Replacement.

6. "It scared me, who I was becoming."

^^Serenity

Christie's POV

Maxine didn't come today, and it worried everyone.

"I'd like to go today." Serenity says confidently, a smile on her face. Francis picks up her small hand in his, lacing their fingers together.

"Alright, go ahead." Jesse tells her, crossing his arms, a small smile on his face.

She stays quiet, before gathering her thoughts, and starting to speak.

"I don't want to seem like the typical so called 'emo' teenager, but most honestly, I went through it. I hated myself, and I still.. I still do. I still feel like I'm not good enough, I still feel li-like I'm uglier than most, fatter, stupider, just overall, below average."

Serenity takes a deep breath. "I used to have these awful thoughts, that maybe if I just ended it, it would be better. That if I just killed myself I would be doing so much for everyone. For me, for the people around me. I thought that it would be a huge favor to everyone."

"Why did you think it'd be a favor?" Dan asks, his face full of confliction.

"Because. I mess so many things up, and I used to think if I wasn't there, nothing could go wrong. Everything would just be.. easier for everyone." Her voice came out shaky, and words forced out. 

"Do you still believe that?" I question, hoping I wasn't prying too much.

She simply stares back at me, in silence. "Not as much."

I was surprised.

"I used to do all these things, that are so bad for you. I-I used to smoke, and I used to..."

"Don't say anything you're not comfortable with saying." Jesse tells her sternly, and Serenity nods, staying silent.

"I just always have these really fucking insane thoughts, and it would scare me because of who I was."

"Of what I was becoming." Her words were so drenched with pain and emotion, and so heavy as they tumbled out of her mouth, that it scared me.

"But it got better. I met Francis, and things got better. A lot of things got better." She looks up at Francis, and idiotic grin on her face. I found myself smiling.

"I just wanted to tell you guys, that even though things seem like shit, it actually gets better. I didn't believe that saying at first, and I thought it was a load of bull," She laughs softly, "But it isn't. It's actually fucking true! So don't give up." Serenity smiles brightly at all of us, and I smile back at her.

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I walked back to my house, humming a Twenty Øne Piløt's song softly.

Just as I turned a corner, nearing my house, I saw Max.

I stopped walking, before running towards her.

"Max!" I yell, trying to catch her attention.

"Maxine!" I shout again, and she turns around.

Her eyes went wide, before more tears fell from her jade eyes.

She doesn't even run. She waits as I catch up to her.

"Max, don't cry. No, don't. It's okay." I tell her, hugging her tightly.

She held onto me, her tears soaking my All Time Low sweater. I rub her back, and continue to hum the same song from before.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Max chokes out, crying harder than before.

"It's okay. You're fine."

She pulls away, "Are you guys mad?"

"Mad?" I frown, "Why would we be mad? We're worried, upset, and we feel bad, but mad? Of course not." I tell her quietly.

She wipes her tears, sitting down on the sidewalk. "I'm sorry."

I don't say anything, and wait for her to spill her feelings out. I knew she had a lot to say.

"I didn't want to hurt anyone else." She whispers.

"Hurt who?"

"You. Dan, Jesse, Serenity, Francis, all of you guys. You guys mean so much to me."

"You didn't hurt any of us." I tell her.

Maxine was quiet, as she looked up at the blue sky.

"I hope I didn't. I hope I don't."
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