again, and told me not to follow her." Dan says.

"Damn, that sucks." 

"Yeah, it fucking does." He pauses, "Hey, I gotta go, Phi-my friend is calling me."

I smirk, "Phil? Phillip? Your honey boo-boo?"

"Sh-shut up!" 

I laugh loudly, "I'm playing, bye Dan."

"Later Christie."

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